second day of work was ok. i had panic attacks while trying to watch training vids and i cried twice (held back tears) while cashiering

i keep having nightmares

Finished my first day at my new job. just woke up from my nap. I hope I'm not always this exhausted after a shift.

im so excited about finally having a job

very low motivation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzf8A4Qd6iQ

It's starting to get warm, so ill be able to outside more often now

also, since i ended all my subs to save money, no more clip studio for the ipad. im switching back over to the cintiq for art now

It snowed yesterday :3 its already melting but everything's still pretty and sparkly

I haven't been drawing at all since im putting all my energy in the job search, so im gonna try to make weekends all about art..

I'm learning how to play mahjong these days.. i still kinda dont know what im doing but its really fun

Still applying to jobs every day

the lesson i am repeatedly being taught but fail to let sink in is "i should have done this earlier" over and over and over

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJALBK5YD3c

bought more whiteout and pens for making comics. also found a printer/scanner for $44 :) but ill get it next time

Drew a lot yesterday and it feels like im getting better and soul healing

I wanna watch Tenchi Muyo again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWqXzNQsvjc

drawing more now, but emotionally im still very raw and it feels like it gets worse over time

was having a really horrible time , cried a lot, thought this was it, but i survived haha