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Time flies. March is approaching to the end. That leaves us with the remaining 3 quarters; 9 months of 2012.

With quarter-end comes quarterly reporting work. Nice. Here goes the workload; data-downloading, analysis and justifying the over/under utilisation of the green note. Perfect. Satisfaction.

Life has been hectic at work. Planning-related work usually is at peak during 1) the beginning of the year when direction, target and KPI are set and 2) middle of the year when the budget cycle kicks in.

Two events were conducted in Q1 alone. Headache. I love event management, seriously BUT not when change of directions is in the picture, resulted in last minute preparation = pain in the ass. Saya lah prepare slide, saya lah buat montage, saya lah compile semua material, saya lah MC dan saya lah facilitate group activity. Pening. Nonetheless, our recent away day was well-accepted by the bosses and colleagues. We received great remarks and that definitely worth the hassle; made my day. Alhamdulillah. Kurang lah ralat tinggal suami dan anak-anak di rumah.

I miss having the trust to run the show my way. Fuh, ko ingat ko boss ke apa Ja? But I had the opportunity to run an event for the Young Executives, based on my flavour. My ex-boss is so cool. Thank you for the avenue and trust given, to prove my worth. I captured the moment here.

Am working on 1 important proposal at the moment. Critical, involving millions of RM. I hope the MD/CEO will not jump over the not so good news. Haish, orang lain pakai budget, orang lain justify the reasoning, orang lain dapat nama. Takpalah, dapat kerja dengan MD/CEO pon dah cukup honoured. Great leader. MD/CEO pernah marah and suruh saya sendiri present case in Board meeting, awak ada? Hehehe

Work, despite of the challenges, it brings so much satisfaction to me. Lagi-lagi bila company declare incentive. Alhamdulillah, ada rezeki isi perut rumah :)

sweet office

Hari ini, ulang tahun kelima aku berkhidmat dengan majikan tercinta. Mengikut kontrak, perlu 4 tahun perkhidmatan lagi sebelum pembiayaan pelajaran yang aku terima pada tahun 2002, langsai. Alhamdulillah.

5 tahun ini banyak mengajarku tentang hidup; tinggi rendah langit biru dan merupakan antara faktor yang mematangkan fikiran dan emosi. Jujur, aku pernah berputus harap tak lama dulu. Kenapa lambat dapat tawaran; tak layak kah diri ini? Sedangkan teman-teman yang lebih rendah pointer CGPA nya jejak menara megah itu sebelumku.

Akur, aku terima ini soal rezeki. Hikmahnya, aku ditawarkan jawatan tetap di sebuah syarikat yang juga one of the big players in the industry. Rezeki, aku tak pernah apply kerja itu; penghargaan buat bahagian Hal Ehwal Pelajar universiti, banyak bantu 'market' resume pelajarnya. Tak ramai dapat peluang bergelar permanent staff berbanding secara kontrak. Syukur; bertuah badan. Culturenya sungguh berbeza. Gaji pokok ketika itu pon tinggi berbanding di menara. Alhamdulillah, hujung bulan dapat guna bantu keluarga; dapat bayar itu ini.

Impian untuk terus di EM punah bila mana aku terima panggilan daripada majikan kini, bertegas supaya aku pulang berkhidmat dan membalas jasa baik mereka. Sempat 5 bulan di EM. Berat hati, terkilan pon ada. Kenapa hanya 2 minggu sebelum 6 months waiting period tamat? Kalau aku tunggu dan berharap dulu jawabnya 5 bulan poket kosong tanpa isi. Anak sulong ni punya hajat tinggi, bantu keluarga. Hati ini kupujuk, ada hikmahnya. Percayalah.

Tanggal 5 tahun ini, hati senang untuk mengakui; benar semua punya hikmah. Masakan tidak. Duit belanja majlis bertunang, kahwin, melahir dan membesarkan anak puncanya dari kerja yang satu ini. Belanja kahwin pon dapat aku adakan berkat rezeki dari kerja ini. Alhamdulillah, tak susahkan baba dan mama.

Membesarkan anak-anak dewasa ini tinggi kosnya. Mujur, hal ehwal perubatan semua di bawah tanggungan insurans yang dicarum majikan. Salah satu benefits yang melapangkan hati. Rezeki anak-anak. Kalau tidak, mungkin aku tak mampu ke situ. Kos bersalin normal senang-senang melangkau hampir 2 bulan gaji. Terima kasih majikan.

5 tahun, sepatutnya melayakkan ku untuk promotion ke gred seterusnya. Tapi tak kesampaian. 2 tahun sudah polisi penilaian prestasi dirombak. Aku kena tempiasnya. Maka promotion digantung. Ada rezeki, tahun depan baru dapat. Ini hikmah. Tamparan yang aku rasa merubah persepsi aku terhadap hidup. Aku jadi semakin tenang berdepan masalah; matured. Ujian ini menebalkan semangat positif dalam diri. Ya, benar aku ambil masa untuk kembali stabil. Kesal dengan nasib itu tidaklah setinggi kesalku terhadap respon pihak pengurusan. Pengecut. Buang duit pergi kursus mahal-mahal. Sudahlah pengecut, bias pula. Segelintir, bukan semua. Terkilan sampai peringkat nak letak jawatan. Kejap, kenapa nak buat macam tu? Aku bukan pengalah. Dek kecewa kerja penat seolah tak dihargai, aku telah develop perangai suka shopping mengubat lara. Parah! Hehe

Tak apalah, ada rezeki tak ke mana. Kalau tak dapat kat aku, mungkin dapat kat suami dan anak-anak. Benar, saat aku jatuh, suami sukses dalam kerjayanya. Dua kursus YO dia muncul best student dan best academic recognition. B grading lagi (dalam askar B grading tu payah nak dapat, tak macam kita civilian ni). Exam Kapt ke Major pon dah lulus. Kan hikmah tu? Alhamdulillah.

Aku pernah impikan kerjaya yang hebat. Tapi aku sedar, it does not work one way. Ada faktor-faktor luar kawalan yang ada impak ke mana arah kerjaya seseorang; selagi ada campur tangan manusia yang hasadnya pelbagai. Aku ambil pendekatan ini; terus berikan yang terbaik untuk perkhidmatan, selebihnya aku serah padaNya. Yang pasti, RA.UF dan Zulfadhli adalah semangatku. Ibu is so fortunate to have all of you in ibu's life. Saat diuji, I will take a step back and reflect how I am blessed with so many happiness. Jadi kenapa perlu bersedih dengan secalit dugaan?

Happy 5th Anniversary to us, Petroliam Nasional. May successs follows our way. How I have grown wiser serving you :)

Alhamdulillah.

P/s: Selamat Hari Tentera Darat :)

I am on emergency leave today. Raudhah Amani was down with fever since last night. I just dont have the heart to leave her with the nanny and selfishly go to work. So here I am,at home with my precious baby.

However, I did get work done from home. And I was overwhelmed with 2 emails received today.

1. From the support staff,acted as the photographer for Young Leaders Forum.

He has uploaded the pictures of the event into the intranet and was kind enough to acknowledge me in his email to all staff. I am touched,seriously. Thank you Abg Matcham!

2. One of the participants, who is from the OPI department has uploaded the report about the program in the intranet,for CUF Division. And her note in the very last paragraph...wahhh I am delightfully-speechless :) Thank you Kak Erin!

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

My new year started big. I was assigned to organise one of the company's annual events for executives, the Young Leaders Forum back in April 2010. The event was initially planned to be carried out in December 2010,considering the workloads and re-strategizing of work scope within the department. December itself is not a good month to begin with,which will only contribute to low turn up. So it was postponed to 6&7 January 2011. What a way to start the new year :D Plus,that was the only available time to secure the presence of the MDCEO to the event. Yey,am so glad to have one of the most respectful leaders in the organisation there. Alhamdulillah,Allah permudahkan. Overall,the event was a SUCCESS. Why?

First of all,we changed the focus of the event; from a very HR-driven content forum,into a dynamic,lively and wholesome spectrum of leadership sharing for the executives. Themed "Inspiration,Determination&Motivation towards Self Excellence", the event was designed to balance the needs to outperform and at the same time,practice exemplary values in career and life as a whole. Yes,the theme is a bit mouthful to pronounce but it only reflects how much you can learn from it. Interesting? Atleast the MDCEO and my GM were happy about it :D 50 seats were offered but 51 participants turned up during the event. This is history.

Amazingly,this event was run by only 4 executives.My assistant and I came up with the groundwork and the other 2 were appointed and came aboard later,during the execution phase. The fact that we were remotely dispersed,situated in 3 different work locations (KL,Segamat&Kerteh),SHOULD impress others more.Most of the time,communication was made through email.Cayalah geng Planner!Korang mmg superb!

The most valuable experience gained through this event is on delivering ideas and influencing others.I presented the groundwork to the GM.Yeah,she had no objection with the new focus.However,she had reservation with one of the proposed guest speakers,who I think is the best fit,a complete package for this event.So I stood my case,insisted to invite him and explain the rational behind the proposal.Alhamdulillah,at the end she agrees.

I also had the experience to have a 1-1 session with the MDCEO. I remembered the secretary called me on a one fine day,when it was just 7.40am.."Ja,En Sam nak jumpe pasal Young Leaders esok.." Must be about the speaker note I left at his office yesterday,I whispered. He was indeed a very nice person.Nothing much was highlighted,he just briefed me on what he is going to talk on the next day. Macam aku pulak MDCEO kan? Padehal he has all the right to talk on whatever he wish. And he made by day by ending the discussion with, "Good job". Fewit!

The Determination session was delivered by Malaysian 2nd astronaut, Mej Dr Faiz Khaleed. Apparently,he used to report to my boss's husband. So in a way,yeah the "cable" was justifiably strong. Okla,no doubt his knowledge and persona reflect the title as astronaut. Most important I think his determination to pursue his aspiration is worth to learn from.

Apparently,the most interesting session of all was the Inspiration session,delivered by internal speaker,one of the few young GMs in PETRONAS. YM Tg Taufik delivered his leadership journey in a very structured, simple,interesting,interesting and interesting storyline! and he covered most of the points I gave during the expectation setting discission. I really admire this guy. And I am sure many others are with me. To him, work is about making sacrifices. And no matter how busy he is,he makes it appoint to 3 things; dinner,Saturday morning and Sunday evening with his family.






The first day was loaded with tips to outperform or stretch ur target in what you do. So for the second day,we called Ustaz Aidil to talk on balancing the two "world". The message was, yeah go ahead reach your fullest potential but at the same time,keep the good values with you. Insyaallah things will fall into place.

The event then was continued with group performance. The performances were interesting and indeed creative. Some argued on the selection of topic, nothing new to them. Well,the focus of the organiser was more towards teamwork actually,not to test you dear Young Leaders. Later, 3 Management representatives joined the participants for a dialogues session. A lot has been asked and the involvement were my satisfactory :)

Of course,there were minor-tolerable hiccups here and there. But the team managed to handle them professionally.

All in all, the feedback is encouraging and I am happy. Thank you for the opportunity to lead and also to the team members, we have made it!

The GM (in red), The MC (behind Dr Faiz), The Astronaut & The Organising Committee :)

Venue : Dataran Merdeka
Mood : Mesmerize by the formality, both actions and appearance.

I left home at 6.45 am that morning and arrived around 7.20 am. The atmosphere at Dataran Merdeka was so inspiring. I like uniforms and love almost everything about army (for some obvious reasons…my husband is one of them that’s why!). I’ve been to their training sessions twice. Yes, they worked hard for the big day. Congratulations, the hard work paid off. Oh my boy(s) is(are) so joining the army. Just like the father! :)

I have officially moved to Gas Business on 4th May 2009. The environment here is different, something for me to explore to appreciate. But I’m adapting well; this stranger knows her limit, InsyaAllah.

My previous workplace was a bit isolated. I’d say the best place to focus on everything; to work and to play. I used to think that I’m an extrovert. But the more I think about it, I think I’m actually an introvert. I love to socialize but need my own space at the same time. Complicated. Hehe

Unlike the old one, the new workstation that I’m gonna be in is so exposed. Back then, the corner is for 5 people. But the at the new place, its for everyone. Exposure shock, is there such word?

Nonetheless, both have something to cherish for and I’m ok with both.

Today, I had my farewell celebration during lunch time. It was a small gathering of the old team plus the new girl who’s replacing me. 6 of us headed to Secret Recipe KLCC with stomach empty…but of course, came back loaded..phew~

The funny thing was, we talked about work over the lunch. Hehe I guess we are imbalance when afterall. The moment we open our mouth, its always about the issues, difficult staff and office gossips.

A big change awaits me…this new task is indeed, very challenging. Its time to move on and learn something new.