Monthly Archives: January 2011

Not Work, But Goods

Posted on by rmott62

There is drive to say that prostitution is sex work.

That is not true on so many levels – but a fundamental reason is that it cannot be work when all prostitutes are goods.

She cannot be a worker, if she has no access to full humanity – that is being made into sex goods to be brought and sold, to be manipulated in any violence whether physical, mental or sexual.

She is not a worker, but goods – when she no rights to have a voice, no rights to safety, no rights to have her own opinions.

You may say that is just the extreme.

It is the not – it just the common environment for the vast majority of women and girls.

You may say that may be true in poor countries, but in rich Western countris most whores are treated with respect.

Bullshit.

In every city in every country where prostitution is the norm – which is nearly every country in the world  – violence and mind manipulation is the way prostituted women and girls are controlled.

Brothels locked in prostitutes in every country – whether in the back streets of Mumbai, the deserts of Nevada, the tourist trap of Amsterdam, the army brothels in Iraq or in every English city.

In every country – prostitutes are supplied to men to be beaten, to have all violent sexual acts done to them, to be living porn, to be fucked in any racist stereotype the punter has, to have easy access to non-guilt child rape.

This violence and hate is everywhere – so as you read this know that in your country, properly nearby you – a prostitute is getting sadistically raped, a prostitute is getting forced to make hard-core porn, there are prostituted under-aged girls being brought and sold, there is a constant supply through both internal and external trafficking.

In my city, which is only medium size – I know without really trying, there is tons of racism in the prostitution, with supply of “Asian Babes”, flow of Eastern European women and girls who can be tortured .

In my city, internal trafficking is common and mostly invisible. The girls that are trafficked are made out to be trouble, so can be made invisible, or that they choose to be prostituted out.

In my city, I walk pass saunas and brothels, knowing inside there is violence, there is rapes on a mass scale, there is stealing of wages, there is bashings –  all firmly behind closed doors, so no-one cares.

Why care, when it is happening to goods.

Yes goods, never workers.

You may call them workers, but as you use that language you are participating in saying that all that violence is of no importance.

Call it sex work – and you are part of the problem, not an assistance to giving back prostituted women and girls safety and dignity.

Call it sex work – and you are saying that prostituted women and girls are sub-humans or maybe you see them just as a sexual robot.

For you are saying that pain is of no importance, that it cannot matter for whores don’t feel pain like real women and girls. So in this sick logic, it not rape just supplying extras, it not hard-core porn just acting, not sadistic sex just a kinky party.

After all to call it rape or violence, would deny that the customer can use his goods as he wants. The customer is always right.

Call it sex work, and I will feel free to call you a traitor and betrayer of all prostituted women and girls.

What else can I call someone who leave millions of prostituted women and girls to the mind control of the sex trade, to living in an environment where rape is so normal it cannot be felt or known, where hell is so embedded in the prostitute’s mind and body – that all that is left to her is believe it the only purpose of her life, and so she must have chosen to be prostituted.

Then the prostitute may call it sex work – but only because she has no other language left.

Sex work is a forced language that keeps the prostitute controllable.

It is used to make her believe she has some small amount of power, used if she cannot know when or how that she must have chosen to be a whore, used to say that is different from the victim-whores.

It is the propaganda of the sex trade to keep their goods quiet and easier to manipulate.

After all a good slave doesn’t question their conditions and environment – just lives moment by moment, and grabs hold of the small moments of peace or joy.

For the vast majority of prostituted women and girls  – it is not work, when too many are in conditions of slavery or forced labour.

You are dreaming if you think prostitution is fun and easy money.

You be an escort, and not know whether the punter, the stranger, who has brought you will rape you, will beat you up, will pass around his mates as a laugh.

You be in a sauna – and know you only make a living wage by supplying extras – get used to anal, get used to constant blow-jobs, get used to your body just being parts of his porn-fuelled head.

Then reminds yourself this is meant to be fun.

That is not work.

So get the expression “sex work” out of your vocabulary – if you are serious about giving back prostituted women and girls dignity – and giving them back the right to be full humans.

 

It Does Exist

Posted on by rmott62

Internal sex trafficking may be well hidden, but it does exist.

Violence to escorts may not get spoken about – but it does exist.

Prostituted women who are not addicted, but are still treated as goods – they do exist.

Women and girls who think the only love they can get, is love in through the small moments of non-violence in the sex trade – they do exist.

Prostituted women and girls who are locked up – they do exist.

Women and girls are inside the sex trade and have no access to the language of the location they are in – they exist.

To say they don’t exist, is to wilfully not see the reality of the sex trade.

Profiteers of the sex trade will be outrageously rich – that does exist.

To be rich in the sex trade, you must have a constant flow of women and girls that always fuckable, and the rest are destroyed and thrown away – those profiteers do exist.

To be a good profiteer, you must turn those women and girls into goods, beat them, rape them, get many men to sexually torture, close them from the outside and constantly tell the goods it their choice to be there – this violence and brainwashing does exist.

A profiteer learns quickly that put the sex trade indoors means society won’t care what happens behind closed doors – that indifference does exist.

That indifference is destroying and killing women and girls inside the sex trade every moment of every day – their tortures, mental damages and deaths do exist.

The punters that buy women and girls just to beat them up, just to use verbal violence to grind her into the ground, just to rape without consequences, just to do sexual torture like the porn they have consume – they do exist.

These punters will destroy in any location, will attack any whore even if she is sold as high-class or not – these men do exist.

The punters who “just talk” often talk to confuse, to get into her small places of privacy, to speak of violence porn and then say only joking, they talk planting seeds of hate, and sending terror into the room – those men do exist.

It rare that is no violence, no mental torture, no fear of death in the room – that is the existence of women and girls inside the sex trade.

If you choose to say these just bad experiences, just women and girls who didn’t understand the rules of the sex trade, that maybe it was just bad apples – then you not only kidding yourself – but you are part of making millions of women and girls inside the sex trade losing existence as full human.

In your wilful ignorance of their hells – you are becoming part of the problem – it does exist that exited women can have great fury at your abandonment, while you search desperately to prove that most inside the sex trade must be happy.

It a human rights issue, it is an issue of long-term torture, it is an issue of wiping out of millions of women and girls, it is industrialised sexual violence, it is deeply racist, it will effect every woman and girl who is vulnerable enough, it is a global issue – that is the existence of the real sex trade, not some pretty woman fantasy you may have.

It is hell on earth – it does exist.

Blood in the Room

Posted on by rmott62

This post is a reaching back to the blood and guts of being inside indoors prostitution. It is written in response to the continual white noise of how much safer it is to be prostituted indoors.

It is never safe enough to be prostituted in any location, in any culture and in any century.

To be a prostitute is to be a sex slave – and however prettied that is made, however much money is thrown at it – a slave can never be safe.

To be a sex slave is to be only to holes and hands.

To be a sex slave is to be always open to all men.

To be a sex slave is to know you are not human, and will be thrown away.

That is true for the vast, vast majority of prostituted women and girls whatever location they are placed into.

The reason we know it is unsafe on the streets is because it is visible, often it is in your face.

You see that women and girls look dead inside, acting hard to survive.

You see that many are coping by taking drugs or drink.

You see many are far too young.

You see many are not white, not English.

You see many look beaten.

You see and think the solution is to clear all this away and place it indoors – then it will safe.

How can you be so naive.

All the problems of the street are in indoors prostitution – only shut behind firmly closed doors.

There is internal and external trafficking indoors, there are drugs on tap indoors, there are many under-aged girls indoors, violence is the norm indoors – there is no safe space for the prostituted woman or girls – only small moments of less violence, a tiny space without degradation.

Think carefully about what it is to do indoors prostitution.

Do not think of TV dramas, do not read your liberal newspapers saying it is sex work, do not read novels about happy hookers.

Open you minds and hearts to the blood and guts that is indoors prostitution.

Know the idea of indoors prostitution is shut the prostitute away from any contact with the world that is not the sex trade.

Know indoors prostitution  is being shut away with men or a man who can do any sexual act to you, can be as sadistic as he wants, can do as many mind games as he can imagined.

Know any safety precautions in indoors prostitution is not for the safety of the prostitute – but so the punter is secure, and so the manager/pimp can make a show of caring about their goods.

Know that if there is a police raid, more often than not there is prior warning – so all the beaten prostitutes, all the drugged-up prostitutes, all the trafficked prostitutes, all the under-aged prostitutes can be cleared out – and it will be a legitimate business then.

That’s sounds safe, doesn’t it.

Now I place you in the room.

Don’t look away, it not that bad for you – less you were there, you can never know the deadness it took to be in that room.

That room can be a flat, can a hotel, can be the office of a pub, can a side room in a club – that room is whatever profiteer and punter think is a good fucking spot.

Lets talk about the flat/hotel where the whore is sold as an escort/as girlfriend experience.

The room that is meant to posh and safe – where the prostitute is meant to be respected – where she is meant to have some control.

In fiction – this is the land of Belle du Jour and Pretty Woman.

In fiction – the escort is manipulative and loves controlling the sex.

In fiction – any violence is controlled and selected before by some menu or such like.

That is just porn-dreams sold by the sex trade – it is nothing to do with the lonely terror of being an escort.

I will place inside some hotel room ,with some man – or with queues of men – and leave you there.

Sure the surroundings are nice, even posh – but you will not be using them, unless the punter lets you.

Most punter want you to be clean – coz it well-known that all whores are dirty – so you will get that private space to wash yourself. My advice is to try to make that last a bit longer than normal.

Use that time to go dead inside, use it to put a smile on your face, use it to be a robot who will boost his ego on command.

You not have any more space for yourself – so make the best of it.

Remember that to survive being that room, you must make the man or men into gods.

You must be porn sexy at all times.

You must speak only if it is really necessary – which in most cases means don’t speak although.

If you do speak – speak nothing about yourself, only that you love your job, that you have always been kinky.

Do allow grief or that you feel that you are betraying yourself get in the way. For christ’s sake never look vulnerable, it will only give the punter’s pleasure – and may get you sent to even more violent men.

Do you still think indoors prostitution is ok.

I suppose you may think it is just sex – just maybe blow-jobs and vaginal penetration.

Well yes it is those, but relentlessly and without much care of whether you are ready or not, without any care if you in pain or not, whether you are scared or not.

Too much reckless penetration is some of the blood in the room.

Blow-jobs done to choke and bring out sick – leave some guts in the room.

But it is never sex – it is always just whatever porn fantasy the punter wants to re-enact on a living body.

The blood and guts are because your body is forced to do sexual that should never be done to any human – but is acceptable when done to a whore.

Penetration can be penis and fists, can be many men going in all your holes, can be double or treble penetration.

Anal penetration has to accepted as your norm – its what whores were made for.

You must not be scared of being tied up – or punters bringing any object to force into you.

Do not question if as they fuck you, they will beating you up as well or after or before. It only a game really.

Do not imagine anyone will help if you scream.

That is the norm of indoors – not as the sex trade propaganda will say the extreme end or some bad apples.

Violence is the norm – having the occasional moments of just ordinary sex is rare.

Do you still think indoors prostitution is some solution.

The only solution is make that no man can buy and sell a prostitution in any location, in any culture, for any excuse.

It must be made a serious criminal act to buy and sell the prostituted.

Of course, we must also decriminalised the prostituted – for they have no rights to be safe, no rights to have a voice – they are the victims, never the criminal.

But there must be holistic exiting projects for all prostituted women and girls, not just those on the streets. We must prove that we can get out of the sex trade on a permanent basis,  that we can will give them back their humanity and dignity.

That is the true hope.

How to Make a Long-Term Whore

Posted on by rmott62

To make a woman or girl into a long-term whore, you must have all the ingredients to make her dead inside, and hopefully if successful she will be made sub-human.

In this post, I will list some of the ingredients that will make the long-term whore. And like Blue Peter you can make yourself a long-term whore.

Don’t worry if this one doesn’t work to your demands, you can just throw her away, whores are made to be disposal and easily replaced by an almost identical replacement.

First, it is good to get them young. Say 12 to 14, or younger if that is your requirement. Don’t worry that it may be child abuse – name it prostitution and give her cash or threats, and everything is ok.

There will be a huge market for the young whores – say they are fresh, in certain areas say they are virgins, say they will do anything – you be amazed how much money you will make.

Pretend you care about the whore. Say you love her, and you will not let anyone hurt her.

Say if she complains that she is hurt, that she is scared, that she think it may be rape – say they are nasty men, it was a mistake.

Pretend you are sorry – but make sure she keeps having men using her.

A good whore will gets used to violence – a very good whore won’t even feel it.

Don’t be afraid to beat her, or rape her – or send her to your mates or business partners to be violently raped – if she get too much trouble, or just coz you are bored and feel like playing games with her.

Minds games is a vital ingredient to make a long-term whore.

Tell no-one cares about – who give a damn about dirty whore.

Speak about murdering her, or putting her in with men who may kill her – then laugh, say you were only joking.

Treat her gently, then yell at her for no reason – that can be really funny.

Tell you care about her safety, show her panic buttons, cameras in the room, security guards – only to put her in a closed room with a known violent man or men, and listen then do nothing.

Persuade her that being indoors is better than walking the streets – knowing she will so easier to control under your roof.

A good trick is to tell that what she does is empowering, that one day she will be rich, it the most liberating way for women to have sex.

Then tell her it is called sex work – that she is controlling the men.

Make out now that when there is violence and degradation that it is because her nature to enjoy kinky sex.

Teach her to smile through pain and fear, soon she will be smiling automatically.

A good whore will always makes the customer happy, always give him a happy ending. She will make him a god, the centre of the universe.

She will not mind what porn fantasy he wants – her role is to the living moving porn object that he can manipulate to his satisfaction.

With real women this would cause them great and terrifying agony, would put into them a fear that will be there every time she closes her eyes.

But it is ok for a good whore is never a real woman – she is just a fuck-object that is there used and thrown away. Don’t worry she has no feelings worth bothering about.

These are the major ingredients to make a long-term whore.

Now have fun and hopefully make loads of money.

I Hate Goddess Worship

Posted on by rmott62

Goddess worshipping is made out to be feminist – usually it so isn’t.

No, it is normally the complete opposite.

Think how many of the so-called goddesses were temple-whores, women whose purpose was to continually fertile for men, were slaves made into prostitutes.

That is pushed aside in the goddess worshipping – and the myth is created that they were powerful women-centric women who may have been of whores – but hell, they were in control and happy.

Bullshit – dream on.

It helps that most goddesses have been dead for many thousands of years – then it is easy to put the happy hooker stereotype onto them. They cannot have a voice to answer you back.

You women who give yourselves goddesses’ name and fuck a few trusted men for money – you think you know what it is to be a whore.

You who have clay models of fertile women from many cultures you think you know and understand those peoples – but just collect like a Victorian lady collected butterflies.

You who think being a temple-whore had dignity and pride – ignoring it was non-stop rapes, high mortality and slavery.

Damn you all for creating out of their hell your detached views of the sex trade.

Men created goddesses to excuse their crimes.

Men created that some whores must be happy – this was the foundations of creating a goddess.

If he can have constant access to fuck a woman or girl – and do whatever you like – and it must not be named sexual violence.

Named her as a goddess – then she is the ultimate sub-human. Make that this goddess is always sexually available, that she will do any and every sexual act and never feel pain or get tired, that all men can enter her.

Make that this goddess is not one woman but thousands of young-looking women – say that she is ageless – don’t sow the constant throwing away of old-looking or disease ridden ex-goddesses.

These goddesses were slaves, they were temple-whores, they were courtesans, they were concubines – they had no power outside of what the men give them.

They had no opportunity to be full humans – but some feminists worship them.

Well, if you make the choice to worship the goddess, you make the choice to keep those women and girls as sub-humans.

See them as women and girls living inside a system that was destroying them, see them as women and girls who had to love sexual, mental and physical torture, see them as women and girls who were ripped from everything that was familiar and they may have loved.

See that – see the human, not the goddess.

See their amazing strength to survive the thousands of men using their bodies, see the scrapes of records of their pain and grief, see how many were murdered or just disappeared from any record that they ever existed as full human.

See they are humans – don’t fall back into supernatural escapes.

Don’t look at temple-whores, courtesans, concubines with the eyes of watching too much Zena.

Their pain, grief and terror was the same as any prostituted woman and girl living today.

Fuck your goddess worshipping.

Pain of a Whore

Posted on by rmott62

WARNING: this is strong stuff.

I live with pain as my shadow. I hope it shows as rarely as possible on the outside – just some moaning and be exhausted.

I don’t want my pain to be seen, only here on this blog and with trusted friends. I don’t need the world to know.

Not a world that little or nothing to end the factors that put the pain into me.

I will show my pain in the public arena when and if there is serious striving to end the sex trade once and for all time.

Until there is full justice – my pain must be hidden in order to fight for that change.

But here in this post, here on this blog, here is a small relatively safe space – here my pain is slowly finding it has a voice.

A voice that rages, a voice that is no longer afraid to be confused, a voice that has found she is no longer alone, a voice that dreams of weeping.

My pain is finding that freedom can be real – and it cannot believe it.

I want to speak out about the factors that impounded my pain, made so embedded inside my body that many days I forget it is always with me.

I write often of prostitution being made up of mental, physical and sexual torture.

I want to see those words – and not be detached, not think it so sad for other women and girls – think you are in the middle of prostitution, think of the pain.

You may know with your mind that to be a real prostitute – your role is to a fuck-object for any and all men who buy and sell you.

I sure on an intellectual level you can find a language to make that ok – the language of detachment, the language of saying I would not do that but I would not judge any woman who did, the language of trade unions and place into the workspace, the language that is just sex.

I know you can make it pretty by never allowing yourself to feel what to be a whore.

But, I like Bancho’s ghost, will not give the safety of detachment – you should have some guilt for refusing the utter pain of being made into a prostitute.

I refuse to let you off the hook, I will not say it was pretty.

How would like that any man can any sexual act on you.

That is the simple acts of sex you may imagine – it not just getting vaginally fucked, not just blow-jobs.

Being prostituted is not always a quick painful fuck – and then it is over.

It may be many quick fucks over and over and over – until all feelings in your cunt is gone.

But, if you doing indoors prostitution – most punters want to buy that can repeat all hardcore porn onto your body, and also mentally fuck you up.

You are nothing but an object – you will be a slave.

The pain will entering from everywhere – pain in parts of your body you of thought no-one would even imagine using as a fuck-toy.

Your body will become a war-zone, without any hope of knowing there can be an end.

Then you are a real prostitute – not some image on the page, or inside films or TV.

To cope with this pain – a real prostitute learns very fast to numb all feelings of pain.

Many have known all their lives – lives of pain so deep that becoming a whore is just another logical step.

Pain from coming having no love in their lives – where the fake “love” of punters and pimps is known not to be real, but it is so much better than nothing.

Hell, nothing is better than nothing – that should be the motto of most prostituted women and girls.

Pain of having to get money by allowing men to rape, verbally abused and tortured you – then be told at least those men are not being violent to real women and girls.

Pain of knowing you want to leave so much – but cannot find any way out, or getting a joke of freedom only to sent back into more sexual torture, but this you are also laughed at.

That is the pain that doesn’t melt away just because you have exited.

I write here of pain – but find too hard to write.

That is the hell of surviving prostitution.

Stop making excuses for its existence.

Pretend Girlfriend

Posted on by rmott62

“I want my prostitute not to behave like one. I want them to role play to be a pretend girlfriend. To a third person it looks like we’re in love – but it is a casual hook-up. I want to chat about lots of things, what I like in life, what my friends are and not money. She should enjoy her business. I actually want her to be genuinely attracted to me. I feel sorry for these girls – but this is what I want.”

Anonymous London punter.

I did girlfriend experience for long enough for this quote to make me sick to the bone.

This sums up the arrogance of those punters that I had to endured.

May I say before I start, I have deep hatred for those punters.

I hate that they think they were the nice guys, many would hate that I have categorise them as punters – for they would consider themselves to be gentlemen who just happened to be paying for sex or to have a companion.

I hate that they had to believed I was happy, was having a great time, was just the type of girl who was always up for it.

I hate the arrogance that needs the whore to act as if she is deeply in love with him. God, can’t even remember their faces, so no love loss there.

Being girlfriend material is hell – but punters want the whore to smile, to remember every detail of his boring life, to be known by the people he introduces her to.

He wants her to dress fancy, to drink but never get drunk, to maybe be in cozy pubs so he looks like he has a normal girlfriend.

Being girlfriend material is having no space to breathe without the punter controlling your air supply.

Being girlfriend material is always to remember you are just a whore.

You may go to the posh does – but all the time, the punter can and will remind you are scum by feeling you up, laughing that you may be seen. If he decides you are fitting too well, he can always fuck you in the toilet or behind the building.

You may eat in great restaurants – but you eat what he orders, you have his foot in your cunt.

You may be in the smartest of hotels – but behind closed doors he reminds that you are owned by him – sexual torture is a norm for a sexual slave. Any mess of blood, sweat and sperm will be tidied away – those hotels are paid to not care.

Being girlfriend material is always made romantic and into the good side of the sex trade.

That is crap.

Men who can afford to buy a pretend girlfriend – will have enough money to own her totally and usually for a long period of time.

He will enough money to get the power to be locked away with her in total privacy – money will buy that all rules of treating her as a full human are thrown out the window.

Rich men of all cultures and backgrounds will only buy whores to own her body, mind and soul – no quick fuck for them, that’s what the real punters do.

Rich punters enjoy torturing whores, it is a wonderful game for them.

The best part of the game is to send her into hell, then demand that she will say that she had a great time, and say how amazing he was.

He would not get that from a normal girlfriend – but money makes him into a god.

I hate them all.

That’s all that can be said.

Frustration Will Blow My Head Off

Posted on by rmott62

Since I wrote my post about being unable to live in a world that always lessens what the sex trade is – my frustration has not go smaller.

No, it has come out screaming into the world. It was that I only half-saw the depths of the myths and stereotypes that poison any progress to seeing the impact of the sex trade.

Last night, I watch on TV a vampire coming out screaming with rage after being buried alive. I watched this ridiculous scene, and thought that is how I am feeling.

I have been buried under the nice images of strippers, whores and escorts in most of the media.

I have been buried as others called my past sex work, it must have been a choice or why didn’t you just leave.

I have been buried as any violence that most prostituted women and girls have known is dismissed and transformed in harm-free entertainment.

Now, I am screaming for oxygen.

Now, I will use that I cannot forgot to force others to know what they want to throw away.

Now, I am not dead, not driven into insanity – not some man’s sex slave any more – now, I am blowing out my brains to get the sex trade seen as the destroyer and mass violator of human rights that it is.

I will not even entertain that any aspect of the sex trade can be named as work.

I will not have that mass rape, turning women and girls into nothing but fuck-goods, making that prostituted class have no rights to say no to male violence and or degradation – I will never call that work.

If you call that work – then be prepared to thoroughly do some of the aspects of the sex trade, that you lessen into sex work.

Be inside the making of a hard-core porn shoot. Know every hole however small will not only get fucked, till pain disappears because it is your norm – but to get the right angle and good lighting it is repeated over and over and over.

Be an escort – alone in a room with strangers who have paid for the privilege to do whatever they want to your mind and body. Dream on if you think the profiteers of escorting give a damn about your mental and physical safety – or even notice that rape is your norm.

Be an independent prostitute – like that means punters will not beat you up, will never even think of doing sadistic sex to you. The average punter could not care less whether you are independent or not – he just has brought a fuck-object, he does not even notice that you are human.

The sex trade can never be made safe or will allow that prostituted women and girls have full humans rights – not when it founded on providing men with women and girls that are there just to fuck, to torture, to brainwash, to be a class that is stripped of the right to have emotions.

Even if not every single man who consume the sex trade will use violence, and will think that he is different because by heck he respects whores.

His respect creates wonderful myths.

Men wants the prostituted to look happy – even when they know it was fake, punters want to watch porn where women are tortured but smiling or having multiple orgasms. Know it is fake, as they fuck their prostitute wanting to say how special he, like no other man had ever been there.

The smile of the prostituted is a death-mask – but punters and consumers say each time it is proof that all whores just love sex, especially sex that real women would be disgusted by.

And you wonder why I am screaming with frustration.

I scream and scream that always the prostituted have to be censored how they speak of what they know of male violence and hate. We tone down our realities in order that the liberal and the left can say it not so bad really.

But these are people who founded Amnesty International, built shelters for battered women, will campaign against mass rapes in wars, look straight in the eye at animal torture, and on and on and on.

But in their desperation to believe that the sex trade is just slightly bad – usually when it  is not regulated – all the voices of the prostituted who witness and had to live with extreme violence and hate, is spoken over and silenced.

The sex trade has no nice side – how can when it is built on torture and making the prostituted class into throwaway people.

How can anyone be nice about the mental torturing that is the building bricks of the sex trade.

The mental torture of living with the threats that for punishment you be moved into more extreme violence – this threat can be real or just a sick game.

The mental torture of having language that places you into the role of being nothing but fuck-holes for any and all men.

The mental torture of having all the world outside of the sex trade closed away from you.

How can anyone be nice about the physical torturing that is the norm in the sex trade.

It is normal to be beaten up, to be thrown into walls, thrown out of cars, to be attack for any or no reason. That is just part of your role.

It is so normal that you numbed all pain, often placing yourself in more danger by being so dead.

Physical torture is done to the prostituted so the men can know they have a safe place to hate all women without messy consequences.

And, how can anyone be nice about the sexual torturing that is what all men who consume the sex trade are paying for.

Sexual torturing that is so bad, that just to be raped by one penis in the vagina is almost a relief.

Sexual torturing so bad that even as it happening to your body, your mind is refusing that any human can do it or even imagine doing such hellish sexual actions.

Sexual torturing so horrific that even after many years it still inside the body as trauma – a shadow that increases the rage that any human could do that.

How can anyone want to prettied the sex trade – god damned you if you do.

Expect my brain to blow up when you do.

 

Unsuitable

Posted on by rmott62

One way that those who support the sex trade is to claim that some women are or were unsuitable for the work.

This is meant to cut to the bone, is meant to shut survivors up – is meant to say the sex trade is just normal, so what the hell is the fuss about.

Well, I hope that most women and girls are unsuitable for the sex trade.

Most of this mental bullying comes when survivors speak out against indoors prostitution, especially escorting, and when they speak out against being inside porn.

This is because when we speak out, we remember the violence and degradation, we know that is the norm of indoors prostitution and porn.

As I write, women and girls throughout the world are getting destroyed inside indoors prostitution and porn – maybe they are just all unsuitable for the work.

Lets look at what it is to be suitable.

It is said to me that in indoors prostitution, a suitable whore can choose the men who fuck her, can even choose that men do not have sex with her, just pay for the company.

I have been told that porn is only pretend violence, or if real it is because the actress enjoys it.

I been told indoors is safe for managers are so caring for their girls, and would not allow them to be treated as objects or with disrespect.

It is said to me that any violence only happens coz the porn or indoors prostitution is the outlawed stuff, and with regulation everything will be fine.

Oh, of course it so much safer than being on the streets.

This is all bullshit, but it is comforting bullshit.

Whilst men can buy and sell women and girls as fuckable goods – the location is of no importance – for male violence is made acceptable in all aspects of the sex trade.

There is nowhere safe for the prostituted class – only some moments that are less violent, less degrading.

But always remember all the prostituted are property – all have the category of the slave in the porn-heads of the profiteers and users of the sex trade.

If you only see those small moments of relative good treatment of the fuck-goods – and ignore the bigger picture that the sex trade will and does torture and destroy the human rights of the vast majority of women and girls inside the sex trade. Then you will believe in the myth of unsuitability.

Well, most women and girls fear rape.

But in the world of the sex trade, the same women and girls are meant to put up with rape often on an industrialised scale, or happening so often that all feelings go.

It will made ok, for it will never be named as rape. Call it kinky extras, call it acting out porn, call it being a whore-slave, call it just a game or simply say it what the customer paid for.

It is a known fact, that you can’t rape a whore, that is no rapes in porn it is just acting – isn’t saying it is rape a withdrawal of the services that the consumer demands.

Of course, nearly every moment of every day a prostitute, an escort, a porn actress, a woman in a sauna, a women or girl brought through the net, a lap dancer and many other in the sex trade – are being raped in every country in the world, but it is made of no importance.

I suppose all those women and girls were unsuitable.

But rape is just the tip of the iceberg.

Mostly inside the sex trade, it is continual sexual, physical and mental torturing.

There is the mental torturing of moving women and girls around from one type of violence and hate to another type of violence of hate.

The sexual torturing of allowing men to buy the woman or girl as their personal porn playground. To make every part of her body into a war-zone. She is nothing but holes and parts of bodies to shoved about.

She may as well be dead for all the users and profiteers of the sex trade care.

All this physical torturing is the norm, the only way to survive it is to murdered all feeling and to be the living dead.

Are women and girls that numbed themselves from porn and or prostitution just unsuitable for the work.

Or they just fighting for their lives and sanity.

 

 

 

 

Mis-Reading

Posted on by rmott62

I want to say there has been a mis-reading of my last post, an avoidance of the central issue of it.

It was not about me wanting to kill myself, it was not even about me wanting to harm myself.

It was not even about me as an individual.

It was about how difficult it is for survivors of the sex trade to live in a world that trivialises the realities of porn and prostitution..

I was writing of that pain, and that embedded grief.

I was writing of seeing fun images in advertising, on TV, in films, in art galleries – fun images of the sex trade are daggers to our hearts.

I was writing of being inside meetings where we should be relaxed and safe – meetings with feminists, meeting with Leftists, meetings with folks who are very ethical – and having to hear over and over and over ignorance, arrogance, telling us whether we are real whores or not and some hate speech about survivors of the sex trade.

I was writing of being forced into other’s stereotype of what a prostitute is, what a stripper is, what a porn actress is, what an escort is. If we don’t fit, then our lives are of no importance.

I was writing of being told that the fact that a great many survivors have no outward signs of the trauma that is their shadow – they do not fit stereotypical views of being mentally damaged, they may not show wounds that shadowed them every day – that many survivors do not fit the victim-role. Then we are told over and over and over, it can’t have been that bad – or wouldn’t we be dead, if there really was that much sexual torturing.

Yes, I think I may have written badly.

But don’t dismissed my politics, by seeing just me as an individual contemplating suicide.

I believe I view my thinking of death is a metaphor to say this world that is led by the nose by the propaganda of the sex trade is impossible for survivors to live in.

But we have the strength and courage to live anyhow.

I do not want to stop speaking out – and I want to speak out without fitting in any stereotype that make others feel safe.

Knowing the realities of being inside the sex trade should not be made comfortable, is not an academic game, is not just a certain type of woman or girl, is not just in cultures you dislike and not in cultures that you adopt, is not about the red herring whether women freely choose the sex trade or not.

The sex trade is scary, is nasty, will make feel sick, is a crime against women’s and girl’s human rights, will put deep grief inside you.

To truly believe survivors of the sex trade – you must feel anger, you feel helplessness, you must feel deep sadness, you will feel disgust at what men did to us – just don’t feel detachment and it is nothing to do with you.

That is just another excuse for inaction.

So when I speak of death – my finger is pointed at the inaction of all societies to end the sex trade.