J@: March 2009

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

8 years and still counting...

Alhamdulillah. Today is our 8th anniversary in this journey of love. We've been through a lot since then and this what has brought us to where we are now.

He found his way to my heart with no hassle. And I have been admired from 'distance' - we were classmate during Form 5. I sat near the front door while his place was at the end of the other corner of the classroom. One day, he came to my place and asked me to meet him at the back door. That was when he expressed his wish. But yet he said I was the one that mengorat him back then ;p Its ok dear, either way pon I still love you!

He never failed to amaze me. This is when the personality and values come into the picture. He was easily accepted to conquer my heart, my family, then my life! And he played his role very very well so far. I'm grateful for that =)

Being in a marriage is so beautiful. I cherish every moment of this relationship. Distance didnt stop me from being happy. But distance actually makes the love grows stronger each day. The challenge is to find the perfect partner. The rest will fall into place, Insyaallah.

Dear husband, word just couldnt describe how much you mean to me. Thank you for being such a wonderful partner. You're my ultimate happiness. Love you! :-*

Get to know yourself better - Inspired by Diyana's entry

URL: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
And the result....

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
*I think I am...hahaha

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
*YES but I committed to the relationship first and got to know Zul along the way. U jampi I ke b?

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
*my love is only for Mr Zulfadhli and I dont flirt, and please, behave seductively?to the hubby of course! ;p

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
*EXACTLY

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
*oh this is so TRUE!! I can be control freak jugak Diyana!

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Comments anyone?

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Behind the joy and laughter...

Its been a while since my last entry. A lot has happened since then. Time flies so fast. And on top of the list is non-other than my marriage with my dearly husband which will mark its 4th month tomorrow. Being married brings me to a different chapter of a relationship. With both of us located at different state, it requires a little bit more to make it work. Alhamdulillah, all went well so far. I guess our long distance affair all this while has thought us a lot about give-and-take and contributes to our maturity in navigating the relation-ship. Now, when we go for a walk together, we ask each other… ‘Agaknye orang2 ni ingat kite ni suami isteri ke?’ :p 4 months…and the wedding albums are still my favourite companion, not to forget, the wedding video. I’m still not over the excitement. The feeling is just so beautiful.

Whenever I talk about my wedding, I cant seem to runaway from the sad loss despite the ultimate happiness I gained. A good friend got engaged on the day I got married, 08.11.08. We quarreled over the clashed date, morever when she said that I didn’t tell her bout the date earlier. We didn’t talk to each other for few days. But at last, I made peace with her and accepted that she won’t be able to witness my wedding as much as I wanted her to be. She’s a sister I never had. We shared problems, we consoled each other during difficult times, we shared the same concerns about work and we’re both the first child of the family. We understand each other so well in less than 2 years. She texted me on the wedding day “Salam ja..selamat pengantin baru.akak doakan semuanya berjalan lancar..dr jauh akak doakan kebahagian jaja J take care sayang – 10:41am, 08.11.08” I was so occupied during the big day that I hardy replied to the sms(s) that I received…which I really regret when at 8:28pm, 09.11.08, I received another text “Jaja..tolong bgtau bos kakak aku jaja..dia accident xsedar lg smpi skg…” from Darnih, the younger sister. I was busy washing kuali, periuk and all sort of kenduri utensil that I only open the text when another one came in “Jaja kakak aku meninggal dunia – 9:01pm, 09.11.08” Inalillah… I cried…and cried…and cried…

Dear kakak, it took me 4 months till I can finally write about this. I’m sorry that I didn’t reply your text. I still feel so bad about it. I believe this happened for good reason. We’re so close. But on the day you went away, I found my way to a husband. You were in Tawau… if you’re in KL, I might gone crazily sad over this loss..we took our life to the next stage on the same day. I got married in your favourite colour, purple. You struggled to get a nice wedding gift for me. And called me sayang in your text. Ya Allah, its just not easy for me…I miss you. You made big impact to others as well. I’m so fortunate to have the opportunity to be around you for 20 months. Thank you for being a great companion. Al-Fatihah to Allahyarhamah Hasnih Jamaluddin.