crying at by bloodonthetable

it's the end for me, my depression is not gone, but i'm on the road to recovery. I was struggling with confidence and I still do.. but It's no longer talking control of my life which is awesome. I made bloodonthetable because I was depressed and I figured making music that expresses my mind and my feelings. I love vaporwave aswell as trap music and so I made my own feelings of the genres. I'm still somewhat depressed... Since I spent too much time worrying about not being in the way. That nobody really notices me anymore...I'm convinced I'll be single for life... Anyways these songs are 90% all made by scratch from me. I made BOTT because i just wanted to let myself know that this is what I was feeling with... The pain and the struggle of waking up day to day.. This is my vaporwave-ish nostalgia. Sadness, death, suicide and pain. I wish I had a normal childhood. Anyways, I'm doing better now. I feel better now but I know I'm not done. I gotta be more social and active and move on from sulking away. I don't know how I'm recovering (specially since i thought bout suicide daily) but I'm gonna make the most out of it. Much Love, Raul.