3AM by lilsimo

It’s three in the morning and I’m still wide awake Between a hit and a breath flying away with the wind You promised so much but delivered nothing And now I don’t give a fuck about any of your thoughts The world’s a mess, none of us are real But how can I live when I always have this thought in my head That every woman I meet infects me with poison Drugs are just an excuse, they don’t make me any calmer I gave you the best of me but you never truly understood Now I take pills just to feel a little calmer But this isn’t a cure, I feel cursed After all this you can talk behind my back But if I did it, I’d really disappear In an instant In a penthouse With a model next to me The two of us here, holding each other with our broken hearts Nothing lasts forever, so let’s live these moments I run without a goal, only my thoughts clinging on In my head there’s a war between heart and mind I write lines no one reads but I live them deeply As if every bar were a bullet to the center I wake up late but I never really sleep The dark circles are maps of a trip I never hope for I walk on the broken glass of my “I could have”s And every broken dream is just another knot in my scent I’ve made peace with the idea that peace doesn’t exist That even when you laugh out loud your soul stays silent That people only love when they need a pretext Then they leave you alone while you drown inside your talent No one gives anything here, I’ve learned it over time Between broken promises and dreams locked inside a drawer I clenched my teeth when the world spoke crooked to me Now I smile little, but every glance weighs heavy I’ve learned that love is sometimes just a pretext That those who swear “forever” disappear quickly I’m sick and tired of hurting so often I built my own world where it’s just me with myself I write verses in overdose, it’s my therapy But every bar I compose is only nostalgia For the time when I still believed in something real Now everything’s fake like my sincerest “I’m fine”

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