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I float through physical thoughts. I stare down the abyss of organic dreams.

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Cake day: July 1st, 2023

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  • I agree with the sentiment as to the futility of the doomer/nihilist mindset, being a reformed (or rather, being in the process of reforming) doomer nihilist myself, I know the call of the void all to well. However…

    It’s not just the USA declining - it’s really everywhere. Call it whatever you want, late-stage capitalism, the rise of the techbroligarchy and fascism-adjacent currents, etc…

    But there’s stuff going on. It’s harder to get a job, harder to get an education, harder to earn a living wage, harder to get ahead in general. And it’s everywhere.




  • Yeah, I’m aware of the game speed etc being tied to FPS, but From Software made DS3 run at 60 FPS on Xbox and PS5 over 3 years ago.

    Iirc, it’s using the same engine as Bloodborne, so conceivably, they could get it working in Bloodborne as well.

    The more logical thing to do, of course, would be to rehash it for a 10 year anniversary release with 4K/60, but that has come and gone, so…

    I don’t even own a PS5, and never will, but the game is so god damn good that it’s (another) crime for Sony to leave it like this.



  • Here’s a picture of Nito in his favorite jammies (we still have them).

    I don’t think they did it deliberately (the in-laws). I think they needed someone external to be with them when they made the decision, so they could be sure it was the right one (which it was, as any competent vet would say).

    In any case, I don’t really judge them for it, and even though it was very emotionally draining, I understand the impulse.

    But you’re right, grief is a motherfucker, and everyone has to do it in their own way and in their own time, ain’t no way you’re escaping that looming shadow, unless you’re a psycho, of course…

    I hope you feel better. Hopefully better days lie ahead.


  • 3 weeks ago (February 18th), me and my girl’s Sphynx cat died unexpectedly and dramatically (literally took his last breath in my arms).

    He was only 10 years old with no prior obvious health issues.

    He was like a son to us and the most sweet and gentle being that ever was, and we’re still all fucked up.

    Yesterday, my in-laws call my girl (we live in the same apartment building) and kind of ambush us into pushing them into making the decision to put down their almost 16 year old Shar pei, who again, was just the sweetest boy.

    I’ve been sobbing uncontrollably in between doing routine shit for the last three weeks, and today I just woke up feeling done with this fucking life.

    I know it’s not the same, but nevertheless, just wanted you to know you’re not alone shoveling shit. And I’m sorry you have to go through this.






  • We lost our sphynx very dramatically two weeks ago, and he was only 10 years old with no prior health issues, so I know how it feels.

    You’re not alone.

    Me and my partner are still devastated and find ourselves sobbing uncontrollably every day.

    It was like losing a child.

    Life is on auto pilot these days.

    I hope I’ll see a good day again.