Happy 9 years, love. This journey has been amazing. From high school sweetheart to marriage and now, parents! I had no idea why i chose him at the beginning. Zul on the other hand said, he just know it back then. There were ups and downs of course. Especially when distance comes into picture AND military conquer the vision. We were once estranged from seing each other for 5months. Communication was a challenge during the early days. Handphones were not allowed and public phones were not to anyone's rights for usage. But somehow, we did not give up. Alhamdulillah, with His blessing we made it this far.
Alhamdulillah.May this blessing lasts to eternity. Cant stop loving you!
Alhamdulillah. The young one turns one month today. Ayah & ibu are so happy. It seems just yesterday we held you in our arms. The moments when you were born are still playing in our mind. Simply beautiful...syukur alhamdulillah.
Your presence brings our love to another level. Indeed,makes the relationship grows stronger.
We love you Raudhah Amani. We hope that you will grow bigger, healthy and happy in the name of love. Insyaallah :-)
How time flies. It seems too fast that i'm already in the 3rd week of my 60 days of maternity leave. A lot has taken place since then. Today,i am proud to say that i'm getting hold of the transformation,from a weekend wife to an everyday mother :-) Am not trying to show off (come on 20days to get familiarize is practically long,isnt it?) Just to motivate self after a looong day,at 'work'.
I must say,the body is not as strong as before yet. Help comes in handy especially in the new daily chores; heating up the batu tungku, boiling water for mum's and baby's bath and puting everything back in place. The wound and pain after labor plus the exhausion of sleepless nite result in a weak body. But alhamdulillah, the wound has healed and i now understand my baby better,to face the sleepless nites :-)
Confinement has been fun. The first week was being monitored by my dear mother. I owe this lady so much. Mama prepared everything from air rebusan mandi, delicious meals to Raudhah's affairs. At night,mama would come to my room everything Raudhah cries. Oh mama how could i ever pay you back. I wish i'd be a good mom to Raudhah just as good as you've been to me. Now,i'm on my own with my little sis who lends extra hand in my daily routine.
Knowing Raudhah by now, i'd make sure that i wake up early to take care of my personal business before she wakes up. From taking bath, bertungku and put on the bengkung. Then i take my breakfast before devoting the rest of the day to my precious lil one. One of the moments i enjoy the most is during her bathtime. Raudhah loves it. And the best part,she would make cute faces and so bubbly when ibu puts her clothes on. The rest of the day will be her nenen time, as and when required. I tried to steal some time to start working on my EBM stock, but to no luck. Will work on it soon.
Alhamdulillah. Raudhah Amani, we love you ao much. Ayah always express how weekend is too short to spend with you and ibu. Hope we could move in with ayah soon. And here's the pictures of you throughout our 20 first date, ibu's personal favourite :-) Oh,ayah said ibu has slim down fairly...yey!
It was on Monday,22nd Feb 2010.There was something about the appointment,i sensed.maybe its time...the hospital bags were all prepared.The night before,i told my mum on the plan.Mama brought one bag to work while i brought the other.I was on my 38th week.Birth can take place anytime now.
So i went to meet my gynae that day.Baby was in good condition.Her weight has reached 3.8kg.This left me with no choice, 'either u check in today or we have to undergo operation later.Baby is big' yikes!I made myself clear that i wanted to undergo normal delivery.Yes,i chose to check in later that evening.
Mixed Feeling
It was almost lunch time when i arrived at the tower.I was scared,couldnt believe that the time has come.I burst into tears few times since i let zul know bout it back at the med centre.As i reached the office,i break the news to fellow officemates and emailed my 9 bestgirlfriends.Oh i also went for lunch with Fatin!Wow..i couldnt concentrate on work anymore.Plus tears kept finding its way to come out.So i decided to take a walk..long walk to friends places at level 61,63 and 74.Wow,i never knew that people care.The words of encouragements,support and tips were overwhelming!I only came back to my place around 5pm,took sometime to prepare the handover notes and only left around 8.15pm.
Ready or not,here goes
Arrived,registered,checked in at my single suite.Zul was on his way from johor.ETA 2am.I was so glad that the officers considered our situation and helped Zul to get his leave,even longer than expected!Alhamdulillah.The moment i checked in,I was told to clean up.My BP reading was taken and at 10.45pm the first magic tablet was inserted to my v.To my surprise the show was there already.Later,i was connected a machine that keep tracks of the contraction.Contraction?Very mild at that moment..hehe.Zul arrived at 1.30am.Mama also accompanied me that night.To get good rest,was the mission.Its gonna be a long day tomorrow..
Happy Birthday, 23rd Feb 2010
My gynae came to check on me at 7.30 am.Yup,i was already 2cm dilated.She then induced another magic tablet into me.I wished Zul was there to witness the scene.He went out to buy breakfast for mama.Pain?Yeah,a bit but its tolerable.At 11am i was 3cm dilated.After being advised by the gynae and few experienced friends,i decided to take epidural to ease up the labor pain.So i was moved to the labor room to begin.
The anesthetist took quite sometime to get the process done.According to him,my skin layer was thick.He had to repeat the steps,i think 5 times! Moral of the story,dont put on too much weight :p around 12pm,i was asked to get some rest.The gynae expected that labor will take place around 5pm...NOT!! At 2pm,i started to feel disturbing sensation at my lower abdomen.I kept on bugging Zul with question, 'whats my contraction reading?' and surprisingly,it was not high.The feel was getting more painful as time goes by.Cannot be!I asked Zul to call the nurse.I became panic when the nurse confirmed that i was already 8cm dilated!She went out to call the gynae,she said.So there i was with Zul..we had our moments,mintak maaf,mintak dipermudahkan.Ouch..the pain was getting stronger n the gynae was no where in the picture.Zul went out of the room again and this time,i was fully dilated.Ok,its time!I felt a very strong pressure down there.Oh my.I tried to maintained calm and not push until instructed.Soon the gynae and her team arrived.Everything happened so fast.I pushed once..twice..until the fifth attempt only i heard the magical sound,the sound that i now hear everyday..my baby was born at 2.45pm!Zul was my hero.He guided me through the labor.He reminded me to stay calm and cited zikir while i was in pain..pain?Oh no its not over!Moments after labor i felt sharp tip making its way into my skin!How can this happen? Am i feeling needle on my private part?I thought i wasnt supposed to feel anything.Gosh i was so wrong.The pain was horrible,tripple the labor pain!This was the time when i cried out loud.I cried like a baby!It was painful and i am not kidding u!A while later everything was done.From distance i saw baba n mama making their way to reach me.I was still crying at that time...and they joined me in tears.Moreover when they lay their eyes on their granddaughter.Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah baby is safe.She weights 4kg and the damage reflect :p
The Name
Zul and i had the inspiration to the perfect name for our daughter in Dec 2009. I must say,its not as easy as it seems.Earlier i wanted name that starts with Z.I always like Zara Zulfadhli.A package; universal,simple and has meaning.But zara is one of the common names nowadays,just like adam,arif,alya,humaira and the list goes on.We wanted name that reflect us,no offense..so lets go back to history!The name is a symbolic of our love journey.It started in March 2001.Zul's parents went to perform hajj that year.And there was a list of 10 wishes.I only knew this after a while.If not,i'd love u more Mr Zulfadhli!Apparently,one of Zul's wishlist in 2001 was Nurhafiza Rosly...who that?Its me!! I guess his mom's doa at Raudhah on this makbul. There goes ur first name, dear Raudhah.Wait,i felt incomplete.Sounds quite tough huh the name?So we picked a few soft-sounded names and settled down with Amani..finally, Raudhah Amani bt Zulfadhli which means taman cita-cita.Indeed,u are our aspiration lil one!
Our first family picture, credit to Shasha :)
Alhamdulillah :-)
p/s: I asked Zul on how did he feel during the labor process..he said, 'sangat mengINSAFkan..' I couldnt agree more :) Mr Zulfadhli, although the damage [koyak] is big, i can stand another 4 rounds of this. Seing ur happy face whenever ur with Raudhah means a lot to me..I LOVE YOU!!