Kvetch

Memang, kalau diikutkan hati banyak benda yang dah dibuat sekarang ni.. tapi hati tu tak selalunya betul. Lagi-lagi bila hati tu kita tak tahu dah tahap mana boleh ikut. Kadang-kadang rasa mcm betul, selalunya jugak macam tak. ntah la..

Banyak juga benda yang dirasakan tak perlu, tapi sebenarnya perlu. Yang patut, tapi sebenarnya tak patut. Ego rasa diri sendiri betul, sbb jarang ditegur. Bila ditegur sikit, rasa tak patut dan marah. Orang biasanya akan marah sbb dia mmg fikir dia betul..ntah la jugak..

Bila dah *****, byk jugak jumpa orang yang macam-macam perangainya..campur dengan diri sendiri lagi, mmg pening kepala kalau difikirkan. Banyak betul sikap yang tak tahu juga nk dikatakan mcm mana. Bila masa nk jadi pro dan bila masa nk ketepikan isu personal. ntah la jugaaakkk

Last sekali, apa yang boleh buat...duduk je la diam-diam.

Okay, i admit. I just cannot update my blog as often as i wanted to. Not that i dont want to, but there are just few reasons ( the main one is lazy of course) why i didn't blog.

Here's why.
1. I'm lazy (duhh..)
2. I dont even think that anyone actually reads my blog (i think that's because i dont update..hehehe)
3. I'm experiencing writer's block (heh! as if my previous entry are like essays)
4. .....

I'm out of reason, for now. But, i think why i didnt blog is because i didnt feel like it. I have nothing to share. My life is mainly a routine. Work, eat, sleep and that's about that every single day. On weekends i belong to my family. Ever since i berani sikit to drive, that's what i do almost every weekend (Note : not complaining at all, i love driving them around. It's because i think there's not much that can do for them. At least i can get them to places and make them happy)

Last week was the first time that i went out with friends at night in Batu Pahat. I cant remember when is the last time i went out watching movies, or makan-makan in Batu Pahat. Haiya, this girl has little social life.

I should go out some more la...movies, shopping, makan ka. Anyone interested? JOM!

Well well..2 months is not that bad. The same thing happen every time when i wanted to update my blog. I can have so many things to write about when I'm not in front of the computer and be completely blank when i am. Duhh..

I really wanted to meet friends during weekends, watch some movies, chit chat ke.. but i dont know of who is around in BP. So, siapa-siapa yang baca ini, ajaklah daku. Saya ni penyegan orangnya. Seriously! Tapi kadang-kadang untuk kes terpencil, saya memang sudah mengantuk bila dah pukul 11 tu..hehe..

Dan saya juga rindukan zaman belajar dulu, rindukan tempat, kawan-kawan..pendek kata semuanya.

I just got back from Sabah last week. I didnt have the chance to travel and i did go there alone. So macam bosan/menakutkan juga bila mahu jalan sorang-sorang tu. Bukan apa, untuk keselamatan diri. Bahaya juga kalau budak kecik jalan sorang-sorang. :p

But, bile berjalan sorang ni kadang-kadang lagi ramai kawan kita jumpa. Sebab dah desperate nak bercakap juga dengan orang, saya tebalkan juga muka untuk berkenalan dengan rakan-rakan baru. Dan memang worth it. I really owe a lot to Kak Faridah & hubby, because without her, i would be spending my last night in Sabah alone and hungry. Tunggu ye, nnt saya cuba hntr benda itu. Mmg pengalaman jugak la bila makan dekat kedai di tepi pantai tu dan tiba-tiba blackout. Gelap gelita! Nasib baik dah habis makan. Hehe.

There's this one thing that i really wanted to do at work. And i am going to make it happen.

I WILL make it happen.

That change will come.