Planet of Dots

This is a tribute to the 2 who have stayed with me, from a few days to 1.5 months. They have been wonderful, adding colour and spice to my life. It'll definitely take some time before I ever find replacements for them. Now, I'll have to revert back to old me.

Salutez! And a toast to my hair extensions that officially retired last night!

looked at my legs and i remembered.. i'm supposed to complain abt my burnt legs... It's ridiculous! i went to ecp, sat on the ground to play cards, cross-legged. mild sun. and my knees were burnt after that?!?! my cheeks were red and my hands had slight tinge of burnt......

nuts!! where got sun!! how come i get burnt so easily nowadays?!? am i that fair??????

stupid tan line...  now got 2 obvious colours on my legs... irritating...

interestingly this month i have had a few conversations about 'younger man, older woman'... maybe it's because finally it has come to the time when there are younger guys in uni....

so does it really matter? i don't know... I don't really mind age difference... Should be able to accept 1 or 2 years difference.. But I mind the mentality... And more importantly, I mind the difference in lifestyles... Or perhaps afraid... I can't imagine a couple going through 3 years, where the gal is working and the guy is still doing his bachelor's... Really can't....

Talked with others.. Some cannot accept age difference... Some don't mind.. Some mind because the gal will end up looking much older than the guy as years pass....

doubt i'll end up in this situation anytime soon... unless some younger guy actually bothers to chase me... till then.....

finally.... after hectic days of going out... every single day meeting diff people for dinner or lunch or wat not.... i'm finally back after staying over at fren's house last nite.. and i'll be free for a few days!!! yay!! bumming time!!! so now i can write on my blog! been wanting to blog but no time

been meeting frens from sec sch, jc, uni... though i'm meeting old frens, sometimes it doesn't feel very different. some people still behave the same way and talk the same way... it's as if time has never moved...

yest i took bus from orchard to home... then my bus stopped for damn long outside rgs. thot the red light was very long then i realized that every vehicle was stopped at the junction. There were traffic police on bikes to stop cars.. waited and waited for quite some time.. Saw more traffic bikes zoom past damn fast to clear the road and move ahead. After minutes, we finally saw bikes leading a whole trail of cars. A whole trail of almost 20 cars!!! Woah.. dunno what big shots though.. So 'da pai'! Keep hundreds of cars waiting and waiting for them to zoom past..... Think my bus driver was in a rush for time or something. After that, his driving was utterly atrocious... Sharp turns and driving damn fast for a bus... So scary!
 
earned money today!!! went back to the fmri centre and did a screening test on laptop for them. Slightly less than 2 hours... How much I earn? 10 bucks! yay!! hahaha... oh well, it's the only money i earned this hols... How fast did I spend it away? One dinner right after that! yay! so exciting!! Hoping to earn more lah.. and also learn more.... So interesting.. I saw my batchmate, psy student, at the centre. She found a job there almost right after exams lor... So envious. Wonder if I'll have the luck next time
 
Went to this place called 'TeaSpa' with my fren today. Quite nice... Lots of herbal tea and all kinds of other teas.. I tried a horoscope tea for me gemini! Not bad not bad... Shared a green tea tiramisu cake.. Not bad leh... The first bite was a little weird cause you taste green tea with cream. But after a few more bites, i got used to it and the green tea powder's quite nice. Next time can go try....
 
 

congrats to me... my 4th swaps foc has ended... wow... so fast... can remember the days... and i still have all my 4 ribbons from my focs... so fast so fast.. cannot stand it ah... next year i'll be coming back! at least for finale night i hope....
 
hmm... shag ah... during camp still ok.. but the moment i come home, concuss after dinner and totally lethargic today... walk a bit of distance also tired liao.... think i have a total lack of adrenaline now
 
wat else for camp... hmm... nothing much abt guys.. i didn't get a knight aka secret pal. Expected lah.. not like i need one... had fun waltzing around with yj and "accidentally" bumping into pple.. hahaha. oh! the 2 guy campers in my grp reminded me a lot of 2 of my friends.. very interesting.. the entire camp i keep getting reminded of my frens... my grp's ok lah... not the super onz grp sadly but will do lah... nice pple... although i was station master for most of the time and couldn't mix with them much, i got the chance to mix around for the last night from supper onwards... wasn't as bad as i expected to push myself into their circle! think cause got campers started to chat with us at supper and one of two ask abt modules... and i was the first to solve one of the new 'iq games'! so i could sort of remove the "generation gap"
 
ah well.... that's all i remember for now! oh yes.. i haven't fall ill yet.. can't say abt it too soon anyway.. more happening stuff coming up! taking of convocation photos with frens and meeting up with frens from overseas.....

Suddenly I feel very old today... Was on the bus to Orchard and suddenly a question popped to my head. What's the meaning in life? Why do humans exist? Gave up.. Didn't bother to find an answer to it

Met my group of facilitators for the coming orientation camp. Was when I started feeling old. All going to be year 2s while I'm the only year 4.. Started to think how I have progressed over the years... And how many FOC (freshmen orientation camp) i have been thru. I've been a camper, then a programmer, then a permanent faci and now a faci. Think this will be my last camp. Soon my next role would be just a senior coming back for camp finale... Oh man.. so old!! Time really flies.... Saw a RGS gal and was thinking how long or not long ago my sec sch days were...

Saw this really cute little gal on my way back at the bus terminal. I think maybe only 1+ year old.. Walking by herself and slightly wobbly but still capable. She was happily exploring her world with her dad watching over her. Then she stopped and paused and looked at a nearby group of bus captains. Then she started waving both hands happily at them. So cute!! Really amazing how humans start out so small and slowly grow bigger and bigger. Soon.. very soon she'll come to my age and maybe think back about life...

Ok.. i'm not homophobic.. I just dun like it when they're touchy and feely in front of me...

Last night I was on the MRT, sitting in the 2-seater. Then this 2 gals came over. At least I"m 99.99% sure both are gals. The more boyish one sat beside me. Let's call her A. The confirm is gal one stood in front of her. Let's call her B. Shall tell u their actions then u tell me if they are lesbians...

One time, B held A's hand (the way u hold when u propose cause one in front the other). Then B will hold A's hand up to B's cheek. So A's hand touches B's cheek. This happens a few times. The last time (cause i watching from corner of my eye) I'm not sure whether the hand touched the cheek or B's lips.

Then another time, playful act to me. A was sitting down then one hand suddenly grabbed B's upper thigh for a short while.

After that occassionally, B's hand would reach out for A's face and make contact/stroke/touch A's face at the side

Are they lesbians?? Ah well... It's bad enuf that heterosexual couples are touching and doing funny stuff on mrt.. Now i see homos too... Oh well... Everyone!! Stop that act!!

things that we have to do... sianz...
when u wanna do something but u can't.. sianz....
to do thesis or not.. sianz...
wat to do for thesis... sianz...

so sianz...

I watched Spiderman 2! Nice nice... Somehow I just like the show.. Think I'm a little into these kind of fantasy heroic movies..

On the bus ride home, a question started to pop into my head.. Bread or love?? If you were a female and you have 2 guys in your life. One with good career, money, can provide stability, etc.. But you love the other one who can't guarantee you a stable future, only can give u uncertainty... Both love you.. Who would you choose??

Next.. If you were a male and you are in the same situation. You are the one who can't guarantee her the stable future.. Would you still persist in the love triangle and let her choose? Or would you volunteer to leave the scene so that the gal would only have one choice, the choice of a stable future?

Tough ah.. There's no right or wrong answer.. And I really can't come up with my own answer.. As the female, I really won't know.. Very tough decision unless I dun even need the bread. But if bread's good for my future in this realistic world, I dunno.. But if I were the male, maybe i'll let go.. maybe..

I wonder who likes falling ill... falling ill is good.. you get to rest and keep away from everything else. It's good when you have pple fussing over you.. But other than that, it's not very fun ah...

Haven't been writing.. Tired and sick.. Whatever common thing you can think of.. cough, flu, high fever, stomach wind, excess stomach acid and the latest puking... At least I feel better today.. Much much better...

Am I weird? I think I like injections and puking in some way.. Went to polyclinic and wanted a injection from my fever. Was 39 celcius when I took it at home but somehow doc only got a reading of 37+ so he dun wanna give me my injection. Damn sad.. But it was still 39 when i came back! And I used 2 different thermometers!! Why!! I always like injections when I have high fever. The medicine will enter my body faster and my temperature will drop. Spare me from the heat and the discomfort

Puking's good too.. When I'm sick at least... Somehow my condition will be much better after I've puked. Naturally of course. I dun force a finger in my throat.. But damn tiring for the stomach. my stomach's aching now... Used too much energy.. Wish I could stick my hand in and give it a rub...

Any other weirdos out there?