SURVIVOR

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raya pertama punya uniform sedondon wallpaper
raya ketiga gi beraya punya uniform

Once upon a time Raya by all means :

My 1sis dari kampung akan balik KL (terbalik kan, dari NS balik KL, hehe) bersama arwah abang ipar I and segerombolan askar dia either naik kereta sewa or naik komuter.

My 2sis (masa tu belum kahwin lagi), akan bersusah payah siapkan biskut siang dan malam bertin tin. She's really good in making biskut sarang semut, kemas rumah, temph langsir and bawak i beli baju raya.

My bro masa tu kat asrama tak tolong apa-apapun (abihkan boreh jo)..

Malam raya my shophouse will gegak gempita and my arwah abang ipar suka buat surprise. E.g. kata tak jadi baliklah, kereta rosaklah and every year he manage to trick us with his reasons and kitorang pun percaya bulat-bulat.

And bila anak-anak buah I balik, I akan nangis macam kena histeria sbb I dah takde kawan. (my anak buah and I beza 3-4 tahun je).

My bapak will masak nasi minyak macam masak kenduri kahwin (I raya dengan nasi minyak/beriani and the rendang daging and ayam masak merah), ketupat tu ada tapi tak banyak. And ramailah datang..And we all akan makan nasi minyak tu 3 hari berturut-turut (coz bukan senang oo bapak aku nak masak). Sbb tu bila gi kenduri kawin, kitorang tak heran tgk nasi minyak (bapak aku buat lgi sedap!heh)..

Then after some changes of location and event

My first sis and arwah still datang dgn askar yang semakin besar...datang flat. Just imagine my flat house at one time tu can occupied 20 peoples at once.

My second sis dah kahwin and bawak anak2 dia lak.

I dgn my bro lak start taking responsibilities..Dia beli kuih (sbb i belajar masa tu) and I kemas rumah and merangkap gi pasar. I pergi Pasar Pudu sengsorang beli 6 ekor ayam, 2 kilo daging and all sorts of groceries..My bro bagi duit..

Then again after some changes and event

My first sis datang but without arwah. Allah sayangkan dia. Its a really big lost to me coz he was the one who keep me motivated and survived. Al Fatihah. And anak2 my first sispun ada..kecuali sorang kat Jordan.

My second sis dgn anak2 dia datang

My bro dah kahwin but balik umah isteri dia walaupun that was his first raya and 6 days after raya I am getting married.

We all celebrate raya dgn sedih and rasa kecil hati. My mom masa tu lumpuh, and we celebrate at his house but unfortunately he was not there masa first raya. Alhamdulillah I selamat kahwin and raya kali ni dah 3 tahun I tak balik because my husband kerja every 1 and 2 Raya.

Then thats it...MY LAST RAYA CELEBRATION was on Nov 2004.

This year RAYA

My first sis tak balik KL coz bajet constraint (walaupun anak sulung dah kerja!)

My second sis balik Perak (coz dah lama dia sacrifice tak balik umah mertua)

My bro balik Penang ( coz semenjak tu pun dia tak pernah balik Raya)

And me..stranded at Johor..dgn my condition yang cant travel far and my hubby yang tak dibenarkan cuti..and kalau I balik pun, will the situation akan jadi macam dulu?

My parents will sambut raya alone and I know they are tough, akan ramai yg datang ziarah. They misses us a lot then we misses each other.

This is an emotional entry but hey LIFE MUST GOES ON!!! So, untuk LELAKI, please take care your parents walaupun dah kahwin. Ingat bila dah kahwin, ibu bapa still kena jaga. Untuk yang perempuan, memang wajib ikut suami, kalau tak boleh tolong dengan duit, tolong dengan doa. ALLAH tahu...

I pun bukannya baik sangat but I have tried yang termampu utk bahagiakan my parents.

To my beloved sisters (walaupun u all tak tahu) : I will always love you

To my beloved brother : I know you hate me as much as I hate you, but mengaku man, you are wrong! I still love you..

To my arwah brother in law : Semoga berada di kalangan yang beriman and I know last night you were there with me. Thank you!

To my anak2 buah : Hidup ni masih panjang, remember KARMA...

Thats my Raya which means nothing. For me, I lebih suka menyambut Ramadhan.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

I sincerely mohon maaf kepada sesiapa yang terasa dengan I secara verbal atau non verbal. Semoga ALLAH memudahkan urusan all of you.

Take care.

p/s : Pasal open house rumah I, akan diannouncekan bila sampai waktunya. But kepada sesiapa yang nak datang, tak kisah just sms me earlier. Ok!

My life routine and schedule changed. For e.g., i usually slept at 11 and bangun around 445. Now i will doze off around 830(automatically), bangun kul 11 atau 12 mlm and terus tak tido. My hubby being nice and kind but few days ni dia yang demam and mengidam. Yesterday he bought for HIMSELF sotong kering, choclate mars, susu magnolia, buah epal, lai and plum. I cant eat those foods, bukan taknak cuma tak lalu.

The good news is i am gonna having my first buka puasa at hotel today! Yay, ada org belanja my hubby and I.

I am just happy for today's gonna end...



Happy Friday!

Remember this entry ? Heh, sekarang ni I banyak pastekan link jek ek..sbb cerita semua berkait.

Alhamdulillah,after almost 3 years of marriage, one miscarriage, I am pregnant again.

Again Alhamdulillah, Allah is GREAT! I am still in caution MODE, after hearing so many cases. Some people have gone thru 5 miscarriages, 9...err..quite phobia. Please pray for me and my baby.

p/s : Semalam my internet down, nak comment kat haloscan pun tak leh..ish ish