SURVIVOR

i owe this blog so much..but i will summarize everything

bulan november je, dekat 3 kali i turun naik KL, to visit my father, after that i gi kursus kat Shah Alam, I met sikin, enab. hehe, finally i cooked for sikin. tak taulah sedap ke idok. all this time, i bagi dia resepi jer..

then jumpa enab,we had so many things to catch up. and dia dan nasrul dah loose weight ok.

balik je dari SA, i gi Melaka, kursus training for trainers. disitu bermulalah semuanya. I was informed by my hubby, my mother in law suspected cancer. i terus balik.

then, i amek EL, selesaikan house chores, and i fly to Sabah, my sis in law ada, so she took care of my athira balqis. second day i di sabah, confirmed breast cancer. Habis je i present i balik. And alhamdulillah, my mother in law, dah boleh take it. and she was down before, and kitorang reramai gi Senawang, my nephew kahwin. Izham, sorry terlupa nak jemput u..

hidup i memang kelam kabut starting nov, ni i back to the office in JB, i dapat mengajar JB sem depan (alhamdulillah, belum dapat pindah but dipinjamkan utk mengajar full load). semuanya ada hikmah. now sibuk cari maid, yang xguna ongkos yg banyak dalam jangka masa terdekat. harini my mother in law gi amek sample bllod and tissue, and by next week kot dah operate.

doakan semuanya ok.

sorry for the silence..

i am S.I.C.K

but dah ok.

i am tired but dah lega.

i am frustrated and still on.

i am going to attend courses.

I'll be back with all the stories..ok.

TQ for all the wishes, concern. I really appreciate it.

hi, yup i am here in my office. not going back to see my sweetheart. its seems ok at surface but things getting worst with my father sakit because jatuh dari bilik air and i am so homesick to see my dearest daughter (n my hubby). I had to represent my colleague to attend a course, in a way i think this is a good start for me. suddenly, i think its a useless effort, being homesick and cant visit my parents.

ada ke anak jahat macam aku or mak xbertanggungjawab?

i am damn guilty. hopefully everything will be fine coz i will be here

i am making myself busy overthere, no time to think anything because i bring a lot of things to settle when i stay there. hopefully, aku x meraung memalam.

Athira Balqis : I miss you so much...ALLAH will always be there for you.

ABang : kalaulah miracle happen....:p

Semalam dan kelmarin semestinya bukan hari bertuah I. I paid my phone bill around 1230 noon, dengan janji manis talian akan dibuka selepas setengah jam(kena bar). Dari Senai kul 130 ke Segamat, dah sejam kenapa, takleh call out, sepanjang nak sampai Segamat tu, empat kali I call, kali ketiga I dah scream, kali keempat operator letak tepon (boleh?). Dia kata setengah jam..damn, u sekat talian I, I dah gi bayar, susah sangat ke nak activate balik. Damn you CELCOM, menyusahkan hidup I and bagi I badmood dgn student I.

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btw aku jumpa ah-dad aka neezam md noor and julie n comel nina....dia blanjer aku makan and again hidup aku makin ceria sbb kat segamat ada gak kengkawan lama aku..but dia tak lama kat sini, pastu gi australia....

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aku nak gi rewang..err, aku xpandai rewang, that day aku fail potong bawang, nasib kalini masukkan goodies jer..

hehe, atas permintaan seseorang (i will listen to this song if that "someone" hantarkan lagunya sekali with the lyrics ..)


LEKA – ATILIA (OST P.RAMLEE THE MUSICAL)

Lihatlah..lihat dia bermesra
Membelai kekasihnya
Sepenuh hati dan jiwa
Dengarlah...
Nada sukma kasihnya
Membalas belai mesra
Berlagu
Kau lah kekasihku

Leka
Ku dibelai mesra
Jarimu merayu menggoda didada dia
Salah aku hanyut kepada mu
Kerana leka dan juga tergoda
Belaian mu mesra

Apakah
Akan begitu kita..
Andai ditakdir pulang
Kita semua kasihnya

Dengarkan ...
Degupan jantung hati
Gelora cinta kami ... Menyanyi
Kaulah cinta sakti

LEKA DAN JUGA TERGODA BELAIAN MU MESRA...

i met her on 1998. i asked her (repeat : ASKED her) to be my fren, one of my naqibah said "dia contoh yg baik, kalau nak buat kawan". She was there on my up n down, she was my shoulder bila i nangis gaban. she was there masa i paralysed sebelah badan. she was there on every occasion..and i always give her surprises and so did her. helping me on my wedding, cakap x turun johor masa my wed sblh my hubby, alih2 terpacak dgn one whole bunch of her family to represent as my family side. she was there also masa i beranak. she did a lot of things and i am so speechless when it comes to her. her husband can accept me and helped me a lot too..and defintely accept our friendship. never say NO when it comes to BB n ENAB. He understand and i appreciate. Thank you, Nasrul.

And today definitely is her birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,my dear ZAINAB. i miss her, i love her, i adore her. Semoga murah rezeki and segala urusan dimudahkan ALLAH. Amin

Enab : i tak reti nak tulis lebih2, kang aku mushy mushy, susah, dah ah demam, batuk u heard my voice oredi..n homesick..semuanya ada.

sape kate dok segamat tak enjoy?








pasangan secret affair...(sbb tu dia tunduk malu, hehe)


Gambar di atas diambil masa open house Zue, Zue disiram spray sabun sbb dia tgh tgu hari nak kawin, nanti dah kawin xleh kacau...

Gambar di bawah lak, baru semalam dgn my condition yg demam, elok sangatlah tu. majlis smmlm meraikan andar (anak dara) dan anbu (anak bujang)"pinjam vocab fazlin"..hehe iaitu Maizurah, K.Aishah, Zurina and Muru.


model iklan darlie





tangan-tangan yg memotong kek...

Memang best, menu pun best, chicken chop, ice cream, spegeti, kek mus mus. and I sememangnya enjoy the nite walaupun demam, kepala berat and selsema macam hujan turun. cuma upacara bowling dibatalkan sbb sumer macam dah xlarat dah.

mencari cinta..

cinta sesama manusia bukanlah cinta hakiki..cinta kepada Allah adalah cinta yang pasti.

kenapa kita selalu kalah kepada cinta, sebab kita rasa kita memiliki cinta itu. Salahkah rasa memiliki?

kenapa bila kita pasrah, baru kita kembali? baru ingat semula cinta hakiki?terlalu alpa dengan cinta sementara, kita hanyut dengan hakikat sebenar?

carilah cinta hakiki, bersama-samalah kita di samping menjaga cinta yang sedia ada.

Jangan abaikan orang tersayang, bimbing bersama-sama mencari cinta yang satu..

Salam Jumaat, Assalamualaikum semua..

hehe, memang penat.malam tadi baru rasa lega.coz people keep coming and we have to entertain, ada incident i tersengguk2 tido masa guest sampai. hehe, cant help it lah. walau macam mana i sedih raya ni, i tetap kena celebrate, x bestlah sedih2, lagipun tengok gelagat athira balqis yg xmo dok diam tu..memang penuh hari.

Monday, we (Me, my mother in law, and sis in law and my sweetheart ATHIRA BALQIS) gi angsana, for raya shopping. hehe, last minute gak...baju raya for me and ilham, kasut utk sweetheart, barang rumah, some ranting and bunga. kitorang gi kul 11 balik kul 5..Alhamdulillah, athira tak meragam macam gi jusco tebrau (sampai xjadi shopping).

Buka pose luar, balik me n my hubby n sweetheart balik dulu. time nak tido kan dia, dia start meragam, sejam nangis berhenti and sambung balik, almost two hours, first time bawak gi klinik, dr kata kembung perut, dr bagi ubat muscle relax(sbb nangis x berhenti) and angin..ish, nitemare tul..

She will cry macam kena belasah..itu yg xtahan..

On Tuesday, baru I gi tukar duit, 3 bank i pergi, 2 bank habis duit, walaupun i mintak duit lama, the cashier said "dah abislah kak". Cari ayam tua, Allah hu Rabbi...hmmm, ialah cari last minute, mana nak dapat..lesson to learnt for next time.

Raya? My hubby kerja...gi 530 pagi,salam raya pepagi buta...siapkan air n baju dia..

sedih?dah biasa, life must goes on..hantar dia, and start kerja balik..

some piccies...

First time, i rasa sedih n sayu utk berhari raya. Biasanya i takde perasaan sambut raya. Setakat enjoy macam tu sahaja. This time , different. Lagi nak raya, lagi i syahdu. Aduss, emm, i tak balik KL tahun ni utk beraya, biasalah, hubby kerja.

So, i will like to take this opprotunity to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri. Maaf Zahir Batin.

I know, its quite early, esok aku nak balik awal, mgu depan internetless.

Jemput dtg umah, confirm raya pertama i ada kat umah. kalau selepas tu, please do call me.

hehehe, i memang garang, tapi sesiapa yg kenal i pun tahu. i bukan garang jer, kuat mengusik pun satu. suka gelak pun yer. malam tadi sebelum tido, i muhasabah, what if, i cuba jadi pendiam?hehehe..i know, some of you will say, cuba 30 saat, i memang xreti dok diam. but, bila i buat silent treatment tu, maknanya i dah abis stress or, i memang nak avoid something.

i bercadang nak buat silent treatment utk diri i, boleh? penatlah cakap. semenjak kerja baru ni, suara adalah aset yg berharga. bulan ramadhan pun patutnya digalakkan kurang bercakap. Semalam tido kul 3 pagi, bangun kul 6.Did some washing, sweeping, and susun atur barang i nak bawak balik umah. lepas tu tido balik, gi keja, and here I am. still kat opis. biasanya time ni, i dah cabut balik senai. I had lots of things to be done, alhamdulillah separuh settle. tinggal separuh.

need to go, xsabar nak tgk my darling and of coz my hubby. Minggu ni rasa rindu terlebih...hehehe..

selamat Berbuka.

Ya Allah, selamatkanlah Umat Islam yang sedang merana diseksa..

Amin....

tajuk seriusnyer...hehe

what happened to our politicians?

I dok bayangkan kalau Anwar rules, what will happened..and how about PAS and DAP..

Allah hu Akbar.

hmmm, being a weekend wife, its not easy. I apply for transfer. And the answer is NO. Due to situational decision. Someone else needed the PLACE. Deep in my heart, "how about me". I am praying and still pray, hopefully there will be a chance. When, dunno..But I'll keep trying. thats for sure..

Hey, life must goes on, i love the job mahh...its ok. Allah will always be there for me and all of you.

Athira Balqis sekarang ni dah pandai dah merajuk, and takleh baring bawah, nak jalan jer (hehe, ikut mak dia kot, sbb masa ngandung jer dah travel up n down). In fact letak dia dalam "kereta tolak" pun dia nak meniarap..ish ish..

My hubby lak dah berani pegang dia, pandai bagi dia minum susu.dah boleh bawak dia jalan...hehehe, kalau tak takut..

Nantilah i uploadkan gambar baru dia...

adios..

hah, she called on Friday, dia turun JB. But she didnt mention what time and when to arrive. End up, Sunday morning, I kat Larkin dia kat depan umah I. Boleh? Memanglah I sedih...huhu..takpe Enab..We will have our time soon..(bila, wa pun tak tahu)...

hello...yup i managed to see sikin at angsana last Friday, sepatutnya nak jumpa nak discuss on something, but I had enouugh on that day. Something happened which the impact I STRESS lah kan..All the way from Segamat to Larkin then to Uda. Lepas tu baru balik Senai. What a day, malam lak my dear darling meragam coz baru kena inject semalamnya, aduss, there goes my day.

Jumpa Sikin, we had talk, she look pale, sian dia. she treat me KENNY ROGERS tu.. tapi KR angsana sucks. Dont go there if u mengidam makan KR (like me). But thanks to Sikin. She look tired too, and being a regular traveller dgn keadaan mengandung, I can understand the pain, lagi lak early trimester. Ko kena banyak berehat...Jangan stress ok...

Oh ye, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al Mubarak. Forgive me if I had say or write something yg boleh mencalarkan hati you all...heheh..Semoga bulan ini, diimarahkan dengan amalan kita. Amin..

Bila dah berkeluarga, ada jer jemputan yang perlu dipenuhi. Dah jadi macam adat, whoever yang datang kenduri or ziarah kita, we must return back their visit by doing so when they had some function. Last week, i dah attend kenduri kahwin. Stil, ada yang pending:
a. Ziarah my hubby cousin yang kematian anak (sedih, bersalin terus meninggal).
b. Ziarah my hubby cousin yang selamat melahirkan anak. Hadiah dah beli, tunggu masa I jer.
c. Ziarah makcik sakit
d. Bertandang ke umah pengantin (sbb xdapat dtg wedding).

Semua tu kena pergi, according to my inlaw, dorang datang kenduri Aqiqah Athira Balqis. I perasan, tapi sbb ramai sangat I tak pay attention.

My hubby lak prinsip dia, walaupun xdapat dtg on the day kenduri ataupun kematian, we must pay a visit. Tak kira bila, so sekarang ni, i tengah squeezekan my schedule yang pack ni, utk masukkan semua agenda di atas.

Inipun ada yang masih datang ziarah MY SWEETHEART, hmmm, tetamu datang tu rezeki..so Athira Balqis dah ada ramai peminat skang ni di kalangan sedara...heheh, senang gak, bila org dtg layan dia, i boleh buat kerja rumah..

adios, nak attend kelas..

Boleh gugur jantung, semalam baru dapat MMS ni. Hari ni baru nak jumpa lepas 4 malam 5 hari..ish..

Astaghfar bebanyak...

*hubby dah kuar wad after being admitted for 5 days
*I met ENAB!
*I am in BAD mood
*Kena mandi dgn ais kot
*I banyak kerja but in very depressing mode, boleh ka?
*On the other hand, my father condition getting OK. I am HAPPY.

*I miss someone and we didnt have the time to see each other. Selalunya, akulah yang buat hal. I miss her.Rasanya dari aku mengandung aku xjumpa dia...And she owe me SECRET RECIPE!

Yes...dugaan memang tak disangka..my husband masuk spital and didapati ada sinus infection gak..kena potong itu hidung.

I sempat balik tadi and sekarang kat my opis kat JB. Hospital dari sini 10min jer...

3 malam kat spital...keranamu suami...hehe

kerja banyak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye..

as enab said to me, "B, dark nite is compulsory to watch, u kena gi ngan Ilham." yup, bila enab said so, i know by heart its a very good movie and i can say that, bcoz enab tahu camne taste kitorang.

Masalahnya :

1. I travel every week
2. Ilham kerja syif
3. Athira needs attention
4. Semenjak I pindah umah baru ni, panggung dah jauh.

what happened, last monday i bought the cd..hehe...so i cakap ngan ilham, i bawak gi segamat I watch first..kononnya lah..

Semalam, ari i travel dari senai terus gi ofis, balik kul 930 malam, mandi n terus bukak, end up dark nite tgk i...kah kah kah

huwaa...enab also said DULU...b, enjoy ur time masa takde baby ni b...

and i admit its true, nasib baik, dulu memang i rajin ngan ilham kuar..ada jer masa bersama...and now lagi I appreciate masa bersama ngan hubby, gi kedai pun kira dating..macam2 cara kitorang cari utk find time together...

as long as ada effort..insya Allah..

Ramai yg tanya, tak rindu ke baby?Alhamdulillah, Allah bagi i kekuatan dan kerja yang menimbun serta jadual yg padat buatkan i leka dari pikir Athira...Allah bagi i kekuatan utk cepat siapkan kerja, more effective...Alhamdulillah...

hah...apa mendalah JBMS tu ek. Its a short cut for JB Music Station Team. Bendalah ni kat McD Drive Thru Kulai...ala ala, Fast n Furious, XXX, semua tunjukkan kereta. Best giler sound system dorang, adalah 2-3 kereta yg i minat..but bila tanya ongkos, around 20-30k tu...ish ish.I gi ngan my hubbylah..

Bila lagi nak dating, nak tgk wayang, jauh sangat and time constraint...so ini jelah our time out to be together after athira lahir ke dunia. Athira, she is just being naughty n manja, xboleh tinggalkan dia dah, need someone khas, untuk bercakap n layan dia, kalau tinggalkan dia buat kerja, mulalah dia bagi signal n alarm..

and yes, at the age of 2 months plus, dia dah meniarap..

me, driving to and fro segamat last week, oklah gak, journey tak memenatkan sebab jalan clear..bila tgk anak, penat pun hilang oo...

oklah, nak buat kerja dah..later..

bubai for now..

ni masa dia baru lahir



ni antara baju auntie enab bagi

athira bergaya masa kenduri kesyukuran



ladies n gentleman, this is the proud mom n dad of ATHIRA BALQIS


hehe, me n my girl n my baju tunang yang dah muat



me n enab with our precious






i am a weekend wife now...so, my schedule padat....takyahlah i cerita panjang lebar, cukup sinopsis, sebulan sebelum i bersalin, i dah bed ridden, bcoz of batuk, i selamat bersalin, normal dgn berat baby 3.4 kg. i berulang alik every week sekarang, mengajar dua tempat, alhamdulillah, but penat sikit..first time this wek i pisah dgn baby, alhamdulillah, i am ok and kerja i pun memang banyak giler...

thanks for your wishes and compliment..

Alhamdulillah

ATHIRA BALQIS BT MOHD ILHAM
25 MEI 2008
12.14 AM

mesti u all ingat i dah deliver kan...belum lah

on 23April I was admitted in Segamat, then my hubby dtg, discaj and balik KL. Sepanjang kat KL i ok, sempat berjalan bagai, even tho dr bagi estimation lagi 4 hari i akan deliver.

So, baliklah ke Kulai, my sweet home, unfortunately for almost two weeks sampai sekarang i suffer demam panas, batuk yg tak berhenti (yg boleh terkucil tu), selsema yang hebat, my voice hilang...

baby pun xmo kuar lagi, i dah fed up jumpa dr, and setiap kali dr pun tak leh buat apa, my tido malam gone..dah macam2 ubat i makan, moden n tradisional to cure, last2 i surrender. i bantai je sumer..Thank God, my inlaw ada dengan i sepanjang dua minggu i sakit ni. Yang bosannya, sumer tepon, belum beranak lagi ke?

Kalau ikutkan, tinggal hari je, i dah boring tahap dewa, tolong my hubby jaga CC dia, sbb nak ilangkan boring 2mgu xde internet..

Haiyoh....

Too many things to settle and too short time...hehe.

I am a mother to be in 4 weeks time (ALHAMDULILLAH), which eactly not in 4 weeks time, sbb tak tahu bila, senang citer tgh tunggu harilah ni. My rutin everyday, minum air zam2, makan ubat, turun tangga, naik tangga. Kerja tgh berhempas pulas siapkan sbb taknak orang kata, i buat kerja cenekeh. Kalau ikutkan my housemate, perut dah turun, tunggu masa, ni kalau aku ikut petua kakak aku, sure beranak terus. heh, dia suh panjat tingkap ke kerusi ke, ceit, hampeh punya kakak, but it works for her lah kan.

Banyak kerja aku nak siapkan, tapi aku bangga gak, kurang-kurangnya ada sasaran aku yang tercapai.

Alhamdulillah. Driving up and down, turun naik ofis, berhempas pulas siapkan markah bebudak but seriously i enjoyed it. I suka give and share with anak bangsa kita cuma bila one phone call from my hubby saying that he cant live alone, he need me. Aduss, bila i dah ok, dia lak. He mentioned being lost. Ya Allah, berikanlah kami kekuatan.

I need him too...soulmate takde tu. Ibarat mandi tak basah, tidur tak lena. I can understand, lagilah dgn keadaan aku macam ni, but my dear baby being a humble baby dgn tak menyusahkan sangat mommy dia. Thank you baby... I love you. i hope my hubby will always be my GLADIATOR, kalau dia goyah, abislah aku...tapi me being a survivor, insya Allah akan bagi dia semangat...Insya Allah...amin...


oklah nak sambung kerja.

What goes around, comes around..

Listen to Alicia Keys song KARMA...hehe, lagu tu best.

I always believe, kita kena selalu buat baik dgn org, nanti pertolongan kemudahan akan dtg tanpa kita sangka2..

My cermin mata PATAH!!! Many thanks to ina n naz...they accompanied me to book and all the way from tangkak hantarkan spek aku.

and now, i macam wonder woman, new face, all this while dgn frame hitam, alih2 tukar ke silver (like my first spek).
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edited on Tuesday 15 April 2008

pagi tadi i gi check up, YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOO!Alhamdulillah, syukur yg tak terhingga. My darah ok, baby ok, semua ok! cuma kena bebel rajin dtg klinik jer..

mgu depan kena datang lagi...takpelah, tak lama je lagi...

tata everyone, nak sambung kerja.

Last week, i went home. Yup, i drove back, hehe. my hubby was quite afraid bcoz i was alone, but alhamdulillah, i managed to reach my house in 2 hours. Home sweet home, kesian laki aku kena bebel sbb umah berabuk...so, sampai umah je, i angkat itu penyapu and menyapu, but since umah aku "luas" sangat, aku tak larat memanjat...i buat yang mana perlu je. i do the laundry and kepenatan.

On saturday, we went to attend kenduri kahwin, and malam tu i belanja my hubby McD, i teringin bubur ayam McD. On Sunday, I cook, and kebetulan pakcik and makcik my hubby bawak makanan gak, so potlucklah tghhari tu. Momentum masak tak macam dulu (slow sikit), but I managed masak kari ayam, sayur campur, papadam and ikan kering. malam tu makcik ada tinggalkan lauk asam pedas, sbb i memang suker giler asam pedas...

on monday we went to skudai to settle our errands, and there goes the day. on Tuesday, i gi beli barang umah, since semua takde stok, and elly tido my house, and malam tu dia kena "ketuk" ngan laki aku, hehe xpasal2 kena belanja.

on wednesday, patutnya i balik pagi konon nak konvoi ngan elly, masalahnya i kena flu, and ngantuk amat sangat, so i tido jap, bila bangun kul 10 tu, boleh i malas nak gi s*g*m*t? huhu, dengan hati yg berat, aku meninggalkan umah aku.

survivor kan aku ni, padanlah...drive balik sengsorang, terus masuk kerja. and percaya atau tak, dalam sebulan je aku nak bersalin dah..kalau boleh nak bersalin awal...tapi bila pikirkan kerja tak settle lagi, the intention tu mati macam tu jer..

lepas ni ntah bila i akan balik my house, since my confinement day will be in KL, huhu....hopefully everything turns up well.

p/s : to all the wishes, tq!! appreciate it.




"....i miss him"

Last week, selepas penat turun naik uruskan kereta, i think my body pun dah jammed, yup i can say that i am not in good mood. Mentally and emotionally down. Impactnyer? My hubby terus amek cuti and sampai sini. He was surprised to see my condition and yup the next day, gi klinik, i had two days mc and we do the scan to see, my baby ok ke idok kan, sbb banyak sangat yg nak jadi doktor around me. Alhamdulillah, baby ok. Mak dia je, kureng sikit. Dr. kata stres kot, my fren kata ko stres ke, macam happy je dok sini...(dalam hati aku, stres macam2 beb, Allah je yg tahu). Dr, bagi macam2 ubat and some of the ubat of coz ada side effectnyer...

Dalam hal macam ni, i salute both of my sis, seorang dgn 8 anak, sorang dgn 4 anak. Both sis, ada anak dia yang i jaga dari umur 1 hari...And bila pasal advise ni, masing2 kata, setiap orang fasa pregnant nyer lain, setiap anak, pengalamannya lain. And they never said, "u cant do this, u have to eat this", tarak...dorang kata, "Tera, ko tahu diri ko, ko cukup makan, jaga diri ko, insya Allah, oklah baby tu." My first sis, masa arwah abang ipar i ada, dorang bukan mewah, seingat i, makan kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang..yup that poor. But ALHAMDULILLAH, kelapan2 anak dia salin normal and dia sihat. The only formula, i can say is u need to be happy and syukur dengan apa yang ada. Same goes to my second sis,kes dia lain sikit, first anak dia gugur,anak kedua lahir songsang last minute, and yup lahir dgn 1.7kg, achik dialah yg jaga dari umur sehari sampai dua minggu, amek cuti masa tu (tak silap i, i second sem). sbbnya my sis takut nak pegang sbb kecik sangat. Boleh ke?hehe...but stil thru out her pregnancy time, macam2dia rasa dah, setiap anak beza.

So, bila i dah penah gugur 3 tahun lepas, both my sis and my mom, xpenah mendesak atau pushie tanya bila ko nak beranak lagi ke or whatsoever termasuk my inlaw. They have been so supportive sampailah i pregnant..Cuma bila mgu lepas, they found out yg hubby i turun, ni mesti kes berat, my mom terus nangis kat phone sbb dia tak dapat jaga i..alahai, mak, relakslah, anak mak ok...my sis lak dia tak pressure apa2, suruh jaga diri and hati..hehe..my inlaw lak dah risau bagai, keep calling....

i really do appreciate...

i always percaya, setiap dugaan yang Allah beri tu, mesti sbb Allah tahu kita mampu nak hadapinya..so, i tahu ni semua nak bagi i kekuatan and dalam masa yg sama kuat lagi beribadah.

btw, masa scan haritu sempat tanya, dr. anak saya boy or girl, penatlah dia mencari, but my baby ni memang pemalu, dia nyorokkan, dah dua kali dah... so surpriselah jawapannya...

sempat gak membeli belah barang baby...hehe, cant help myself laughing at the tiny miny socks, mittens and baby cloth...hehe, dalam hati ni, ni semua anak aku nak pakai ni....i tak beli banyak, setakat 2-3 pasang, my inlaw kata dah siap semua barang baby kat umah sana(terharu beb)..i cuma beli brg asas je, lampin, pampers, and etc..

to my fren yg sedang melancong, akan melancong...INGAT, korang tgk aku balas dendam ke idok lepas aku 44hari pantang.

K.su yg berada di Thailand, huwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......nak itot

Kin yg akan ke Bandung , patutnya 2006 aku gi............huwaaaaaaaaaaaaa..enjoy ah...

to my fren yg nak melangsungkan perkahwinan

Ina n Nazri ; Semoga murah rezeki, and hehe....welcome...

Soul n Bem ; Setakat ni ko belum cakap apa2 ngan aku, aku main agak sendiri, bila ko nak buat kenduri..?kui kui kui kui

ok, adios, aku takut aku xsempat nak update jer...take care and doakan i...bubai

Something to think :

Tayar yang ditempah khas dan harga emergency = RM 290
Engine oil and filter = 65
Chamber depan 2 = 70
Punat tayar = 15
Rim bengkok (gi press) = 60
Balancing dan allignment = 50

Nearly RM 600 guys!!!!My own money, for benda yang bukan dalam kawalan i, and its somebody else punya fault pun...apa nak buat bila org tua berdegil nak drive malam, tak nampak, bila dah langgar, lanyak lagi, sebelum ni kereta ni org tua yg pegang, dari bulan sembilan TAHUN LEPAS tak servis, boleh ke? Minyak hitam dah jadik grease, ada ke org tu nak marah aku, aku tak reti jaga kereta...aku lepuk kang baru tahu, itupun ada benda belum buat lagi, break pad, gua dah takde duit beb, next monthlah...

Dalam keadaan 8 bulan pregnant, aku gi tengok setiap biji butir orang tu godek kereta aku (sebelum ni hubby je yang buat walaupun aku ikut but dok dalam bilik kaca)..and now, my time, my MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY..........huhuhuuuuu

Duit tu utk baby...Allah, semoga ko mudahkanlah urusan kami. Mesti ada hikmahnya kan..Nasib baik aku paham kantonis, kat area S*g*m*t atau JB nak cari org Cina yang cakap kantonis memang payah, rupanya orang kedai ni orang KL, heh, memang dia x fluent mandarin, so dia takleh tipu aku....

And dekat dua jam lebih, i am seeing the car being up and down, repaired, and bila bawak balik kereta ni, baru rasa selamat. Dengan beralaskan Nes O and Roti Gardenia sekeping, baru je lunch dengan tenang..and my baby pun tak buat hal, dia tahu mommy dia tengah gelisah.

My advise :

1. Kalau nak tukar tayar and rim, pilih yang selalu orang guna. Check the market
2. Servis kereta selalu, kalau ada kereta yg org tua guna, ingatkan. paling tidak engine oil n filter.
3. Bila langgar lubang dalam je, terus gi buat allignment balik, takpe rugi duit, tak hilang beratus camni
4. Avoid LUBANG!!!
5. Kalau rasa tak boleh drive malam, jangan tunjuk pandai!!!
6. Bila dah rasa something wrong dengan tayar, ikut instinct.Gi check awal2.
7. Kalau dah tak tahu pasal kereta, jangan pepandai buat keputusan, seek advice.
8. To ladies driver, make sure u tahu pasal kereta, jangan bagi orang tipu.
9. Kalau org tua nak drive, make sure he or she fit to drive.


Itu jelah setakat ni, i bagitahu apa yang i dah rasa, something to share. Ok, i nak sambung buat kerja.

Selamat Menyambut Maulidur Rasul. Selawat dan Salam Ke Atas Rasulullah S.A.W.

yeah yeah..update..since i will be busy, starting tomorrow terpaksa update. so, last Friday, i went back to jb, my inlaw fetch me from my "kediaman terhormat". change car, since dorang bawak kancil, we parked our kancil at balai polis. wpun planning awalnya tak balik, since ada wedding invitation, i just grabbed the chance to see my beloved. sape kata tak best jumpa? hehe, jarang dah gaduh, lagilak my perut dah membesar, macam permaisuri. best best. me n hubby talked and talked, catching up stories, and the best part was, umah kitorang terjaga rapi, pity him. hehe, sayang dia. less work..eventhough dia pun asyik demam je lately ni. BUT I MISSSSSSSSSS HIM so much, sampaikan dia gi kedai pun nak ikut..boleh ke?ok enuf story jiwang...

i attend the wedding with my family and hubby. for the first time, those people yg selalu tanya i bila mengandung tanya annoying question lak, ini mengandung anak ke berapa...damn, nasib baik ngandung kalau tak aku dah cilikan mulut org2 tua tu. so, i apa lagi meng"annoyed" kan those people dgn aksi manja me n my hubby...can see kemeluatan dorang but padan muka...sebok sangat menyakitkan hati orang...kiranya i dgn my hubby ber"date" dalam kenduri kawin...hehehe....

balik umah, those sedara nak menyinggah umah, since tgh ada org, bolehlah ziarah..ada yg puji umah i, ada yg dengki (biasalah). but whatever it is, penat and puas hati.

the sad part bila kena hantar my hubby keja...nasib baik my inlaw kuar masa tu, kalau tak malu, i banjir, it took him few minutes utk settle downkan i..aduss hormon org ngandung...sedih2....then bertolak ke kediaman terhormat i, biasalah, klimaks mesti ada, my waja tayar pancit kat middle of the hutan mana ntah...nasib baik tubeless. kalau tak dah berkampung kat hutan tu..sib baik, jalan depan sikit dah pekan, ada dua gentleman, tukarkan tayar spare. so, tadi, turun naik turun naik dgn my father in law, cari tayar nipis(lainkali pilih tayar yg semua org pakai, susah betul nak cari tayar nipis tubeless kat perkampungan terhormat ni)...

esok, i kena gi order sengsorang tayar tu sbb demand utk that kind of tayar kurang...aduss.... sebiji 200+...aduss

saje check saman my kancil, tak ponah namo den naik carta polis, ada saman lak, laki kesayangan aku yg bawak...ish, dugaan pas satu, satu...

so, esok den sebok dengan kelas tambahan and etc...itulah kemuncak citer den. harap puas hati...

p/s : ntah2 den tak sompek bersalin bulan limo, bulan dopan dah beranak kot...aktif sangat....

adios

Hahaha, tajuk gempak jer....

Senang jer, i dapat new PC, dah dapat internet connection. tapi i lambat update. first you all, aku dapat tawaran PTD! yes, i xdapat tunjuk surat tawaran tu sbb i belum balik umah I lagi but I attachkan slip ni...

hmm, mau pigi kah?it look tempting kan? BUT ALLAH IS GREAT! dah sebulan i mengajar, i think apa yang i pilih ni betul..almost 6 years menghambakan diri jadi HR people, now this is time to give and share. Seperti yang i cakap dgn yg lain, i cuma nak test jer my capability, layak ke tidak I ni, Alhamdulillah, first time gi exam, first time kursus and first time intvw. My letter to Tan Sri will menyusul.

Memanglah mengajar x glamor, but i dah rasa hidup glamor tu nearly 6 years, takpelah. But for those, yg memang minat dan ada willingness, go ahead. PTD the best platform to be an elite diplomat..

Sedih? Sebak, More to PUAS HATI...Again Allah will always there for hamba-hambaNya. Believe that. Memang ada jer dugaan, but semua tu Allah nak duga..kekuatan kita...

And yes, i prove something without "kronisme", i dapat dua tawaran dari Kerajaan. Thahira Bibi, TAHNIAH!!!!

for those yang suppport I, all this while, thank you, appreciate that.

p/s : bulan lepas wa tak dapat gaji....huhu, atas kelembapan birokrasi maka jadilah mangsa dapat gaji lambat.

SELAMAT MENGUNDI KEPADA SESIAPA YANG MENGUNDI.

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera

Akhirnya dapat jugak aku update blog ni (courtesy 3G Ina). Dah setengah bulan aku kat bumi Segamat ni. Alhamdulillah, everything went fine and smoothly until my precious baby TZM stolen on last Wednesday. Kalau korang masih ingatlah...that incident menyebabkan aku ngan laki aku gaduh (huhuhu).


Abang, i mintak maaf. We had so much memories with our BABY. Tu yang emo. KEPADA SESIAPA TERNAMPAK MOTOR TZM WGG 4947,please do tell/ring/email to terabot@yahoo.com. THANK YOU. Kitorang beli helmet full face dulu dulu baru beli motor, we design the motor mengikut justifikasi design helmet. Itulah sejarahnya...



Bila tgh weng dengar berita tu, aku pun weng gak, gi langgar tiang kat tempat keja aku. kesannya, pintu kemek and scratches....huwaaaa..........

Semuanya dugaan, baby and me ok..My hubby pun dapat ganti baby dgn EX 5. Huwwaaaa, aku dah takleh jadi minah rempit....kena simpan jaket kulit..

To Kak Su, Ina, Enab, Sikin and semuanya yang memberikan semangat, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

Then,on Friday Ina came with her fiance' utk jemput I, gi tangkak. Dengan nak tak nak, akhirnya dorang berjaya gak pujuk. And yes, I had a big time release tension with them (termasuk fadilah aka kumpai aka kawan ina). We went to Mahkota Parade, Kamdar and JUSCO. and Kumpai belanja burger king! Balik singgah pasar Malam,, and sekarang ni, i tgh tulis entry ni, ina tgh siapkan buat tomyam..nyum nyum...


So, thats it for the update till now.

p/s : gambar2 yang dikepilkan ialah gambar bersama geng tangkak. memang happening and for those nak tgk uniform 7 bulan adalah seperti tertera di gambar.

p/s : Azq : Gua tak menetap di Segamat, menyewa sahaja, tapi stil boleh contact kalau nak bawak jalan. Pasal tag tu, tunggulah dulu ek...hehe...

ok, it will be a quick update. I have been offered as Lecturer in another University. Hah, ok, thats it I am not WARGA UTM anymore, buang jauh2 stigma UTM tu sama aku (hehe). Effevtive 1 Feb, thats rite weekend husband and wife and baby on the way. Thats why I said this is my HIJRAH.

Sebak? tinggalkan UTM? oh, yes, definitely, i anak kandung UTM tu, tapi as a few of my friends said go ahead and just try my best. lagipun ni yang i nak. about the PTD, nahhh, hehe, belum tahu dapat. kalau dapat, i have to reject the offer. I am more to give and share the knowledge, dah tak larat jadi "the one" but didnt get anything. i tak cakap, lecturing takde politik, semua kerja ader even though tak kerja pun ada politik...

i am looking forward to this new career, pray for me, my baby and everything. need that.

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p/s : me n my hubby dah watch rambo and i asked him kalau ada rambo punya heroin, apa nama sedap ek. Dia jawab selamba "RUMBA". Rambo ok, cuma heran, nape sekejap ek? ada banyak kena potong ke....violence too much kot...

some of u tahu yg i gi the interview. the ptd interview. after exam, course and the final phase. Some of my good friends yang inform about this intvw gave some good tips. i had to prepare myself with some reading and familiarize myself with all the dasar, perlembagaan and sistem kerajaan. the compulsory book to read is Malaysia Kita. Yup, last week i went to library and borrowed SIX books. hah! punyalah excited and thrilled and want to do the best. Tapi, i pinjam je, mood tak datang untuk baca. On the day itself (8 Jan), as early as 330 in the morning, i bangun and scan the book. hehe...i tawakkal jer, malas nak pressure myself.

pagi, as early as 630 kitorang dah kuar umah, my beloved hubby sent me. my intvw at 800am kat persada,jb. nak sampai kat situ kalau xtolak awal memang masak. we manage to reach there at 745, as usual, suamiku akan tidor dalam kereta. i pun pergi, i org yg ketiga sampai dari 13 org. end up yg datang 9 orang je... The panel intvw terdiri dr pengerusi SPA Tan Sri Jamaluddin and dua dato (orang SPA gak Dato Ahmad n Dato Iskandar). heh, memanglah my keja sebelum ni dah biasa jumpa orang2 besar, but nervouslah wei.

yang kelakarnya sebelum panggil sorang2, dia panggil ramai2 sekali....just nak brief. fyi, kitorang ni first batch utk diinterview sampailah 23 jan. so obviously the introduction by him(the chairman), well understood which SPA nak amek 300 orang out of 1200 yg diintvw all over Malaysia..so probabilty xdapat and competition mmg high. so, it seems the tan sri very nice...

and my time pun sampai ( i pakai my uniform, saja xnak hidekan my status). he ask me to be comfort and suit myself. alhamdulillah, i had the best interview,and i can say actually itsmore to temubual and dicussion. obviously soklan cepumas tetap tanya, sanggup ke travel, sanggup ke tinggalkan suami, sanggupke tinggalkan anak. i handle professionally. soklan dah agak. but dorang provoke cara baik pun...mula2 tu macam i blur gak but they help me. bila i dah dapat my momentum, i share dgn dorang about my kerja, my little xperience, my thesis, my aim.

see, no soklan mengenai dasar, perlembagaan or anything, its all about myself. hah, itu yang best. ada kata i confident dapat(sinis) tapi i jawab i tahu peluang memang susah but i proove that i have done the very best and in fact in my conclusion, i cakap kalaupun i tak dapat this post, i am honoured to have this discussion with all of them.

pengalaman yg cukup berharga. i finish almost half an hour around 10 am. me n my hubby went to stulang pekena mee rebus stulang...wah wah memang kenyang aku haritu.

itulah dia the so call interview... i wish i wont attend any interview dah...abistu semua level interview aku dah pergi...doakanlah yang terbaik..

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btw, i jadi pekerja sambilan kat cc my hubby, sbb pekerja dia belum balik dari cuti and my hubby lak kerja. kematu punggung aku dari kul 940 pagi tadi, skang ni mata layu jer nak tido...huwaaaaaa

hehe....

Raya Haji yang lepas, after 2 months tak balik KL, i balik KL. I balik naik first flite and yes I salam raya dgn my hubby kat airport. dia tak ikut, dia kerja. First time i balik raya without my husband and yes we had our mutual agreement, lagipun in law i ada kat umah.so, terjaga gak makan minum laki aku. sampai airport, i took the ERL, and yes terus sampai umah, semua askar ada..

My both sis telah menggamatkan umah my parent dgn askar2nya.....so i had nasi minyak (oh, how I crave my mom nasi minyak). the rendang, and my sis lak buat dia punya rendang cili api..aktiviti raya pertama, makan ajer...sampai ke malam. and yes, i tak buat kerja umah ok...i jadik permaisuri.

raya kedua lak, sikin suppose to come, but somethin happen, xjadi datang. but she miss my sis masak lomak...nyum nyum...petang tu, hhehe, patutnya we girls ingat nak ziarah sedara, unfortunately sedara lak ada hal, my bro in law bawak kuar makan...hahaha...best best "girls trip"..konon nak escape my father punya bebelan, 2 mak budak and 1 bakal mak kuar umah masa my father tido end up, plan xjadi hahaha.

so, kitorang makan luar malam raya kedua. sabtu i gi seremban, sebelum i gi seremban, k.su managed gak to see me pagi tu, hehe. i gi seremban, tgk my first sis punya new house. not bad. i nak balik petang tu gak, hujan lebat lak. i balik ahad. and i tak sempat nak join reunion kat the curve (that time i dont know whats that pun).

ahad petang, enab pun sampai beraya kat umah i. i end up ikut dia sbb tetiba my hubby kata suruh i drive balik amek our car kat my in law. nanti enab hantar jer. masalahnya xtahu dorng balik ahad ke, isnin...so i follow the plan as told by my hubby.

isnin, hua hua hua...amek ko...enab bawak i ke Ikea, The Curve and what so ever. tapi hati aku sudah jatuh kat IKEA. banyak sangat list things to buy...setelah khusyuk masyuk, i need to go to KL sentral for my flite ticket, hah, xjadi bawak kereta balik lak. so definitely i kena balik isnin gak. so we up heading to KL Sentral..inilah klimaks ceritanya, balik dari KL Sentral bermulalah segala dugaan kami. hujan lebat. i kena rush bcoz enab need to send me back to KLIA by 7. andaikata i xdapat tix pun, i tido umah in law. so, otw back to umah Enab, around 430 kot, sebelum susur subang jaya, kami di hentam 3 kali dari belakang, its SIX CARS pile up punya xcident!!!!!hujan lebat, nawaz dah jerit, i kuar..i malas nak citer detail macam mana kami xcident, but kitorang disandwichkan..and i am SOOOO sure enab tak drive laju, tak drive dekat and for GOD sake, hujan lebat, camne nak drive laju.

so, we went up and down, i mengaku i panik, terperanjat wei, federal hiway tu, pergi balai polis subang jaya, dia kata dia xnak terima report, bull shit to them,amek jerlah report kosong...then we decided balik umah, mandi and change, gi shah alam, shah alam pun kata bukan kawasan dia, susah tul. end up kitorang kena gi balai polis PJ. memandangkan anak enab dah tido, since the drivernya enab, husband enab kena attend their son, takkanlah baby tu nak dok kat balai polis kul doblas malam.

ish ish, before enab and i gi stesen, kitorang mamam dulu, takut lama...and kitorang sampai pj kul 11.50 something (malam okay), gedebuk gedebak, we settle around 2 am...itupun dah kira cepat sbb ada org tu tgu dr kul 1030 malam. ish ish, kematu punggung aku dibuatnya..kalau camtu. and we celebrate christmas dekat balai polis petaling jaya dgn perepot perepot yang lain..hohohoho...

enab n me dah lama takde kes thrilled together, semenjak i left setiawangsa, semenjak bila ntah..sbb kitorang ader je adventure, so obviously in memang memorable punya xperiencelah, every christmas, kitorang akan ingat. banyak benda yang kitorang learn, yes both of us dah penah encounter accident sebelum ni, tapi it is so different when u had pregnant lady in and toddler in the car. i salute enab, tgh dia cuba brek tu, wpunkereta dah kena seret ke depan, tgn dia halang i, pastu sempat pegang baby dia...and she calm. cuma kitorang clueless bila jadik 6 kereta sekali..and citer tu jadik complicated bila org depan kita tak ngaku dia depan kita and orang belakang kita tak ngaku dia langgar kita.... pening kan? kitorasng lagi pening, end up i amek flite 10.20 am, and selamat sampai johor dgn bakul sampah IKEA i (hehhe, i beli bakul sampah bilik I warna hitam semata-mata nak match dgn bedroom I). kat Johor xjumpa...(alasan!!)..

semua ni dugaan and we have to face it walau macam mana pun elak. bila kita careful, org lain xcareful pun jadik masalah (lupa nak cakap, xcident tu middle lane tau.). so utk semua, lesson to learn bila jadik macam kes kitorang ni, panggil jer lah polis. hujan lebat ke tak hujan lebat ke..senang. amek no kereta depan n belakang. and buat report dekat KAWASAN YANG SEBENARNYA!!!!!!!

so...kesimpulannya, i memang puas balik KL, walaupun ada certain things and some friends i xdapat jumpa..but i do have fun. i enjoy the adventure veeeeeeeeeeeeeery much....

harap siaran tergendala ni mencapai objektifnya....

mgu depan i amek cuti 2 hari, one day nak study, one day nak interview PTD (yup I managed to phase 3)....

adios, and SELAMAT MENYAMBUT AWAL MUHARRAM, semoga tahun baru ini mendapat barakah dari ALLAH. AMin.

Today is my first day i'm wearing my "uniform". Alih2 a lot and all komen positive, "akak look cutelah, look sexylah". "baju u cantik (ehem, ehem, thanks enab!)...

but, conversation kat toilet tu yg tak tahan,

sebelum i masuk bilik air,

AKAK 1 : berapa bulan

selepas i keluar bilik air, nak amek wudhu'

AKAK 2 : berapa bulan

masa I amek wudhu

AKAK 3 : dah mengandung, tak perasanlah...

masa I nak abis wudhu (this kakak ni, i tak kenal, hardly tegur but she type yg observe sangat, but i appreciate dia punya excitement)

AKAK 4 : dah lama kan tunggu for this baby, rasanya 3 tahun...


This people actually semuanya selalu jumpa I but some of them yang ingat i belum kahwin pun. For 3 years, i berjalan biasa jer, alih2 harini diorang tgk i jadik transformer. Alhamdulillah, setiap kali, i memang tak berhenti ucap syukur kepada Allah for this gift, hadiah ni tak ternilai..

Sebenarnya i nak cerita my aidiladha in KL..but i tangguh dulu... Harini Johor xcuti new year, Johor amek Awal Ramadhan...so, i kerja. Semalam i dating ngan suami I makan kat warung tgh malam, fuh, memang lengang orang, agaknya semua g celebrate kot..

HAPPY 2008 everybody!!!