the friend who can be silent with us
in a moment of despair or confusion,
who can stay with us
in an hour of grief or bereavement,
who can tolerate
not knowing...not healing...not curing
that is a friend who cares.
Henri Nouwen
to each who has silently come by for a visit
or dropped and email to say hello
THANK YOU SO
or dropped and email to say hello
THANK YOU SO
april showers came hard
leaving puddles
water filled deep
so deep
that i felt
as if i couldn't wade one more step
as if i couldn't wade one more step
without sinking
drowning
i needed some time to grasp life
it.changes.all.in.a.blink.of.an.eye
and this time
i was struggling to deal with the pain, saddness, anger, frustrations
i was struggling to deal with the happiness of my day to day
i was trying to
grieve
grieve
understand
process
accept
accept
and just get through the days
more overwhelmed
than anything
the flu passed and brought in a round of colds
we suffered loss and celebrated the lives
of
four loved one
of
four loved one
one wee little had started all over
{after 1 year and 7 months
his seizures have come back}
his seizures have come back}
canceled fathers BIG surprise birthday
then
may flowers came in full bloom
and our hearts began healing
our minds quietly sitting with ease
one fathers smaller...no longer surprise birthday party soon to be
family would be arriving in a matter of days
{8-30+ years have passed since we have seen some}
and then
june arrived
a simple smaller birthday party was given
to honor and celebrate my father turning 70
take.a.deep.breath
SKY DIVING
this was per my fathers request
six of us including my father
fell from 13,ooo feet
on a gorgeous gloomy june day
one littles seizures
are being controlled by an increase in meds
my love and i's anniversary celebrated
one wee little celebrated
7
one wee older celebrated
13
and as if that wasn't enough excitement to be had
I have been chosen
to Officiate a wedding in August
and so alas
as july makes way
the skies are becoming ever so clear
warmth is rising
the gray is dissipating
with a welcoming nice big deep breath
i can
... sigh ...
relishing in the nothing
the calmness of what shall come
there are no plans set in stone
no busyness
no...nothing
just to simply be