I have to say that this was a very solid effort by filmmaker Mia Donovan and I want to give her a twenty-year supply of Kudos for reaching out to someone like Lara who had tons of emotional baggage. Toward the end of the film, Lara reveals something that I already knew the very first time I saw her in the news reports--her incestuous past with her father. This actually became evident to me when she said that she "mentally broke out of her body" as she endured the double penetration scene and "thought about the sand and the beach" and other peaceful places. This is a very common occurrence that takes place with sexual abuse victims as it is their only means of escaping the horror that they are enduring. There were a few other items that were brought out in regards to Lara's troubled past. However, this is where I feel this documentary failed. The real issue here is not condoms in porn nor is it necessarily HIV. The real issue is Lara's "Emotional HIV" and I felt the documentary didn't go as far as it should have in regards to this. I can tell you right now that Lara shed a lot more tears than what this film showed. She was obviously carrying around LOADS of emotional baggage. Think about it. She had her trust violated and her innocence stolen from the very one who should have been there to protect her--her father. Also, Lara has relayed in numerous interviews in the past that her parents constantly argued with each other, thus putting a lot of emotional strain on Lara and her siblings. I really have the hope of meeting Lara one day and when this time comes, I would love to be able to encourage her to form a foundation that deals not only helping other girls out there like her to not fall into the traps that she did in the porn business, but also to provide counseling and help for these girls' "emotional HIV" and help them to heal as well. This, I feel, would be the best thing to take place because, let's face it. If Lara had the love that she needed existing in her home life when growing up, she would have never gotten involved in the porn business in the first place. Also, what really angered me when her story became news was the unbelievably cruel and harsh comments that were hurled at her on the internet, with many people calling her a "whore" and saying that she deserved HIV. Uh, excuse me? Yeah, why don't you all just act like a bunch of boneheads and kick this poor girl while she's down. This clearly angered me to no end and really saddened me to think that this is how low society has gotten. Anyway, despite in not going further than it perhaps should have, "Inside Lara Roxx" is still worth a viewing. There are some rather tender moments and Mia does a good job with the direction of the film.
A side note-- there are numerous therapies that are being utilized that have had great success with abuse victims. One of these is known as Emotional Freedom Technique or EFT and a good book on the subject is "The Promise Of Energy Psychology". I think that it would benefit Lara to read up on this so that she could perhaps utilize it for herself and also to help other girls like her to the pathway to healing their "emotional HIV" as well.
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