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i've got less than 2 weeks to go, insyaAllah.  but i've been fighting many things lately.  breads of all kinds included!  im such a bread person, i mean wats easier than 2 or 3 slices of bread with some butter or peanut butter or chocolate spread in d morning right?  *spread-spread-papp(marry the bread)* and *nom nom nom* in d car otw to work (while stuck in traffic).

for the past how many months, this has been my staple breakfast, until i realized d nasty aftertaste everyday which after much narrowing down, led to my breakfast.  it turns out my wholemeal bread for breakfast is the culprit.  no, saya x hina rezeki (roti) sbb saya suka makan roti hari2 but i just cant deal with the aftertaste   which turns out to be heartburn.  

and so i switched to cream buns, because i realized wholemeal bread cannot agree with the acid in my stomach but eventually all breads cannot go down peacefully without causing acid reflux.  im now left to eating yogurt for breakfast, but i dont think so i cud down more than a serving.  

oh dilema, apa lagi yang boleh dan nak makan for breakkie ni?  cereals would be quite a hassle considering i have to eat it either really early at home, before i leave for work, or leave a box of it at work with a carton of milk, which would cause me to starve a lil otw to work.  arrrghhh!  perhaps i should resort to muesli bars (yang manissss sikit for my liking). makan pun pening... 

most of the time, we human cant escape having bad thoughts about others, because we are anyway, human.  sometimes, we jump to conclusions and make our own assumptions, which is both good and bad.  bersangka baiklah pada orang lain.   more often than not, we thought negatively of the other person.  

depending on the person we're dealing with and their nature, sometimes its good (read:  to pacify ourselves) to give them the benefit of the doubt.  we read texts without hearing the person's voice and it could be totally misunderstood, if you choose to see it that way.  but what if the message communicated really is negative?  then it shall remain a mystery. 

i have given a couple of person the benefit of the doubt more often than i should because i feel helpless.  every single time i have to pacify myself trying to make up the best and most reasonable excuses for them so i dont hurt so much (and get upset for being helpless).  but i really dont know, is it worth it?  but do i have a choice?  no. 

dear Allah, please give me the strength to persevere. 

my blog is probably full of negative vibes.  perhaps its because i find it easier to share my discontentment rather than things im grateful for.  then again, if you are happy and you intend to thank your Maker, shouldn't it be between you and God?  why would you say your prayer online right?  just my 2 cent. 

with recent happenings in east malaysia, with the uncontrollable blooming of keyboard warriors and preachers, i find it rather disturbing when you pass insensitive (although i would like to use harsher words, im reserving it for now) remarks especially about the deceased, the fallen heroes in the lahad datu incident.  yang meninggal tu syahid dunia je.  sia-sia je diorang mati katak.  HELLO, who made you God??  just because your family/relative/friends/alike are not on the battlefield, you think you can get away with saying something so hurtful?  lets leave the judgment to the Almighty, if we have no prayer or anything nice to say, pls dont say anything (read:  shut the F up).  you are not sacrificing the lives of your loved ones, you probably have nothing to lose but there are parents/wives/children/relatives/friends praying for the unrest to end and wait for the return of these forces.

it's really sad seeing what has become to the nation.  there's barely any unity, not even among our own race.  we are proud of the wrong things.  happy for the wrong reasons.  the only thing that seem to bring people together nowadays is football (or a certain kind of sport).  not even religion can bring us together.  we hate each other, just for having different opinions.  why cant we just be a lil more discreet about our preferences  so we can all be friends with one another?  lets be a lil more objective, despite our differences (in opinions), why cant we come together for other causes?  believe it or not, the race is already on the losing end.  what is the price to pay to open the eyes of the people?  its a dog eat dog world, and now we're already at each other, weakening whatever links there is left while the rest sit back and laugh at us. 

the world today has made us very inhumane.  we are more careless than we already are.  we take so many things for granted.  we rather do charity outside our own "home" than helping our own kind.  i hope Allah have mercy on us.