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lyrics
Fuck you for not even wanting to fix this
Fuck you for saying there was nothing left to salvage
You made your bed
a difficult place to lay my head
You made your bed
Now alone I lie in it
Open your arms and I will open my vocabulary up
to say the things you need to hear
Cuz I'm still here
I always imagined that a heart breaks
in a single moment
It doesn't
It happens real slow
Like a virus taking hold
Like a poison inside, taking its precious time
And I'll admit that in my moments of weakness
I hope that you're suffering
At least half as much as this
Every breath that I spend in your absence
Is breath that I'm wasting
Guess that's why I'm suffocating, Hating
the sun for insisting on rising every morning and
Open your arms and I will open my vocabulary up
to say the things you need to hear
Cuz I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
And now I can't listen to any of the music I like
It always just brings me right back to you
I can't listen to The Knife cuz I know that they're you're favourite
I can't listen to Kelela cuz I did when we first dated
I can't take the same joy in any of my favourite things
That's just something that you took from me
Something that you took from me
Every breath that I spend in your absence
Is breath that I'm wasting
Guess that's why I'm suffocating, Hating
the sun for insisting on rising every morning and
Open your arms and I will open my vocabulary up
to say the things you need to hear
Cuz I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
credits
released October 13, 2021
Mastered by Wayne Sutherland
Written, produced and mixed by Hunny Machete
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