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Two days more to go and we say goodbye to 2009. 2009 was so far good compared to 2007 and 2008. I experienced a lot of trials and difficulties but I have surpass them all. I almost died last January of pneumonia, I felt the biggest life changing insult from my superior, I experienced traveling for the very first time in my life, I have passed my mahiwagang comprehensive exam, I got promoted from teacher I to teacher III, I got a lot of responsibility compared before, I gain more friends and I experienced new things that I have never experienced before. I can say that 2009 was a great year for me in spite of all the hurt, pain, sufferings and loneliness that I have felt I could still say that I'm lucky and blessed. I take this opportunity to thank my family, friends, relatives, co-teachers, my pupils, madam and to our Almighty God for being with me all these time in the comforting me, understanding, and the unconditional love you have shared upon a million thanks to all of you.

Hi everyone Merry Christmas and a Happy and Prosperous New Year. I'm actually concentrating my time resting and help a little here at home. I feel a little sad yet I just got to go on with life. I realized that money can never buy happiness even if you got a lot of money but still real happiness can never be substituted by it. I'm just so happy that I celebrate the birthday of Jesus with my family here in the Philippines. All I did was to eat and sleep and help in watching over my nieces. I attended mass with nanay and tatay last Christmas day that makes it so complete. I go places if I need to like buy stuff for Christmas presents and food at home. The thing i don't want to experience in this holiday time is the heavy traffic on the streets. I don't like the pollution and all that. I don't have any choices but to just go with the flow. I'm the runner and the errand girl in the house now except if nanay will be the one to buy all the stuff she needed. I'm looking forward to have a safe and a memorable New Year. I'm creating my New Year's Resolution if I'm done with it I'm going to post it here. Have a happy day and take care.

I've been hibernating for days now. I don't know I had a lot of things in my mind just can't pour it out well. Our Christmas party was fun even though there are eight pupils who failed to attend still we were able to have a happy Christmas party. It's the first day of my Christmas vacation I'm just here doing nothing at home but taking care of the my nieces. I taught them simple lessons I wanted them to learn. I feel bored doing nothing. I think that my depression got worst now but I don't mind it. It is not worthy at all to focus my mind to such distraction. I just feel so lonely don't know why. I'm trying to make myself busy. Watch some old movies on TV, do household chores, play with my nieces, do my research for my thesis and the best thing I wanted to do is to have my sleeping session yes! hehehe. I wanted to sleep all day I'm done fixing my cabinet maybe tomorrow I will have my general cleaning in my room and wash my clothes. Me and my best friend already did our exchange gift activity I gave him a wallet. He liked it very much he even confessed that the wallet he is using is already 15 years old. I'm glad that I gave him the best present this year. On the other hand he gave me a big orange towel. For the past few days I was thinking to have a new towel then to my big surprise he gave me a towel. I can't explain it everytime he gave me something it was always the best present I have received coincidence or it just happen in the ordinary phenomenon. hehehe I don't know.

Today we finally pay tribute to madam. I don't understand why I got emotional when we sang a farewell song to her. I was thinking before that I will not miss her but I did miss her. I felt bad because she never told us that she is leaving. There are a lot of pending projects she need to see and a lot of things I wanted to tell her. I waited for her hoping that I could talk to her not knowing that when she comes back she will say I love you and good bye mel. Before I went home I greeted her and she told me I will not forget everything she have ever told me. All the lessons and tips I need to learn to become the best teacher there is. She will always be a part of me.

The kids are now very excited for their Christmas party. They are all busy preparing for their presentations and for their gift. This year is so far the most cheapest amount they voted for the gift expenses and that is ten pesos. They have all agreed to buy school supplies for their kringles. Many children could not believe how we come up with ten pesos but it was the majorities decision so we just got to follow it. They also has this unique gift giving style they told me girls will have different gift giving group same with the boys. Ever since I started working in the school I never did decided anything for the class I let them do the decision but if I won't agree with it they don't have a choice we just got to make a compromise thing. This year's batch of kids are different they are more cooperative and obedient than last year. I could not help but to reveal and remember what happen last year because last year even if there is already a decision the other group of kids won't give in they wanted to do what they want even if it is impossible. What I did I allowed them do what they want both groups. In the end everybody was happy and they all enjoy the party. I guess I also learned that if we really want that thing to happen we must work for it, never give up and to really stood and fight for it no matter what. hehehe

I can see a lot of Christmas decoration all around the city, Radio station plays our favorite Christmas songs, children are practicing for their presentation in their Christmas party, people are busy going to malls and avail discounts and choosing gifts for their love ones, Carolers are preparing for their best performance of their life this coming December 16, Church goers are excited to attend the Misa De Gallo, Entrepreneurs who are selling goodies after Misa De Gallo are also busy preparing for the best strategies and gimmicks to make their product good and people are going to Christmas parties and exchanging gifts being with old friends spent time with each other. I could not help it but think how happy could it be if all my sisters are here. When I go around the city I would feel empty thinking that we are going to celebrate Christmas without ate lilet, manding mopsy and manang pinky. That is life after all we have no choice but to live through it. My siblings have their own life anyway have no right at all to let them stay. I wish I could talk to them this Christmas. I still got my family here I have all the reason to celebrate anyway. It's Jesus' birthday I must make it special. Make Him happy that day. Advance Merry Christmas.

I was really surprise last Thursday when our grade leader told us that madam is already on her way to retire effective this month. I got mixed feelings about it. I'm not happy and I'm not also sad. Just kind of thinking what would life be if madam is not in school. She guide and teach us things about running a school in a short time yet with that short time we've spent with her, I could say that I have learned a lot of things from her. Not to mention those heartbreaking moments. In spite of the pain I have become more stronger and motivated to do my job well. I was hurt but through that pain it made me the person who I am today. Madam challenged me to do my best and she is successful. I will miss her. I know she love me and she just wanted me to learn. To Madam thanks maam. God bless in your journey and enjoy.

I'm so excited for this coming hoildays. I would just then sleep, sleep and sleep. Just kidding I would probably do the household chores, baby sit my nieces Yna and Toni, go window shopping, see a movie, spent time with nanay and tatay and lots of chat to my sisters. I couldn't wait for it. I'm making a list of what to do this holidays and hope that i could accomplish all of them. My best friend Jud confirmed that we are going to have our exchange gift activity like we did last Christmas. I wish I could give something he like not something I like to give hehehe. Advance Merry Christmas.

Yes! finally we are done with the dance presentation last Thursday. I don't have any mistake at all. I did all my best and it went well. The gown fits me well and lucky I don't have the hard time adjusting my movements in wearing such dress. Our Christmas party for the kids will be on December 17. I have to plan a lot of things to make the party successful. Kids in school are already excited for Christmas. Tomorrow I'll let them make their own wish list.

I feel so lost. I don't like to eat what a miracle. I don't want to do the usual routine I'm doing. I think I'm just too excited for Christmas vacation. All I ever wanted is to sleep and do nothing. I still got a lot of things to do in fact there are still a lot of pending jobs to do in school. I just got to do it our else I'll be meeting the deadlines in a row. I got a lot of things to do the result is I'm puzzled in what are the things that I need to prioritize. We are busy preparing for teachers day so sad I don't want to be there honestly that is I think my ultimate embarrasing moment in my life. Imagine me, wearing a gown dancing in front of thousands of teacher in Cagayan de Oro City. I got no choice but to do it. If only I could excuse myself from it I would. It will just happen once in a blue moon so I would just got to do it. Anyway, I won't be alone wearing that thing also my co-teachers will wear gown.