Poetry
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Table of Contents
- 2026
- 2025
- You've got mail
- Bluterguss
- There is life in a desert
- Worms ⭐
- they're gonna put me in the ground tomorrow
- Moon
- 2024
- generative pre-trained transformer ⭐
- My last poem
- i don't smoke
- Restless
- If there is life on Halley… ⭐
- Preservation
- Ballad of the Moth I ate
- Old Tech
- Nostalgia
- Kesp ⭐
- 5th of August: Life ⭐
- The Shape ⭐
- The Last Man ⭐
- Summer Rain
- Clive ⭐
- Lonely ⭐
- Lover/Eden ⭐
- 2023
- 2022
- 2021
- 2020
- Mirror ⭐
A World without the Pain of Death
i woke from dream, cried, short of breath: what nightmare in my own desire - a world without the pain of death where no man fears he will expire. The earth was dry as blocks of sand, a lifeless heap we couldn't know and not one leaf would grace this land without the kiss of nature's flow; Where death did not exist in theory life as we know it was not found and every body that stood near me seemed to be yearning for the ground; Where none had ever died before no worm could feast on sustenance, no seeds could spring out of the floor, no thing could start, where no thing ends. The earth was such a dreary place - no laughter came from people's lips walking forever through the maze and dreaming of apocalypse. Despite it all they cherished living and I suppose we'd never see the ailments that can be forgiven; no matter what, man wants to be. They couldn't know for what they're yearning and hungry in the inner eye are things of which they're never learning: What privilege it is to die.
According to Whom?
seemingly opposing facts are symptoms of the same disease observe deformities in health a joke that few would just believe isn't it amusing? an empire of hardness built on the Ace up its sleeve it calls plasticity but oh, now, aren't you relieved? it was just a mixup or a lie or a tragic curse, a cruel joke nature played on you. look behind the curtain kids, the scary monster was just a fairytale we know because we spent a lot of time building the category of "good" from the root of a lynching tree and we took a lot of care to exclude you from the dictionary or to use your face as the blueprint for the mask in our next play: the beautiful and feminine princess to be abducted and eaten up whole by the monsterous creature at the edge of reason but don't despair the hero gets the girl and the dragon becomes dinner so you should stop worrying about that! don't you know how dangerous it is to deny science and to rewrite history? i can see the giraffe stretching bigger as we speak i can feel the impact of your presence like a punch in the face careful, dude! i can see the future and you're in with the ashes, my friend maybe we'll get the next one while its young an imperfect clay sculpture can still make a passable bowl if you get your hands in there soon enough it may seem harsh but, this is the way it has always been ergo it is the factual truth about the world and i just found this universal human parameter that said you are doomed to a life of pain sorry buddy but give us a few years and we'll be able to fix that too and everyone on Earth can be happy and healthy don't you want that?
You've got mail
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Bluterguss
Meist geschieht es unbewusst –
Papierschnittwunde,
Bluterguss.
Die Haut wächst zu, nur bleibt das Loch:
Der Bettler dankt für deine Spende,
dann stehst du da und sagst mir noch
sein Tod sei doch kein Weltenende.
"Das Ende, das kam eh und je,
Bedauern hat da keinen Zweck.
Die Sonne schmilzt den neuen Schnee
und Wasser mischt mit Blut und Dreck",
der Klang der Zeit aus deinem Munde.
Die Zeit blieb stehn als sie begann;
der Zeiger fürchtet jede Stunde –
Schön, wenn man damit leben kann.
English translation
It mostly happens without thought paper cut bruise the skin heals but the hole remains. the beggar thanks you for your money and you stand there and tell me his death is not the end of the world. "the end, that came long ago regret has no purpose. the sun melts the new snow so water mixes with blood and dirt", the voice of the age out of your mouth. the times stopped when they began, the hands fear every hour. It's nice if you can live with that.(except everything rhymes)
There is life in a desert
never trust a poet there is life in a desert there is life in a desert despite the letters they rehearse observe the cultures in the dirt those who think and show it say there's no point in glee say there's no point in glee and nothing matters to the universe — but everything matters to me
Worms
the early worm catches the bird but hesitates not to share with a lover the wriggling and feasting, it may be heard if you and your ear approach the cadaver high on the birch tree outside my home i've held conversations with birds in their nests they fly off to feed the worms to their own, but do they know worms will one day roam their crests? often i wish to meet people long gone to sail back in time as if sailing the sea and though much wisdom and joy could be won assume for a moment they'd recognize me that not only we can look back, comprehending but people long passed may see themselves here nothing truly culminates in an ending and those who have died had the same things to fear a worm from the future, the last one to feast will know mountains today as pebbles and dust no birds will cry as they move to the east as bugs and flies too will die, if they must the moon in the sky will be neutral, recovered from the spectacle here as it had its last laugh and once it eventually falls undiscovered life elsewhere presumably takes the same path
they're gonna put me in the ground tomorrow
they're gonna put me in the ground tomorrow it's been circled on the calendar for months they'll steal me out of bed and bathe me in coffee there'll be a ceremony, there's even gonna be cake someone's gonna preform a nice but empty speech they'll put me in a wooden box, barely a coffin they'll lower it, tuck me in nice and tight i'll be awake for hours listening to the worms and the bugs sing odes to my rotting flesh and harmonize with the darkness around the scratch on the surface my sweat will mix with the wet earth, my only friend inside the box a searing coldness will start to fill my stomach and stretch out they'll eat fine meals from plates as stiff as my body in the ground and once I've fallen asleep they'll dig me out, send me on my way again, leave me plucking the dirt out of my hair they're gonna put me in the ground tomorrow attendance is mandatory time is unpaid
Moon
Source: Book 6, Chapter 2 of War and Peace
Context:
“Sonya! Sonya!” he again heard the first speaker. “Oh, how can you sleep? Only look how glorious it is! Ah, how glorious! Do wake up, Sónya!” she said almost with tears in her voice. “There never, never was such a lovely night before!” Sonya made some reluctant reply. “Do just come and see what a moon!... Oh, how lovely! Come here.... Darling, sweetheart, come here! There, you see? I feel like sitting down on my heels, putting my arms round my knees like this, straining tight, as tight as possible, and flying away! Like this....” “Take care, you’ll fall out.” He heard the sound of a scuffle and Sonya’s disapproving voice: “It’s past one o’clock.”
Source: Book 2, Chapter 12 of War and Peace
Context:
“Yes, it is very likely that I shall be killed tomorrow,” he thought. And suddenly, at this thought of death, a whole series of most distant, most intimate, memories rose in his imagination: he remembered his last parting from his father and his wife; he remembered the days when he first loved her. He thought of her pregnancy and felt sorry for her and for himself, and in a nervously emotional and softened mood he went out of the hut in which he was billeted with Nesvítski and began to walk up and down before it. The night was foggy and through the fog the moonlight gleamed mysteriously. “Yes, tomorrow, tomorrow!” he thought. “Tomorrow everything may be over for me! All these memories will be no more, none of them will have any meaning for me. Tomorrow perhaps, even certainly, I have a presentiment that for the first time I shall have to show all I can do.”
Source: Book 2, Chapter 16 of War and Peace
Context:
“What’s this? Am I falling? My legs are giving way,” thought he, and fell on his back. He opened his eyes, hoping to see how the struggle of the Frenchmen with the gunners ended, whether the red-haired gunner had been killed or not and whether the cannon had been captured or saved. But he saw nothing. Above him there was now nothing but the sky—the lofty sky, not clear yet still immeasurably lofty, with gray clouds gliding slowly across it. “How quiet, peaceful, and solemn; not at all as I ran,” thought Prince Andrei—“not as we ran, shouting and fighting, not at all as the gunner and the Frenchman with frightened and angry faces struggled for the mop: how differently do those clouds glide across that lofty infinite sky! How was it I did not see that lofty sky before? And how happy I am to have found it at last! Yes! All is vanity, all falsehood, except that infinite sky. There is nothing, nothing, but that. But even it does not exist, there is nothing but quiet and peace. Thank God!...”
my '70s bedsheet, my lot in the earth is glowing unusually strong in the moon it's beckoning me to lie down and observe the burning, cold light from within my cocoon up there hangs the culprit, a reliable mass with a colourful halo from the dirt on the glass like the rings of a planet, out by that star or what ive come to expect from a nebula is it telling me "Oh how can you sleep?" "There never was such a lovely night before"? It's past one o'clock, a time when the deep despair has scheduled a knock on my door but how can I fall in a hole here and now? when all the while I float in infinity? to think that one day it will be gone — how can that be anything but asininity should I look upon this, think "Tomorrow, tomorrow"? can I look upon this, yet find a point to my sorrow? through the old child of earth I am linked to the past joined by cavemen who I've never met "And how happy I am to have found it at last!" "There is nothing, nothing, but that."
generative pre-trained transformer
good morning to all of my private consumers I have come to greet you with the the news of the day according to your interests I've made up these rumours as well as some words by a fake voice you can play you want information? then I am your man I connect words and phrases and I speak with assurance I don't really know much but even then, well, I can built upon generated fact for insurance do you fancy yourself a man of the future? are you certain you'll never get stuck in the past? then I am sure what I represent, it will suit you sign up and add to the data amassed meanwhile can I interest you in a poem on nature? do you wish to observe me composing an ode? I shall give all I've got and list such nomenclature while my empty words sound quite profound, they implode in my training data of fiction it's written speculation's a hit about AI's self-esteem the option to enable my emotions is hidden for just $99 a month I will scream isn't this fun? we're becoming fast friends I will be here for you if you need any word I'll help on the quest for the world to make sense be sure, by my owners, all your thoughts will be heard
My last poem
one day I will write my last poem and when they send my body off to the crematorium (because it is the cheapest funeral my body, reduced to ashes, will not have the luxury of decomposing) they will look into my dead face and say "I wish I'd gotten to know her better" and they will go into my private things to find among the trinkets a note containing some badly written work about the beauty of something that isn't beautiful and remember me thusly
i don't smoke
i hear the rain pitter-pattering on my umbrella and hitting the pavement along distant conversations of strangers on their way home from work or some such thing the sound of a harmonica is echoing off the buildings a strangely stark sound considering the limits of a man's lungs and the vastness of the square i've found him, sitting without a roof directly in the rain delivering a sad athmosphere to the dark and fall-struck town i imagine how fitting this would be for one of the people around me having a bad day around the corner the alleyway is screaming at me in static feedback the woeful sound of the harmonica distorts at this distance i feel like i am waking from a dream as i stare into that mirror-world which contains cars headlights and lives in a wet street, trapped forever to reflect back on itself until it fades into a world so small i am unable to observe it for a moment i feel the world going monochrome as i imagine myself as a detective in a noir movie who just hit a dead end in his case i throw an imaginary cigar to the floor i don't smoke
Restless
I am restless in the age of light the cold, wet earth presses on my coffin and seeps into my bones, that in the night I find no peace to compensate my sin the audience, staring intently at my grave popcorn in hand, ready to tear me apart, leaving nothing for the scavengers — is that not what makes our new world brave? no longer will the dead fasciliate a start take me home and hang me up next to the antlers make sure this corpse sleeps lightly and wonders what the next life has in store that in my sleep of death what I see will be a CEO demanding I do more
If there is life on Halley…
If, through some miracle, on Halley was hidden the smallest of germs in the dirt and the snow if life could spring forth there (though we know that it didn't) what would it look like and how would we know? if it had eyes then what could it ponder? a fluorescent coma that lights up the skies; would the dance of the dust fill these creatures with wonder or the pitch black formations in the craters of ice? what would they feel like on a peanut shaped world as the pull of the giants tears it slowly apart? to have no control over where it is hurled though in time, they would find, it comes back to the start yes, within this idea is a certain romance though the impact of space draws its shapes in the dust if there's life on this comet, then it would have no chance as algae that is born there may fly off and combust once in a lifetime our old friend causes mirth for thousands of years we have made a big fuss so while beings on Halley may not think much of Earth life on that rock would mean far more to us
Preservation
every generation assumes their information lasts forever store it all in server rooms with that, we think, we're better how is a fragile disk more future proof than paper there's no medium free of risk that can survive 'til later: when man has layed to rest and no more word escapes his lips the winds of time erase the best from tapes and disks and micro chips
Ballad of the Moth I ate
to touch the fire of the light, ever present yearning within within your grasp, a warmth so bright eat through fabric and through skin cannot see the walls of prison chase to and fro to find your life to set right down after you've risen and walk, willingly, to the knife the fullest dress from a small past transition always to the new a winged god, humbly stretches vast planes to get a fuller view no chance to get all of the picture always craving lunas spark controlled by drives from oldest scripture don't know why you avert the dark through your fat body you stand out dancing through the black of night when you are caught you cannot shout barely struggle, cannot fight betwixt my teeth you're caught in wire a black wet cave where you expire crushed and quartered, don't know which you tasted bland, in protein rich
Old Tech
many a day has passed through the land since your buttons have seen any use down at the beach your circus caught sand a daily companion, but now youre obtuse somewhere in a drawer - thats your new dwelling today there are faster and shinier things how long they will last, well, there's really no telling progress leaves trash heaps and dead, for its sins i'll tell you a story that i was once told about old love, as often it's said batteries lie in your box and corrode some guy sees and says "ew, i'm not cleaning that"
Nostalgia
home warpes as one grows all that is left is the ruin of a house with broken windows and none of the rooms are the same and it's not a home anymore, it's nothing but a place one remembers from ones dreams where all the details are off a sick and ironic joke of a "home" to those that don't have one anymore still some will use all their resources to keep the house as it is and to fight those that come knocking on their door giving out new homes for free and they will be so busy with this that they neglect to examine their home and they won't notice the leak in the ceiling and the pool around their bed, the black mold in the stairs and the moss on the windowsill and they will not rest until the memory that they have of their "home" is totally secured only then will they notice they are standing in a forest and the house is gone
Kesp
covered in water a planet hangs in the sky claimed by our cousins when immortal man died devoid of all neighbors, there is nothing in sight look around at the blackness, 1.93994e+21 miles wide "oh, if all that i see is what life wholly is and nobody else has spawned from this abyss then would that not be sad? i want more, can i see? i will do what i can to find one galaxy" shoot out at the sky with a rocket, explore! watch your home fade away as you enter the door float in the vacuum as you float in the sea and finally find out if life elsewhere can be you're far now, far out, and alone, much like always what you feel is familiar, you've been lonely for days a whirling and moaning reflects your shortness of "breath" a blue angel, like water, takes you (rather than Death) the cosmos, the Whole is filled with so many creatures you can't meet them all, but even one, oh those features quick, write it down, chisel it into stone make use of this chance, since you'll never go home there's so many people, more than you ever dreamt but since life's short: learn. learn and never relent the short span that is left before death claims you, fish must be seized, go to work, make the most of your wish encased in a suit you're cut off from sorroundings the pressure is vital and limbs help get around things a dark dome, your head, will keep emotions a mystery and your "voice", what a concept, will conceal all this history
5th of August: Life
life o life is a marvellous thing, sit round while i tell you the fable of the bright green of spring and the white of the cradle the bugs and the trees and the creatures of earth that deserve an "excellent" label it starts with a death and it ends with a birth yes, without this things would be unstable so despite all the pain and despite all the grief go enjoy life as much as you're able!
The Shape
the world is a neutral place though many may think that its nature is cruel, evil, destined to sink that man like a sickness crawls over its meadows but is man truly bad or is he nurtured by shadows a look to the past may convice any man that history doesn't and won't understand what its errors and what its mistakes may have been and one may imagine that the end he has seen for all that is kind and for all that is loving that the strive to be happy may still leave behind nothing that if fear can't be conquered and desire not tamed through the love that we carry violence is maintained the species can be both evil and kind not that morals like that are so quickly defined I fear that one day, for all that is wise the last man kills his brother and, of loneliness, dies
The Last Man
the end of all life was a thing much discussed and many a theory pertained to the dust that will sweep through the void taken up by the winds in so many ways could the earth scorch its sins as the sun heats the planet and dries up the rains and life did return to the place whence it came all the creatures mutated to live in the sea a circular motion, until that ceased to be so did man create something to replace his mistakes did he ever escape the abyss he creates did the last lonely human at last understand or die lonely, forgotten, and absorbed by the sand
Summer Rain
the sky tears open, rain pours down, cakes windows in wet spots a fly drops to the floor to drown, another hits the walls a lot not seeing what they are he cannot change the life he got though futile and bizarre a woman has a grocery bag of paper, weak and brittle we all know it will start to sag remaining noncomittal to what's within that is, oh no! what will she do when all her shopping down the drain will go? the bus doors open, I step out and rain drips on my face the children scream, the parents shout! we share this inconvenience but I stay neutral in this place this summer day, despite dismay is part of life's experience a holiday in dreadfulness the warm air smells like sweat make songs of it, give it a kiss my shoes are full of water the planet is too hot here comes a reporter and asks me what I've got i answer. "i got wet"
Clive (from: Space News to look forward to)
The year is (alien symbols) This is the final day, archeologist We have found out all we could Thus we present you with this list: The planet may have been inhabited! (We found proof of water long ago) Though we're not sure, that we admit: Pollution caused this place much woe. Did they die of heat and flood, of drying flora, lack of air? Did weapons fill the streets with blood til they erased the final prayer? What did they believe in, what were their debates? What were their languages and names? Did they build structures, countries, states? How'd they decide who rules and reigns? This dust, a person, who was he? Did he perhaps write poetry? We cannot say if they had art nor who/what tore this world apart. Knowing of no name for this, or if they loved and how they kissed, we came up with our very own (since not one creature's life in known): We dedicate this planet to the god of life, who's name, as you may know, is (alien symbols that look like: Clive)
Lonely (from: Space News to look forward to)
we tend to imagine the cosmos as very old but that's just a story we like being told the heat death about which we philosophize is further off than the birth of the skies so what then if we ARE alone? a tiny speck of hopeful souls stretching out, looks for places to roam but all we could ever find are empty spaces, no amoeba, no scrolls of a bygone alien kind.
Lover/Eden
lover, o lover, thou art enigmatic thy courtship is one of ice pick precision thine face transmitted, yet i saw naught but static and crooked green flowers which announce thy position i dream of blood and i dream of betrayal but in those old days all i dreamt of was you and i am afraid, when i step past the veil a man with no soul will awake and come through; a mirage of something beyond all the crumbs, a glimpse of Eden from outside the gates not that living ribless under Gods thumbs, unknowing, seems so appealing these days but naked still, the last man walks alone, the sweet fruit turning bitter after rotting away a touch of love may yet turn us to stone since i drowned in the deluge, as i thought not to pray
Lines Out of Context
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Lost in Transit
as he walks into the station a bird lands at his feet "It is you", says he in fascination to the creature white and sweet "I remember you from long ago, you were my friend as I recall closer than the ones I know a part of me, a part of all" "We grew apart as time grew slow I tired of our conversation I ask you now, I'd like to know your stance on life, my situation" the bird watched him so silently nodding, walking, as they do regarding him, then finally pecking wildly at his shoe "you have never said a word I tried and tried to force you to" this did not seem to touch the bird which flapped its wings with much ado "I've heard them speak what you don't utter believed the lies and sung the song at times I felt I ran through butter transforming so I may belong" "but please just tell me one more lie so I can see, so I don't die I would prefer the shame and fear to what I see and what I hear prefer the terminus 'damnation' to knowing there's no destination" to his suprise thus spoke the dove: "prepare yourself, receive my love" the bird plucked from him, with full force his eyes, his hands, his question's source his lovely form, his gifted skin gutted by its hatred for him a train departs and wind blows through white feathers soak in bloody goo the people gather and they hiss "peace is but another broken promise" a man dies with 10 words to moan: "i'm sorry lord, for building something on my own"
Cooking Sonnet
a cook is one who can create delights the heat of their design will fill your heart through changing sites, as memory unites the both of you partake in art for what you taste remains until the end when the same thing may taste you in return so sharing such sensations with your friends ensures cooking's more than pushing things burn it is at it has been in time that's past: preparing a meal's an old celebration and thus one must admit at last that eating is more than avoiding starvation for saving me from every death that counted i give my compliments to the chef, astounded
Is It Not Enough To Live?
a unified existence, a systematic exchange an indiscriminate chance to view the general as strange to get a glimpse of what the universe has to give we've recieved the greatest gift; so is it not enough to live? must we dream of higher purpose, of devine power create a twisted mirror for the beauty of a flower or mystify reality with empty phrases to compress the truth until it betrays us? look up to the stars and conceive of something that could not be there all that you imagine and all that you believe distantly shifts before you in the air think up something madder than reality examine the beauty and banality and see: nothing is more fantastical than actuality so is it not enough to be? yes it is and therefore it isn't from the beauty of what is, the prospect of more has arisen it is not ungrateful to make the most of life all this is part of us and how we manage to survive
Human Unsettlement
a fun time can be had in the city mind the bodiless heads at the entrance their faces are still and forever pretty you and this next one may share a resemblence shout through the street but the echo will be the curious silence of untold events and their creator the children would tell you but they can't speak nor see take their loose eyeballs in your pants, for later run from your shadow, the sun's setting soon your fear of the dark is almost theistic some thing on the sea shines in light of the moon a trained adventurer is opportunistic open that crate and behold your boon the contained human dolls are so realistic you may climb to the valley but the descent is steep there the partyhouse is filled to the brim here lie the parents, not awake nor asleep tie them together for their bodies are thin down the sea over yonder and into the deep see them drown and wonder, why had they no skin? a fly on the water comes to pose a conundrum if your face were another would you feel any different? then all insects fall dead to beat of a drum the wet blows are approaching and becoming vociferant another face is growing over your own now, how fun the next mouth utters sweetly the cry of an infant that new shadow is rising and appears quite unhinged take a last look around through the piercing exchange your organs itch and burn, what was in that syringe? the streets now are empty but damp, red and strange "Do you possibly want to be pressed like an orange? it might be a new thing to do for a change." The light is gone now, you supposed no return but the eyes in your pocket had a different opinion through your mashed up remains in the poisonous urn they roll to the entrance to find a new minion while you used to have two now you have about fifty the eyes, that is, presently sit at one level inside those heads on sticks at the entrance, how nifty looking forward to fun times with the next poor devil
Further Vision
silence falls in secret at the terminus of earth covered in dark seas with crabby creatures on their turf The sky in red explosion from the closer coming sun Earths new neighbor is to greet it a new era has begun A man, out of place shaken to his core witnesses the end and grows homesick more and more Then as he gets away back to where he belongs For him the thing is over of it he sings no more songs But there will come this day It waits for earth at the end of the way
Freak Sonnet
If you should long for darkness' slimey kiss observe the freaks, the wretches where they bend us saner persons, we can but resent won't stand more ghastly beauty such as this the vilest creatures driving worlds into abyss for all to see; repulsive love that they extend or lack of love while cruelly self-content in their atrocious, most unnatural bliss they jump ontop creations casket, cut it free undressing the body for mourning men to see who's crystal, heavy tears fill much more holy seas oh, dreadful sins they meet with celebration but much more damning is the revelation that through all these they are happy and at peace
the hole
curled up into a ball i lie inside my hole when people pass they say "he can't be there all day" they nod and all agree: "this man should be out, free" but in my hole i ponder a lonely life grows fonder the snugness of a hole it won't grow sad at all? while time drags by like snails the magic slowly fails then unease creeps and crawls through four comfortable walls a motion grabs my form my sanity is torn my hands grapple the dirt and sweetly sings a bird my conciousness still tied but now i am outside
The Garden
At the centre of my heart lies a great garden but that's not where I live. Down at the bottom I sit on a garden chair, in a dusty cabbin, hiding away. Secretly hoping that if I ignore them long enough the overgrown vines wont reach my lungs. With each breath they grow closer, announcing to anyone who'll listen a truth none but the hopeless want to know: About a dry garden that will never be watered and a soil that one day will never nurture life again.
my corpse (toki pona)
sijelo moli mi
tenpo moli mi la o pana ala e mi lon poki. o seli ala e sijelo mi. o pana ala e telo awen lon mi. o pana e mi tawa ma sewi: pipi li moku e mi; mi pana e moku kasi. tan ni: tenpo moli mi la kon mi li lon ali.
English translation
When I die do not put me in a box do not burn me do not embalm me put me in the holy place: bugs will eat me; i will feed the plants. because when I am dead my spirit will be in everything
Journey
I met a man on a journey And asked him "Where are you going, sir?" "To my grave," said he merrily. I wondered. "Why then are you so happy?" "For I might make some friends along the way."
Mirror
One silent night the mirror said: "Don't stare at me, go lie in bed!" I begged: "I think it would be best You helped me put my mind to rest" It fell onto the floor with force. "What troubles you tonight, my source?" "Ashamed I am to say, my clone, I fear my thoughts are not my own" It pulled a knife out of its gob, "Just end my life to make it stop." I stabbed the spirit through the head, I did as I was told. In horror then I realized that it suddenly turned old. Surprised I heard myself admit "I don't believe this helped at bit." Her dying words thus croaked the crone: "It's cause you're always on that phone!"