Huit

I think it captures the life of a person with OCD, but it was a very hard to watch film. Not that I want films to be easy viewing / pleasant films but there is something about this film which made me very uncomfortable and almost gave me a headache..

I cannot rate this higher because it is the most accurate and therefore opposite of fun and entertaining thing I have seen in recent memory.

Anyone who watches this with significantly negative feedback obviously does not have anxiety or OCD. It is boring to watch for those who cannot relate; maybe even seem overdone. I assure you, it is not. If anything, for the most serious cases, it censors the most embarrassing types of compulsions, obsessions, and rituals. For me, being one that can sadly relate, this was extremely difficult to watch because it was quite triggering, making me think about my own obsessions and rituals. So maybe even as a little ERP (Exposure Response Prevention), I had to watch this in little short bits over time, otherwise I would be flooded with anxiety I could not cope with. Am I ashamed to admit how pathetic this is? Yes. Have I done, do I continue do, many illogical compulsions and rituals every damn hour of every day that are far more embarrassing, that I am not admitting to my own consciousness, to my friends, let alone in a public forum? Yes, yes, and yes.

If this seems campy or weirdly horror like, that is because it is. I promise you that the darkest things our brains can do in real life are far more frightening than any made up horror film.

I do not have the cleaning subtype, but this is scarily accurate, in so far as the desperation, the madness you feel knowing what you are doing is madness, the utter panic; the fact that anyone else watching you would likely think some very unkind things about you, when all you are is a girl with a unbelievably powerful mental disorder that will not go away. No matter what you do. Indeed, the more you forcefully try to make it go away, the more serious it actually becomes, to "make up" for any deficiencies.

And how alone you inevitably are, you and your disorder. Because you might have many loved ones who want with all their hearts to save you; to rescue you from this pain, but there is little they can do when your OCD rules your every thought and what feels like every cell in your body. You can try to let in love for others, you can accept love, but at the end of the day, you know who you are really married to for life.

So you do the only thing you can, when suicide is not an option. You continue pushing through another second, another minute, another hour, another day, another year.

And the ending was unfortunately the most relatable thing of all. Because your one victory is equivalent to everyone else's, well, breathing. And about a thousand times easier to lose than it is the win. Because the thoughts don't go away, and despite the many victories you thought you had. Then, suddenly, it is ten years later, twenty years later, you are still alive, but you don't know how, and it's all been a nightmare. And you are still in it. Stuck. No way out. The credits might roll, but for us sufferers, the horror continues. Relentlessly.

#0CD #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness.

I'm sure that some people might consider this art, but in terms of activity, it basically watching grass grow. It is true that this is exactly the way to portray the OCD person with additional issues, but that doesn't make it interesting.

We basically watch a woman's alarm go off endlessly, go to the bathroom, followed by an endless shower. Activity like this goes on for most of the movie. All of this is real time, no breaks.

I also thought originally that it was a RL documentary, discovered later she was acting, but it made it no less real and raw. I wasnt sure if I'd write this review because of is raw content and the very real feelings it stirred. I must admit I jump skipped 10secs at a time through alot of it bc the rawness became too real for me.

That said, lead did so well, it was so believable as a true life person. If you have OCD, know someone who does, or are in the field studying this, I highly recommend it; if not, you will likely find it too slow and probably annoying. Unfortunately it's one of those films that you really like because the subject is personal for you, or youll really hate it because you have no interest in the subject.

This honestly made me cringe at times, more so than actual horror films. I could not believe how a movie with almost no speaking at all could keep me fully engaged. I have known a couple people with this condition, but nothing close to the extent of this. The Lead role was very well done and realistic. Knowing that this is a daily struggle for so many, it truly breaks my heart. This movie is definitely raw and hits you like a ton of bricks, knowing that our minds can be the biggest horror story of them all.