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Beautiful Disaster (Beautiful, #1)
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*My Review on Walking Disaster. No Spoilers.
The book Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire has been all around the Blogosphere lately. It became available on Netgalley and many bloggers are currently reading it. This book has caused many controversy and has earned some really nasty reviews, still, the book has an average rating of 4.13. I recently stumbled upon a review that said very very no-so-nice things about Beautiful Disaster, and it also mentioned that everyone that rated this book with 5 stars was a @%#^&!#$% and insane. Well Hello! I'm a @%#^&!#$% and apparently also insane because I gave the book 5 Fat Stars. So sue me.
And now I am taking the time to make a second review for Beautiful Disaster explaining why I think this book was great and why I don't think it was a book encouraging abusive relationships and blah blah.
REVIEW OF BEAUTIFUL DISASTER - TAKE TWO.
*Scroll Down for my original review of Beautiful Disaster
I'm picking up my sword and helmet because I know lots of people won't agree with me. Anyways, here I go. *deep breath*
*Point One - Travis is an abusive and violent asshole.
I disagree. Yes, there is a scene in the book where he trashes his place because of a few situations with Abby where she left and lots of drama. Yes, that was violent but I don't think it was completely and utterly scandalous. Some guys tend to break or hit things when they're angry, NOT people. I have 3 older brothers; One of them would always, always hit a wall when he was angry, hence, he always had a broken wrist. One of my other brothers would simply go to his room in silence and do nothing but stay dead silent, he would shut down. I cried, and Yelled to my pillow, and cried some more. My mom throws things at people, I'm not even kidding, every time mom got angry we all just yelled "Duck!" luckily she always missed - I still Love you mom! - So maybe Travis's way of releasing stress wasn't the best and maybe it was a bit over the top and you would consider it violent, but he never, EVER was violent towards Abbey in the book. Ever.
*Point Two - The Abusive and Twisted relationship of Travis and Abby.
Their relationship was probably not the best of the world. It was, in fact, a Disaster. And the author knows it and she mentions it in the book and wrote it in the title.
“It's dangerous to need someone that much. You're trying to save him and he's hoping you can. You two are a disaster." I smiled at the ceiling. "It doesn't matter what or why it is. When it's good, Kara... it's beautiful.”
-Beautiful Disaster
I don't think that the Author - or anyone for that matter, would ever encourage an abusive relationship. EVER. Abby and Travi's relationship is very very far from perfect, but the beauty in it is that they both become the best versions of themselves when being together, and I think that's what relationships are all about: being with someone that inspires you to be better each and every day.
“You know why I want you? I didn’t know I was lost until you found me. I didn’t know what alone was until the first night I spent without you in my bed. You’re the one thing I’ve got right. You’re what I’ve been waiting for"
-Beautiful Disaster
You are not supposed to enter into a relationship thinking the other person can save you or that you can save the other person. Because, eventually, if you think you're doing the saving, you'll probably realize that it's not possible and they'll become a weight on your shoulder. If you think you can be saved by the other, you'll realize no one can really save you but yourself. In the first quote mentioned, Travis thinks he can be save and, guess what? the relationship fails. It isn't until BOTH of them deal with their issues and learn their lessons that they get back together. And they are still not perfect, because perfection does not exist.
*Point Three - The Jealousy
Travis is a very jealous guy. This is what I think about Jealousy:
“A person shows signs of clutching on too fast, of being needy, of not hearing the word "no," of jealousy, of guarding you and your freedom. But the signs can be so small they skitter right past you. Sometimes they dance past, looking satiny, something you should applaud. Someone's jealousy can make you feel good. Special. But it's not even about you. It's about a hand that is already gripping. It's about their need, circling around your throat”
- Deb Caletti, Stay
No one could have said it better than Deb Caletti. Huge HUGE flaw in Travis, and I'll say it again: the relationship fails until he's able to pull his shit together.
*Point Four - A Bad Book.
This book will never be at a Shakespeare lever, that's for sure, but it's not a bad book with bad messages to YA readers. I think the exact opposite. The author made this story for a reason, made the characters that way for a reason, and gave the book that title for a reason. And I honestly think that when you place everything together, aside from being a good entertaining story, this book turns out to be genius in a quiet way.
I really did get a lot of things out of this book, and I know that many many of you won't share the same thoughts and feelings with me, and that's perfectly normal, we're not the same and we don't think the same way. But I definitely felt the need to explain this because I don't like the assumptions they are making of us Beautiful Disaster Lovers. Now I wave my 5 star flag with pride because this book - in my eyes - earned every single one of them. And I shall be forever grateful to Jennifer from Some Like It Paranormal and Header from Nightly Reading for insisting on me reading this book.
and now going back to fan-girl mode: OH MY GOD!!! I Cannot wait for Walking Disaster!!!! Which is Beautiful Disaster told in Travis POV!!! *SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAL*
MY FIRST REVIEW OF BEAUTIFUL DISASTER.
This book was so good, so so so good! and the ending was so Incredibly Happy and Good that it seemed unrealistic....
Let me explain my situation: I'm sure we've all had a friend when we were young that was in a relationship and swore they were going to get married and you were like "Pfft, yeah right, you'll break up eventually, you'll see." Something similar happened with me and this book, I was like "Pfft, yeah right, nobody gets such a happy ending. Pfft." Which really pisses me off! I used to be a hopeless romantic and now I've become un-romantic and disgustingly realistic. and it's not even realistic because Happy endings DO exist. We're just all too blind to see them. Society killed good romance and Happily Ever After
But then I got to talking with lovely BF Jennifer from Some Like It Paranormal and I was ranting about how I was such a pessimist and she said [Quote] "Yeah I'm a big pessimist but I love my HEA! I don't care how unrealistic, an author should end things nicely otherwise I'm all upset and can't eat dinner!"
So Screw being a pessimist! Screw it I say! I will enjoy this Happy Ending and give this book the 5 Stars it Deserves! It was a great and addicting story! I Loved it! and I want One Just like it! [well, we can keep a few situations out, I guess]
The story was full of great elements, for example Abby mentions she has a troubled past, but you will never come close to guessing what she's running away from, I was very surprised and pleased when I found out, not your average situation. Moving on to Travis: Swoon worthy guy [Duh] Strong, with Tattoos and trouble trouble trouble. He was way to jealous at times for my taste and very violent [though never towards Abby] also very much of a jerk at times but, you can see he tries really hard to be better, which gives him bonus points. Abby was also driving me nuts at times, BOTH of them drove me nuts during the book, they were perfect for each other and they were both too stupid to see it, but it was never annoying and it only made me want to read faster! Spoiler Note, if you haven' read the book don't you dare see it! it'll ruin a really cool/cheesy/stupid part in the book! (view spoiler)
In conclusion: this book was Incredible. And the title could not describe it better, it's a Beautiful Disaster, because even though their relationship was, well, a Disaster, it was still Beautiful, Travis being the best version of himself he could be when he was with Abby, wanting to be the right guy and making the right choices, and Abby learning to take chances and also that sometimes life has other plans for you, and that this plans are often the best choice. An Amazing book that it's worth keeping and re-reading. You won't forget it.
by
*My Review on Walking Disaster. No Spoilers.
The book Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire has been all around the Blogosphere lately. It became available on Netgalley and many bloggers are currently reading it. This book has caused many controversy and has earned some really nasty reviews, still, the book has an average rating of 4.13. I recently stumbled upon a review that said very very no-so-nice things about Beautiful Disaster, and it also mentioned that everyone that rated this book with 5 stars was a @%#^&!#$% and insane. Well Hello! I'm a @%#^&!#$% and apparently also insane because I gave the book 5 Fat Stars. So sue me.
And now I am taking the time to make a second review for Beautiful Disaster explaining why I think this book was great and why I don't think it was a book encouraging abusive relationships and blah blah.
REVIEW OF BEAUTIFUL DISASTER - TAKE TWO.
*Scroll Down for my original review of Beautiful Disaster
I'm picking up my sword and helmet because I know lots of people won't agree with me. Anyways, here I go. *deep breath*
*Point One - Travis is an abusive and violent asshole.
I disagree. Yes, there is a scene in the book where he trashes his place because of a few situations with Abby where she left and lots of drama. Yes, that was violent but I don't think it was completely and utterly scandalous. Some guys tend to break or hit things when they're angry, NOT people. I have 3 older brothers; One of them would always, always hit a wall when he was angry, hence, he always had a broken wrist. One of my other brothers would simply go to his room in silence and do nothing but stay dead silent, he would shut down. I cried, and Yelled to my pillow, and cried some more. My mom throws things at people, I'm not even kidding, every time mom got angry we all just yelled "Duck!" luckily she always missed - I still Love you mom! - So maybe Travis's way of releasing stress wasn't the best and maybe it was a bit over the top and you would consider it violent, but he never, EVER was violent towards Abbey in the book. Ever.
*Point Two - The Abusive and Twisted relationship of Travis and Abby.
Their relationship was probably not the best of the world. It was, in fact, a Disaster. And the author knows it and she mentions it in the book and wrote it in the title.
“It's dangerous to need someone that much. You're trying to save him and he's hoping you can. You two are a disaster." I smiled at the ceiling. "It doesn't matter what or why it is. When it's good, Kara... it's beautiful.”
-Beautiful Disaster
I don't think that the Author - or anyone for that matter, would ever encourage an abusive relationship. EVER. Abby and Travi's relationship is very very far from perfect, but the beauty in it is that they both become the best versions of themselves when being together, and I think that's what relationships are all about: being with someone that inspires you to be better each and every day.
“You know why I want you? I didn’t know I was lost until you found me. I didn’t know what alone was until the first night I spent without you in my bed. You’re the one thing I’ve got right. You’re what I’ve been waiting for"
-Beautiful Disaster
You are not supposed to enter into a relationship thinking the other person can save you or that you can save the other person. Because, eventually, if you think you're doing the saving, you'll probably realize that it's not possible and they'll become a weight on your shoulder. If you think you can be saved by the other, you'll realize no one can really save you but yourself. In the first quote mentioned, Travis thinks he can be save and, guess what? the relationship fails. It isn't until BOTH of them deal with their issues and learn their lessons that they get back together. And they are still not perfect, because perfection does not exist.
*Point Three - The Jealousy
Travis is a very jealous guy. This is what I think about Jealousy:
“A person shows signs of clutching on too fast, of being needy, of not hearing the word "no," of jealousy, of guarding you and your freedom. But the signs can be so small they skitter right past you. Sometimes they dance past, looking satiny, something you should applaud. Someone's jealousy can make you feel good. Special. But it's not even about you. It's about a hand that is already gripping. It's about their need, circling around your throat”
- Deb Caletti, Stay
No one could have said it better than Deb Caletti. Huge HUGE flaw in Travis, and I'll say it again: the relationship fails until he's able to pull his shit together.
*Point Four - A Bad Book.
This book will never be at a Shakespeare lever, that's for sure, but it's not a bad book with bad messages to YA readers. I think the exact opposite. The author made this story for a reason, made the characters that way for a reason, and gave the book that title for a reason. And I honestly think that when you place everything together, aside from being a good entertaining story, this book turns out to be genius in a quiet way.
I really did get a lot of things out of this book, and I know that many many of you won't share the same thoughts and feelings with me, and that's perfectly normal, we're not the same and we don't think the same way. But I definitely felt the need to explain this because I don't like the assumptions they are making of us Beautiful Disaster Lovers. Now I wave my 5 star flag with pride because this book - in my eyes - earned every single one of them. And I shall be forever grateful to Jennifer from Some Like It Paranormal and Header from Nightly Reading for insisting on me reading this book.
and now going back to fan-girl mode: OH MY GOD!!! I Cannot wait for Walking Disaster!!!! Which is Beautiful Disaster told in Travis POV!!! *SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAL*
MY FIRST REVIEW OF BEAUTIFUL DISASTER.
This book was so good, so so so good! and the ending was so Incredibly Happy and Good that it seemed unrealistic....
Let me explain my situation: I'm sure we've all had a friend when we were young that was in a relationship and swore they were going to get married and you were like "Pfft, yeah right, you'll break up eventually, you'll see." Something similar happened with me and this book, I was like "Pfft, yeah right, nobody gets such a happy ending. Pfft." Which really pisses me off! I used to be a hopeless romantic and now I've become un-romantic and disgustingly realistic. and it's not even realistic because Happy endings DO exist. We're just all too blind to see them. Society killed good romance and Happily Ever After
But then I got to talking with lovely BF Jennifer from Some Like It Paranormal and I was ranting about how I was such a pessimist and she said [Quote] "Yeah I'm a big pessimist but I love my HEA! I don't care how unrealistic, an author should end things nicely otherwise I'm all upset and can't eat dinner!"
So Screw being a pessimist! Screw it I say! I will enjoy this Happy Ending and give this book the 5 Stars it Deserves! It was a great and addicting story! I Loved it! and I want One Just like it! [well, we can keep a few situations out, I guess]
The story was full of great elements, for example Abby mentions she has a troubled past, but you will never come close to guessing what she's running away from, I was very surprised and pleased when I found out, not your average situation. Moving on to Travis: Swoon worthy guy [Duh] Strong, with Tattoos and trouble trouble trouble. He was way to jealous at times for my taste and very violent [though never towards Abby] also very much of a jerk at times but, you can see he tries really hard to be better, which gives him bonus points. Abby was also driving me nuts at times, BOTH of them drove me nuts during the book, they were perfect for each other and they were both too stupid to see it, but it was never annoying and it only made me want to read faster! Spoiler Note, if you haven' read the book don't you dare see it! it'll ruin a really cool/cheesy/stupid part in the book! (view spoiler)
In conclusion: this book was Incredible. And the title could not describe it better, it's a Beautiful Disaster, because even though their relationship was, well, a Disaster, it was still Beautiful, Travis being the best version of himself he could be when he was with Abby, wanting to be the right guy and making the right choices, and Abby learning to take chances and also that sometimes life has other plans for you, and that this plans are often the best choice. An Amazing book that it's worth keeping and re-reading. You won't forget it.
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“To douchebags!" he said, gesturing to Brad. "And to girls that break your heart," he bowed his head to me. His eyes lost focus. "And to the absolute fucking horror of losing your best friend because you were stupid enough to fall in love with her.”
― Beautiful Disaster
― Beautiful Disaster
“I knew the second I met you
that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it
wasn’t something about you at all. It was just you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it
wasn’t something about you at all. It was just you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“I know we're fucked up, alright? I'm impulsive, and hot tempered, and you get under my skin like no one else. You act like you hate me one minute, and then need me the next. I never get anything right, and I don't deserve you...but I fucking love you, Abby. I love you more than I loved anyone or anything ever. When you're around, I don't need booze, or money, or the fighting, or the one-night stands...”
― Beautiful Disaster
― Beautiful Disaster
“You can’t tell me
what to do anymore, Travis! I don’t belong to you!”
In the second it took him to turn and face me, his
expression had contorted into anger. He stomped toward
me, planting his hands on the bed and leaning into my face.
“WELL I BELONG TO YOU!” The veins in his neck
bulged as he shouted, and I met his glare, refusing to even
flinch. He looked at my lips, panting. “I belong to you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
what to do anymore, Travis! I don’t belong to you!”
In the second it took him to turn and face me, his
expression had contorted into anger. He stomped toward
me, planting his hands on the bed and leaning into my face.
“WELL I BELONG TO YOU!” The veins in his neck
bulged as he shouted, and I met his glare, refusing to even
flinch. He looked at my lips, panting. “I belong to you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“You know why I want you? I didn’t know I was lost until you found me. I didn’t know what alone was until the first night I spent without you in my bed. You’re the one thing I’ve got right. You’re what I’ve been waiting for, Pigeon.”
― Beautiful Disaster
― Beautiful Disaster
“I don't get scared very often," he said finally. "I was scared the first morning I woke up and you weren't here. I was scared when you left me after Vegas. I was scared when I thought I was going to have to tell my dad that Trent had died in that building. But when I saw you across the flames in the basement...I was terrified. I made it to the door, was a few feet from the exit, and I couldn't leave.
"What do you mean? Are you crazy?" I said, my head jerking up to look into his eyes.
"I've never been so clear about anything in my life. I turned around, made my way to that room you were in, and there you were. Nothing else mattered. I didn't even know if we would make it out or not, I just wanted to be where you were, whatever that meant. The only thing I'm afraid of is a life without you, Pigeon."
I leaned up, kissing his lips tenderly. When our mouths parted, I smiled. "Then you have nothing to be afraid of. We're forever.”
― Beautiful Disaster
"What do you mean? Are you crazy?" I said, my head jerking up to look into his eyes.
"I've never been so clear about anything in my life. I turned around, made my way to that room you were in, and there you were. Nothing else mattered. I didn't even know if we would make it out or not, I just wanted to be where you were, whatever that meant. The only thing I'm afraid of is a life without you, Pigeon."
I leaned up, kissing his lips tenderly. When our mouths parted, I smiled. "Then you have nothing to be afraid of. We're forever.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“I need to hear you say it. I need to know you’re mine.”
“I’ve been yours since the second we met.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“I’ve been yours since the second we met.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“Let me guess, it's the love of your life?" I said quoting Travis' statement about his motorcycle.
"No, it's a car. The love of my life will be a women with my last name.”
― Beautiful Disaster
"No, it's a car. The love of my life will be a women with my last name.”
― Beautiful Disaster
“It's dangerous to need someone that much. You're trying to save him and he's hoping you can. You two are a disaster." I smiled at the ceiling. "It doesn't matter what or why it is. When it's good, Kara... it's beautiful.”
― Beautiful Disaster
― Beautiful Disaster
“It wasn’t just me, and it wasn’t just him, it was what we were together that was the exception.”
― Beautiful Disaster
― Beautiful Disaster
“I clinked my bottle against his. “To being the only girl a
guy with no standards doesn’t want to sleep with.” I said,
taking a swig.
“Are you serious?” he asked, pulling the bottle from my
mouth. When I didn’t recant, he leaned toward me. “First of
all…I have standards. I’ve never been with an ugly woman.
Ever. Second of all, I wanted to sleep with you. I thought
about throwing you over my couch fifty different ways, but I
haven’t because I don’t see you that way anymore. It’s not
that I’m not attracted to you, I just think you’re better than
that.”
I couldn’t hold back the smug smile that crept across my
face. “You think I’m too good for you.”
He sneered at my second insult. “I can’t think of a single
guy I know that’s good enough for you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
guy with no standards doesn’t want to sleep with.” I said,
taking a swig.
“Are you serious?” he asked, pulling the bottle from my
mouth. When I didn’t recant, he leaned toward me. “First of
all…I have standards. I’ve never been with an ugly woman.
Ever. Second of all, I wanted to sleep with you. I thought
about throwing you over my couch fifty different ways, but I
haven’t because I don’t see you that way anymore. It’s not
that I’m not attracted to you, I just think you’re better than
that.”
I couldn’t hold back the smug smile that crept across my
face. “You think I’m too good for you.”
He sneered at my second insult. “I can’t think of a single
guy I know that’s good enough for you.”
― Beautiful Disaster
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So many people have recommended this to me! I just ordered it from Amazon, it should arrive next week :D! can't wait to read it and I will let you know :DD
Thank You :D!!
This was refreshing in that it's basically the only positive review of this book. But I do disagree, respectfully so. The abusiveness comes out in more scenes than just the one where he trashes the house. What about his tendency to call her hundreds of times in one night? To literally sit outside of her bedroom and classrooms even though she clearly told him to leave her alone? He treats her like property: she's not allowed certain friends, and she's not allowed certain clothes either. He also literally picked her up and dragged her from a party because she was dancing with someone (and they weren't even together.) Maybe one of those things alone is forgivable, but all together like that, no.
I didn't outright hate the book though. I thought it was engaging and engrossing and I was definitely sucked in and entertained. But I do believe the relationship is abusive - it smacks of everything I went through with an ex. His intentions to be a better person don't matter, it's how he acts. And he acts down right despicable.
I didn't outright hate the book though. I thought it was engaging and engrossing and I was definitely sucked in and entertained. But I do believe the relationship is abusive - it smacks of everything I went through with an ex. His intentions to be a better person don't matter, it's how he acts. And he acts down right despicable.
Also the cycle of scaring her, making her feel guilty, and then apologizes is basically the definition of abuse. He doesn't have to physically smack her himself for it to be abusive.
Thanks!! :)
When everything is mentioned that way it does sound pretty bad, but once in full context it's different. Abby does tell him to stay away in a I-don't-want-you-but-honestly-I-do. And in that party, even though she wasn't with him and she "doesn't" want him with her, once he puts her down and they're in the apartment she. quote: "grabbed his face, slamming my lips against his" and tell him he loves him - for the first time I think. They're both seriously screwed up, which is what makes them, in a way 'perfect for each other'. Hence the title.
I guess we agree to disagree :/
That's how I feel, too. It's not okay for your boyfriend to make you so scared and upset that you NEED to turn off your phone, or you can't leave your dorm room, or worse, you can't even GO to your dorm room because he'll follow you there. It's not okay for him to beat up every guy who says something to you. And every time he does something wrong, it's not okay for him to make you feel like it was your fault.
I would have loved this book if it had actually shown them working through the crazy. But instead, it kind of disappeared. With some real consequences (like maybe getting arrested after that fire, or getting suspended after beating that kid in the caf up) and some therapy, this book could have been a great inspiration. Instead, it swept all the violence and abuse under the rug and said, "hey girls, if you marry the asshole, he'll change!"
I would have loved this book if it had actually shown them working through the crazy. But instead, it kind of disappeared. With some real consequences (like maybe getting arrested after that fire, or getting suspended after beating that kid in the caf up) and some therapy, this book could have been a great inspiration. Instead, it swept all the violence and abuse under the rug and said, "hey girls, if you marry the asshole, he'll change!"
I don't think that Travis is abusive. I think he's got a lot of issues and doesn't always handle situations in a healthy way. But Abby knows how he is, she's his best friend, and she decides to be with him anyway. He never hurts her, and I really don't think he mentally or emotionally abuses her either. I've seen what mental and emotional abuse look like, and I really don't think that Travis does anything to purposely manipulate or force Abby into anything she doesn't want for herself. He doesn't make her feel bad about herself or anything to make her a weaker person. In fact, I think throughout the book she becomes a stronger character because of him.
To be honest though, the thing that made me flinch the most while reading BD was the scene in the cafeteria where Travis beats the crap out of someone when they say something crude about Abby. That, in my opinion, was the one moment that I felt Travis had gone too far. And, actually if I remember correctly, Abby condoned that beating. So, she's not some poor helpless girl who doesn't know what kind of guy she's deciding to be with. McGuire wrote a book about two broken people finding each other and falling in love. Their relationship isn't perfect, but I don't think the author is in any way condoning abusive relationships. I'm ranting, but Beautiful Disaster is the kind of book that just brings out all kinds of emotions and opinions in me :)
People get angry and some trash things why the big deal, i do it all the time and am a girl anyway nice review :D
Thanks!
Already bought it! Won't be reading it in a while though, I'm drowning in homework :(
Thanks!
Already bought it! Won't be reading it in a while though, I'm drowning in homework :("
Lol! My cousin got hooked on fifty shades and she is effing out over Bared To You!! Lol! I must get This book!
great review. After that I just have to check this book out!
I loved how you put your points across and I agree with everything you said.
Mich
Thank You! And there will be a movie :D! or at least they are planning on making it, let's hope it's just as awesome! :)
:D
Michelle
You most certainly need to read this book :D
Thank You :)!
I have this book and #2 on my tbr list and am def going to read them soon
;)
I have this book and #2 on my tbr list and am def going to read them soon
;)"
Thanks!
And yes, read them soon and let me know what you think of them :))
Thank you! I know, this book wasn't for everyone, but sure thing, if you don't mind the spoiler I'll message you :)
I don't think I can really say what type of person would like this, everyone's so different and there's just many elements of the story that you may or may not like. For example it was a very dysfunctional love story and it pissed me off a lot, but it was still a very addicting story and I was rooting so much for them - but had I been in Abby's place, I would have probably dumped ^^
What I can say is this: If you like Colleen Hoover (anything of hers), Easy by Tammara Webber, the Fifty Shades of Grey or Crossfire trilogies, or you have an open mind to them and would consider reading them, then I highly suggest you give it a try :)
Hope this helps!