TW SPOILERS + this would be kinda personal | It was somewhere around 3 o clock, 28th of february. I woked up from falling asleep with tears on my chair. It was especially hard time for me as a ftm male, I've gotten a period since not having one for a long time, mostly becouse of my parents. They thought it was enough and called it a stop for me, which I wasn't happy for, but as a teen, only short from being adult by a couple of months, I couldn't do much. I was so sad, looking for anything that could make me feel better and accepted for who I was. I typed in chat gpt a phrase to find me a game that I could somehow identify with - wether it was in gender or sexuality. Life is hard. The ai came back at me with couple of options. I was torn between hades (though mostly becouse of gameplay) with Thanathos, and tell me why, becouse of the main character. Needing to pay for that though, I went with more down to earth game - our life. It looked like a normal romance visual novel, even if i didn't stay on the site for very long to avoid potential spoilers. Only thing that i noticed it that it had a one possible romantic option, or i thought to myself that i just didn't noticed the others and just downloaded it anyway. It didn't matter to me that much, being desperate and all for something, whatever really. I opened the game, loading screen, my thoughts went: that's what he lookes like? But it's fine, I didn't had to romance him, I could just take it as a normal chill little game, I probably won't spend that much time here anyway, Yeah if i could see my past self now... Well, whatever. I went in and started the game. If i remember there was a tutorial on the main page, but who needs a tutorial for a visual novel? Started the game anyway and got an tutorial anyway. I didn't mind that and actually paid attention weirdly, still surely knowing that it's a game, and i would probably play just for a few hours if i liked it. Then i got in. The first thing i remember was not actually seeing the face of that guy who sat near my house with head in his hands, being actually kinda scared of him at first, but still trying to be friendly. Then he offered 20 dollars. Yup, that was my soon to be dad, but at the time i was thinking about how weird and kinda creepy that was. I didn't take the money, but i thought about it for a while. It's crazy that I ended adoring this sharky gambling addict, and that he actually is one of my favorite characters of all in this game. Well, going back though, I didn't take that money. Like any small kid wouldn't take money from a random grown man by your house that you never seen before. Maybe I contemplated a little about it, but I made my mind. I wanted to play the game like it would be my little past self going through the events, and i kinda found peace in it. I never really got a good childhood, so i was really happy when i found my moms, my sister, and the whole neighboorhood was so calming. It's making me tear up a little still, it was comforting to know that my life could look like it, and even if it didn't, i could still live through like i did, even if for just a little while. When i went to the poppy hill... ah the poppy hill. But not to reminiscence, the first time i got there, i thought it was really charming place. Then there was a boy, at that said charming place. At the time i totally forgot that it was all about him - the loading screen, the download page. It all went somewhere back in my head, all i was focusing on was that my tears were no longer falling. But I looked back at my screen, and there was a boy whose tears didn't stop. He didn't saw me at first, but i stepped closer, piqued by interest as why he was here alone. At the time i didn't remembered that I was supposed to romance anybody, that it was a romance visual novel at all. I was just so emerged into the child i chose to be, and my at the time home which was everything I wanted when younger. But i saw this boy at the hill, crying, like i did not long ago too... In this dream world that had so little, yet everything... I felt bad for him. I still remember what he said: - I'm sorry, is this your hill? It's like he couldnt't even imagine that there would be ever a place for him. In this town, his new house, or even on a little hill behind them. Maybe even while thinking about his old house he thought that he wouldn't be accepted. -How can somebody own a hill? But he said he had a hill back there... now it was gone, far beyond the horizon from where he came from. His dad told me a little about him, that made me less scared about the weird adult but he was still weird nonetheless. Well, looking back at the kid, he did had a pink cast, and i wondered. Soon enough his dad came looking for him, I tried to sit with him through it. I truly didn't know what happened before this, and even if that weird adult was weird, it was his dad, and he even wanted to buy him a friend. They reunited at the end and i thought I would never see the boy or his dad again, but surprise, they're my new neighbors. At that point i totally forgot all about getting this game and just submerged myself in. I wanted to know that boy more, but only becouse of curiosity. Why was he crying there? What really happened? I had great joy being a kid again, even if only in game, trying to be truthfull to my past self as close as i could. I got to learn that his name was Cove, and he didn't really liked new people. I was happy i made a new friend, or i was hoping that i will since we didn't really knew eachother a lot. He liked my room, so i thought that he was actually nice, even if he was cold to other people and ran away a lot, or tried to, something common with his hated by then dad. I thought it was cool that he's kind of rebellious, or just different. Not clingy and naive like a lot of kids that age. Maybe if i put it into other words, he had a personality that i respected. I thought that if i were younger now it would be great to have such a friend, he was cool for an 8 year old. So as an 8 year old in the game, i wanted to know him more to be friends. My sister thought he was a bum and just overall grumpy kid. But he was complicated, upset and full of sorrows. When we got down from my room, him looking at my paintings and of course my shell collection, we got notified of another kid. Shiloh, my sisters friend, and apparently mine too. I thought he would be older, my sisters age, well i didn't know my sister's age, so i thought way older. Cove didn't liked that idea too, wanting to go out by the back window. I kinda wanted to meet this new kid too, so I pursuaded Cove to stay. And look at that, the kid was even younger than us. That didn't bothered me though, and Cove just didn't liked new people, so he would be bothered anyway. It's fine, even if they never got along to be fair, even with my sister, but she had a strong character too and one would even say she was bossy. I didn't liked that she was mean to that sad boy i met on the hill, even if others didn't see how miserable he was at the time. Back in my room, he liked one shell a lot. so when it was time to part, i took it and wanted to give it to him. Maybe it was becouse i didn't want him to dissapear and hoped that he would come back soon, even if he didn't had the greatest time in here. Maybe becouse i hoped i could do atleast something to make him less sad, and to actually smile. Or maybe both were the reasons. He didn't took it, and it made me sad that i couldn't do anything for him. No one deserves to be sad. Me from couple of days ago that just stopped crying for some random game knew that way to much, and me from right know knew as well. Atleast we said our goodbyes and the day was over. The screen changed and I was once again reminded what it all was about. Honestly i don't remember much about those parts, i know i was shocked by the sudden change of just meeting the boy to actually hanging out and being friends. I think i was kind of robbed of that, I thought it would be fun to try to bond a friendship than it actually was to just skip to it. Either way, I accepted that without much choice. I wasn't that engaged to it to really feel all that sad. It's fine, we hanged out with Lizzy and Shiloh, and i was kinda shocked to know that the park that my sister loved so was on the beach. How beach was so close and how it was a tourist town with whole bunch of condos, and how Shiloh didn't actually lived there too. I thought it was a great place, I still do. As a person i don't really care about beach and stuff, my favorite season is winter and i rarely even walk barefoot in my own house. But in the game, i felt like it's okay. I was actually really happy with it, to be even able to be near beach so often, and how pretty it could actually be. Without all the people and loud stuff, only with the waves gently pushing against sand, and the sun slowly meeting with water at the horizon. Or even the stars and the moon reflecting on the sea. I think i know now what Cove saw in it. Even if he was a little grumpy, he loves the sea, and i was glad that there actually was a thing that didn't made him sad. We played a lot with the whole bunch, we even made sandcastles. Oh, he couldn't swim back then so yeah, he asked what i liked to do on the beach and I said that. Also collecting shells of course, because of my collection that he weirdly thought was cool too. Then we made sandcastles with Cove and Shiloh some time later, and that didn't go exactly well... I didn't know wether to make a mansion or a castle, but seeing that other kids chose already, I went with Lizzy's dream place to live. I even got a little green shard of glass to put in my creation. Then Cove and Shiloh got into an argument... Of course i stayed with Cove, he was my closest friend after all and i didn't want him anymore sad than he already was. Another time, we were in my house. This time without Shiloh, but that's fine, Cove didn't liked him to be fair. I was kinda upset, becouse another friend is another friend, but oh well. Gladly, there was my sister, that i didn't really yet know at the time. Anyways, we played pretend, or atleast tried to. My impression of Lizzy wasn't very good because of it. She was way to bossy. I totally got Cove back there. Like, we're playing pretend so what do you mean we can't be who we want to? I got to be i think beach volleyball player, cus it was on the beach mainly, and shockingly (or not, by my reasoning) Cove did too. And then Liz said that we got only silver and she got gold? Yeah, my first impression on her was that she was kind of a spoiled brat. It changed of course, when i got to know her better. She still was very bossy though, especially back then. Of course i told on her, I don't think it would be fair to brush over it, and not only Cove was the victim but me too! So yeah, the call. I thought it was very cute that he said hi to me and bye, even if it was Lizzy who wanted (had to) to talk to him about this. Way later in life he even called me his hero about that. But yeah, we totally deserved gold too. It went well, and acknowleding that she's my sister, while we drove to her golf training, i tried to comfort her atleast a little with the car music. At the end of the day, I was just glad they came into an understanding, and so i saved the moment. I loved to save every moments that i especially liked in the game, and by that i think it's a SIN to give me only 240 spots to do so. I HAD TO CONSTANTLY SACRIFICE VALUABLE FOR ME MOMENTS FOR NEW ONES TO HAVE SPACE. Ehhhh... anyway it was kind of a memorial diary-album to me, and i appreciate 40 pages nontheless. At the end of the whole journey, i filled it through with my favorite moments, even if some couldn't sadly make it. Well, next we went to the shopping district. We, means me and Cove of course. His dad classically with his money, atleast it was nice that he thought about me too, becouse he gave extra to Cove just for him to buy me something too. It was a bit akward at first, i think it was the first story I got to play (but i don't really remember, all i know is that i went from left to right), so it was right after I actually met the boy for the first time. On that journey, he actually smiled, so i was content with it. We got to stop by a magician, and we got to see him perform. I was into it a lot, but Cove said that his uncle can do it too and that it's not realy magic after all. Yep, the grumpy Cove against the world, but we got balloons and they were in shapes of dolphins. Most importantly, Cove got one too. Then we went to the handmade stall, and i really liked the dolphin one, my decision somehow affected by my already owned balloon, but i still thought it was the best of them all, and to be honest i just liked it. Cove of course got it for me because his dad told him, but i was happy anyway. It was way better than 20 dollars for friendship. So i got the little dolphin that later in life hanged around my phone for everyone to see. I totally thought it was way bigger when i saw it on the stall, but that's a nice touch that i was able to put it in use and not only have it in my memories. We got hungry later, and we stopped at a pretzel stall. He got the cinnamonny sweet one and i got one with cheese. Choosing like what would i eat for real at the time. It was kinda hard to eat them with balloons, but i tied Cove's one around his hand, and he, struggling with his pink cast, tied one around mine. Looking back, I totally thought his arm was just broken, but later when i actually saw how he looked like with it off, I was shocked with how big it was. Mainly seeing it fresh in his halloween picture. Still, I'm glad that he actually likes his scar and think it makes him look tough rather than thinking it's gross or scary. Especially since he hated that cast a lot, it restricting his freedom. I was thinking about this, and it must have been really hard to do every day to day task like that, he couldn't even get it wet, so when we splashed in water later that summer, he had to be very careful. It was so sad that he couldn't swim in his beloved like nothing else ocean, but I'm glad he likes it so much, considering he didn't care for the beach when he first got in the town. When there first was an option in game to choose my feelings for him, I clicked what i really felt like, nervous and fond of. He was a good kid, but i didn't knew him even that much, i thought of him as my neighbor who happened to be the same age as me, so it was obvious we would play together, especially since there weren't other kids in the town apart of my sister, who didn't really like Cove. Couldn't imagine leaving him alone, and he was nice to me so i really felt like we were truly friends later in the summer. Going back, when we were eating our pretzels, which later turned into our backup plan for life, we started playing with our balloon dolphins. Mine was a movie star, but when Cove thought about what his be, it popped. He started crying of course, reminding me of how he's still a kid, even if with so much on his little sad head already, and even if his whole life was falling apart, he could still cry over a popped balloon. Of course i wanted to give him mine, I already had another dolphin, not in a balloon version but still. He didn't want it, he didn't want to take away mine, even if to be truthfull it wouldn't matter to me like it did to him. I would love to give him mine, so i was really sad. Again, i couldn't do anything to make that small boy from the hill stop crying. I knew it's not my place, not my duty, but i felt useless. He was my friend after all, I considered him as one. Or the time when we were walking home together, from the beach or wherever really. I told him about that dreadful 20 dollars i got offered from his dad. He cried instantly, I wanted to say that i didn't took it right of the bat, but later i got reassured that it wasn't me he's crying about. It was about his dad, that he would even do something like this. I reconsidered going back and not telling him at all, but i knew i should, felling useless once again. He had a moment with his dad moments later, and he told that little boy i didn't took the money, whatever, it wasn't about me anyway. I saved the moment where they hugged, happy that at least some things in Cove's life could be easier or better to understand. But i was truly happy when i saw that picked up by his dad, even if i hid his face from Cliff, he was smiling. Then that scary weird adult crouched and tore those 20 dollars apart. Each half for one of us. I was upset that they were never talked about later in the story. I really thought it was special. We both got one, and the tearing was one of a kind, nobody else had a piece of paper like that, except Cove, who got one exactly mirrored to mine. I was glad it all ended well, but i also knew that this boy deserved atleast one story where he was happy all the time. It was probably impossible, I couldn't image what would happen to me if my parents divorced at such a young age. Poor Cove, i want to make him atleast a little happier - that's what i thought about part 1. That's all i played in that part, i didn't got the dlc, becouse i didn't felt like it. It was just a little game i was gonna put aside later and not come back anyway. Yeah, sure. Well, it still was 28th of february and i was still playing. Probably considering how i started somewhere around 3am, the sun was already peeking out. But i don't really know exactly, since part 1 was kinda short. What was part 2? Teenage, right? Me and Cove 5 years later, at 13 years old. I got the option again, there were way more things i could customise about me too. I didn't make myself perfect, i tried to make everything as close to real past me as possible, but still only putting things i was comfortable with. I could've been a cis man, or not. Of course i didn't even thought about putting my prounouns as she/her, but i still got an option to choose if i was cis or not. I could choose how tall or short i was, how my body looked. Even if it wasn't in the character changer, somehow the makers made it so it was a part of the story. I really liked that, and i knew that no matter what i choose, even if i didn't liked my height or my body, Cove would still accept me. Yup, at that part I got to put him as my crush, and not still nervous or yet direct. It was exactly as i felt. Putting myself now into a bit older self from the past, little acned me would be delightful to have such a life as the one showed on my screen. Even if that said screen wasn't fullscreened at any point. Below the window was a google search for my favorite flowers, Lilies of the valley, which Cove asked me about. Sitting, laying on that hill full of white poppies. I would love to make him a little crown out of flowers there, since he loves them so much, but we just stayed there, together. I could stay there forever now that it's all over. I got to love that hill more and more across all my hours spent there. Well, anyway, we're teenagers now. 5 years passed and I feel totally out of the blue. Everything is so different, my moms, my sister. I go down the stairs from my room and open the door, as i got told that 'my special boy' may be there by Liz if i remember correctly. Not Liz, Elisabeth now. Well, i opened the door, and he was there, Cove. He was so cute when he was all blushed up, holding that fruit-flower bouquet his dad got for us. I took it, and somehow it ended in my hands for all day, until we met Jeremy and ate it all with Cove and Derek. Jeremy hmm? Well, there's this new kid, Derek. His and Cove's dads work together. Shiloh no longer here apparently and i got kinda dissapointed but oh well, he was kinda weird anyway. Like he helped to find money for a popsicle on one specific hot day with no Liz, but didn't want a popsicle himself? Come on, and it was kinda weird that he didn't really had his own opinions. Every time i got a chance in the options for Cove to do what he wants, I chose it. I also never customised Cove. I wanted him to be how he wants to be, wear what he wants to wear. I find it kinda funny now that i'm looking back at myself, because it's not like it really matters, but that still meant much to me. I wanted Cove to be who he wanted to be, and not who I wanted him to be. Yup, crush faze, definitly. Going back to
Derek, at first i wasn't sure about him, but now i think he's great. I also thought so pretty quickly after meeting him too, he's a good kid so no wonder, typical one you would find in some neighborhod with kids. Well, anyway, he told us that there's this new kid - Jeremy. Chills. We went to the park, that me and Cove would go so often to with Liz as kids, and ocasionally with Shiloh. There he was, green hair with a bowl cut and glasses. No wonder Derek thought he looked kinda like Cove. That boy also looked kinda upset, but later we all would find out that he is not one bit like the Cove we know. Mean, hating parents, typical teenage stuff to be fair. We tried to be friendly at first, but then he says that Cove's eyebrows are weird? Okay, first of all i thought it was just an artistic choice, and it isn't really out there that his eyebrows looked like this. Second - HE SAID COVE'S EYEBROWS WERE WEIRD. Mhm, we're gonna fight. The two other boys stopped me before anything happened, but atleast that little green bug was scared a bit by that. Later Cove actually said that he thought it was cool i did it. I totally didn't expect that to be honest, truly. Well, we ate the fruits that i was still holding for some reason, like what, i was going to beat up Jeremy with some fruits? But yeah, we ate it all. Atleast it made us feel better after that encounter. Not long after that, Liz found us and was mad that we ate them all. Others started running and I at first said that seagulls ate it, but Liz was understanding and we just said to our moms that the runaways did it. It was actually nice, just little shenanigans that we would do at teenage years. But i really started liking Cove more, to be fair there was a lot of things that happened in part 2. One that would always be was Cove getting in my room through window. He even teached me to surf, and when i didn't want to go home yet, he didn't either. I really didn't want the episodes to end. Now that im looking back, i should've bought the dlc for part 2, but i wasn't yet that engaged. It was still just a little game i used to make me feel better, but now i really liked that guy a lot. Why i liked him? We went through a lot together, and i actually got to know him. I think he's cool, and he's really nice and kind actually. He's so sweet and cute, and he gets nervous easily. He's still sad a lot of times, and wished to go back home, where he'd came from, but he's also more happy and actually smiling. He can swim, he can roll down the poppy hill. Now he would't have to stay there and be a referee, with me of course becouse i wont let him be the only one out of fun. We would do a lot of things together and i was happy with that. I wanted to do even more together but families and stuff. Every time i thought the episode was gonna end, there was a knock on my window, and a bright smile at my actual face, knowing that i won't be alone, and that he also doesn't want it to end. At first i was totally shocked that he would do that, but i'm so glad he did. The most memorable part of all that for me was definitly the RV ride. It was the last episode in that part (that was free), so i really got to know Cove good by that point, and i liked him good for sure. I also forgot to say, that at first i got kinda scared by his weird smile with teeth when we were kids, it was kinda off putting, but later, i thought that it was very Cove like, and i found it cute, but it was way later. Just saying. It's really weird that my opinion on that changed so much now that im looking at it. So yeah, the RV ride. At first, when our parents were talking about who would sleep where, i got riled up about how Cove would sleep on the ground. I said that he can take my loft and i can take floor, becouse it would still be kinda uncomfortable for me to say to share it, and anyway his parents were there too. Cliff said that it's no due and that it would be their bonding time. I also forgot to mention Kyra - Cove's mom. Yeah, he came through my window for the first time when he eavesdropped on his dad saying that his mom will come for a while through a phone. I gave him my support, but we both didn't expect that she would show up straight up the next day. I was shocked at first, didn't know if to like her or not, or what she was like at all. She was pretty for sure, and resembled her son a lot, i thought i would give her a chance. And there we went, to the restaurant, or diner (not really sure, the chinese one i think). Cove, reminding me of his younger self, was really out there, mad at the whole situation, but he said he wanted me with him there, and as his best friend at the time, i'm all to support him - especially with his family issues. Kyra actually turned out alright at first. Cove still mad so i wasn't sure if she was just friendly with me for the sake of it, but he would go visit his mom all the time, didn't he? Kyra asked me all about myself, which was unexpected, having to got so many options for customization, and her actually answering with interest. Definitly felt immersive. There was also an option to choose that my interests were Cove, but it was WAY too soon. I think it was one of the first episodes of part 2 so you know. Also i didn't know how Cove felt so no. But i still chose it just to see what happens and then i changed my mind and left it behind. Nothing really happened, he just got embarrassed at it. Still the fact that such an option appeared had given me great joy, and overall throughout the story i really got immersed. I would get excited, blushed, cry, get mad, get really happy, and lastly... fall in love. But not yet of course, though i thought a lot about Cove. I just really like Cove okay, there's nothing wrong with that. I know he's not real and never will be, which makes me feel sad, because i feel like we've been through so much together and we actually got to know eachother, and not only me him, but he knows me too. Mostly thanks to the broad options i could choose from, and with which it made this story way personalized. I know he doesn't exist, but i really wish to someday find someone who will be there for me, like Cove. Well, going back, it turned out to be Cliff's idea to got Kyra here so soon. Kyra didn't know, Cove didn't know. Classic Clifford suprise - Kyra said. That's how i got to know Cove's dad name. Kyra was actually really nice and Cove felt a lot better after too, his relation with dad still kinda harsh, but his dad loved him very much, he's just kinda bad at a lot of stuff. 20 dollars. Yeah so that's Kyra, she would be staying over for the whole summer. It was hard for Cove, and new too, but they tried very hard for their son, and i was there for him too, if he needed to talk about it or whatever really. And so RV ride... We were going to redwood forest and it was goint to be a 3 day journey. I got to sleep on the loft above driver space, moms got to sleep in another, big loft at the back with Liz, and Cove with his family on the floor and sofa in the middle. Well, he on the floor so i brought this up and they said no of course. We all got packed, parents switching who would drive and sleep from time to time. I think it's such a cool idea, being on such a trip and i really liked it too. I never really got to be a part of one so that was truly very exciting to me. Sadly it was kinda short but what did i gained from this couldn't be taken from me easily. Slowly, we got to the redwood forest. There wasn't much interacting with Cove as we first drove there so i was kinda dissapointed it would be like this all the way, but then it made sense since our parents were there and all. We got out, Liz teased us a bit, mostly Cove, like always. The trees were huge and Cove really liked it, so i liked it too. It was something that made him happy, so i was content with it too. Anyway it would be cool to go somewhere like that in real life, i didn't mind that location at all. Sadly we couldn't be there very long and we got back to the RV. Our parents still outside, Elisabeth in the back loft, listening to music, and me and Cove alone. We were sitting on the couch and i was looking at him intently, he noticed and was confused. I thought he looked nice in that pink track suit, even if he doesn't like layers that much. And there we go, the anklet talk. I asked what he liked the other person to wear. At first he said nothing, and i made fun of him for that. Not mean hearted though, just teasingly. He didn't want to answer at first, but i really wanted to know, and he said it - an anklet. With this new information i now made sure to wear an anklet every time there was an option for it and i made sure he saw it too. It was great to know i could make something for him to like me more, I wanted to do that. We blushed and stuff, and then RV got full again. It was night already so we all were going to sleep, even whoever was driving. We all needed to rest after the long day at the final destination we got to. I went to the loft, but i couldn't sleep, so i peeked from up there. Our gaze met. He was still kinda sleepy, but i signaled him to come closer. There were a lot of options to choose from, but there was one i couldn't walk past by. I invited him to my loft. He didn't actually thought a lot about it, maybe he was still half asleep? He got in anyway. I was so happy. I think i saved every frame of him laying near me. He looked so cute, i nudged closer, and he too a bit. and when i got to snuggle againt his chest, I was trully content. It made me so happy that i totally forgot i was crying just around 10 hours ago. I didn't care about parents and other unimportant at the time stuff. I was there with him, and only he mattered right there, right now. Cove in my arms, and he hugged me too, and we layed like that. I felt safe and happy. In my mind only Cove. I hadn't been eating a lot becouse how sad i was and i wasn't drinking any liquid either, but being there with him, even if he's not real, it made me think that maybe it was all okay, and everything will somehow work itself out. I wished i could stay like that forever, it was trully the first moment with him like that, where we could lay next to each other and cuddle how long we want. Some time has passed by then, and Cove dissapeared. It wasn't as warm as it was before, with him. I looked over from the loft, and there he was, with Kyra, talking to him. He got in trouble, and they were for sure worried where their son was. I don't remember if they saw me too, but later, i retraced my steps and tried the kissing option... which was there, but i felt like it was way too fast. And yup, it turned out in utter chaos. Cove as his Cove self - panicked and hit his head on the top of the car's ceiling, forgetting where he was. It woke up everyone, and everyone could see him there with you. I definitly prefered the cozy cuddle option at that point, it was nice to just relax with him in that warm sweet embrace. It is definitly one of my favorite moments from the whole game. The way he is drawn, near you, half sleeping, and so bashful at times, but still happy and content as i were at the time. Blushing from an ear to an ear. And i fell a little more. On that trip, he said that he likes black eyes, looking at me, and i said back to him reversing his line that i like blue ones. Now those blue, deep, aquamarine eyes meeting with mine, only a few inches apart. Cove. At first, when i got the game and stuff, i thought he was meh looking, like i wouldn't see him somewhere and went all wow and butterflies, he was really meh. But now, I looked at him different. I saw the person, who he is and what he likes, what he thinks. I looked at those wavy eyebrows and i thought that they were special, and making him special. That he's only one of a kind and there no one else really like him. That weird little smile with teeth of his, I saw it as him being happy, and so i loved it in exchange. I loved seeing him happy, and he was so cute when bashful. And he would do so much things for me too. He would always remember about me, even if everyone else would do their own thing. He would always notice if something was wrong, always asked if i was okay. Worried over me, even if he was the one that needed that worrying more than me a lot of the times. His pink choice of clothing, now that i knew the reason for it, becouse it seemed happy. Even if at first i didn't know why his cast is pink and thought that was kinda weird, now im seeing the whole color different. He's so sweet and I would do everything for him at the time. He was pretty for me, and i love his smile and his voice and i didn't thought at all ever that he's goofy. Even if there were options for it. Back when he first got through my window, when his mom were to visit, he actually stayed with me all night. Not in bed, but near it, at the floor. It was pretty frequent that he would stay on the floor past this point. I really didn't want him too, but he still was in the same room as me and we were together. When he woke up and got out the window that day, he didn't forget to hug me goodbye. This guy... Then there was that one hot summer day. He came by to just spend it together, even while doing nothing. I really appreciate when you can just be silent with someone you love and it's not akward but comforting, just being by each other, not having to say anything. Well, we got to do sandwitches, cus we were hungry. He did his own with mixed grains bread, peanut butter, bananas and honey. I did a whole gourmet sandwich, with tomatoes and spices and everything. We went to my room later. He sat on the floor and i did so on my bed. He said he was gonna melt and that i would have to scrape him off the floor, and i said that i wouldn't mind having him as a roommate. Well, we were supposed to do nothing, but we still got an idea of what to do. Hangman. Cove was kinda confused why it's such a gruesome game and where it would possibly come from. He made me a password and i had to guess the letters. Classic, 'a' first, got it. The password had 3 letters, 3 letters and 4 letters in it. I was guessing and we were talking in between too, finally the answers appearead to be clear, and i was shocked. Password was: you are cute. Cove was really thinking hard when he thought about what to put, and I could kinda see him blush and look the other way, but i never thought he would do something like this, especially since he's rather shy. I blushed. My heart went faster. That was time, I confessed that i liked him. It was truly a beautiful moment for me, and i hope that for him too. He said he liked me too. Can you believe that? Then... Our first kiss. I saved it and i was so happy, he was so happy. At first i thought i did something wrong cause he panicked and stuff. But he was so cute, he covered his mouth with his hand and I was on cloud nine at the time. My heart fluttering, and he asked if that means he's now my boyfriend. Oh god. I couldn't care less about my real world at that point. Eating? Drinking? I couldn't do that... but i had Cove now, so i felt better, a lot. I could forget about all the bad things that happened before i met him, and just be there, with Cove. He truly made me feel happy. 18 hours in, i couldn't keep going, or i wont have all my focus on him. I went to sleep and that was the end of 28th of february. When i fell asleep, I still felt like i was there, I dreamed about Cove, about my life in that town, about the events that weren't shown and about the things that still awaited. But mostly, I was thinking about Cove. I would never guess that that little boy, crying on the hill, would mean so much to me over the time. And i had even less of an idea how much this feeling would change even more. 1st of march. I woke up from my chair, moved my mouse a little so my monitor would light up again. Warm music, that i got to know every note of now, welcomed me, as i got back into the scenes, like i never really left them. I had a bit less energy that day, going deeper into hunger, but i didn't really felt it. It didn't stopped me from spending the next 11 hours of me being waked up in that cute little world that i desired to much to be reality. It was 3 am again and i couldn't wait to see Cove after what felt like so much time apart. Part 3 huh? I hoped it would be longer, seeing as there were only 4 parts, but not focusing too much on that. My feelings? I clicked on love... I was sure i love Cove, that boy i met on the poppy hill, and which whom i spent so much time together, just doing whatever really. I could do anything, just to spend with him atleast a little bit more time. Thought i didn't change the relaxed stance to direct. It was still too fast. Somehow i never really used the indifferent option, I just kind of always liked Cove. At first as a friend, then as a crush... now we were 18, right? 10 years has passed. I didn't change him at all this time too, i want him to be who he wants to. Again, as the story started like it had before 2 times now, i felt robbed of my time with him. I would love for just a glimpse of those past 5 years we just skipped through like that. W-well, does that mean that he's now my boyfriend? Surely right? Omg. That's basically what i felt like. And then seeing him actually grown up, changed. Like always, i was shocked at first a bit, but i could clearly see that it's still my Cove. With the same dreamy eyes, and the same cheeky smile. Still wearing glasses and his pretty hair. Basically every chance i got, i choose to do the most. Now i could kiss him, why woudln't I? He's my boyfriend, and i was so happy. It still feels unreal that we got together. I coudln't be happier to kiss him while everybody watched, and to hold his hand all the time, and if i could i would scream to the whole town that he's my boyfriend and i love him so much and i wanted to show everybody just how much i do. Oh, there was also that thing, you can choose how much romantical Cove would be interacting with you on his own. I put it on middle, since i still was new to us dating and stuff obviously. I didn't look back on it after that, it felt like a good decision. I know he's still a bit shy, no wonder, he didn't even want us to sleep in one bed. That was really cute and i felt special, but still a bit dissapointed. At this time, i was really bad off, but i felt okay knowing i have Cove with me. There were honestly so much things we did, i can't recall it all. Of course i bought the dlc to part 3, i loved Cove, there's no way im not gonna buy it. At first, looking at the part 3 menu i thought there were going to be more, but apparently those stories on the second page were for Baxter. Yeah Baxter is my good friend, he's a little bit weird and all, i don't really know if he tried to hit on us or no, but Cove doesn't really like him, and i think it's cute that he's jealous. Cove also doesn't really get social cues, so he mostly doesn't think other people flirt with him, or he truly is oblivious, but I'm glad he knows when i do, and he's happy then. My Cove... I thought my heart was gonna explode when he called me his boyfriend. And so defensivly too, so sure of it, without one grain of shaking. Purely, how he'd feel in his heart. I'm glad i met Cove. I truly am. Even if he isn't real, he made me feel special in this horrible time of my life. 'Cove', he really filled that hole that was in me with his gentle breeze, waves carefully crashing against the shore. Sometimes i feel like he was the one who found me on that hill, not me. He helped me so much. I always went for the option to kiss him, cause there always wasn't enough ways to show him my love, only to miss out on hugging and cuddling, and wholesome moments. But i was sincerely happy at his reactions and how he was happy too, later to know that he still doesn't believe he deserves all this. To be fair, that's sad, but also true. He deserves so much more that i wish i could've given him, at every occassion. He was the one who was constantly searching on the internet how to make somebody happy, while it should've been me. For the whole time we knew eachother, i wanted to make him happy, that was my goal at the start, with different intentions, that being pity and feeling bad for that little boy, to now, where i want to do everything that's in my might to make him the happiest man ever alive. I care deeply about Cove,
and that may seem stupid, but he cared about me too. That may sound dumb but it's true that he was the one who was with me when i was at my lowest. No one even bothered to check up on me, no one cared. He was the one to say that i'm actually worth something, someone. That i'm a wonderful person, even if i think i'm not but im trying so hard to be. He held my hand, he wiped my tears, he hugged me when i needed it the most, he held me, and most important of all, he was there with me. He was there, when no one else was. Maybe in reality im still on that hill, but in spirits, I'm someone with whom im happy with, someone who was also on that hill, all alone and crying to his heart content. Feeling like his world was gonna end, like there wasn't anything more. He showed me, that there is a whole wide world for me still, waiting. Even when i was scared to go there, in the open, he took my hand and went with me. He showed me that everything can change, and even if you think it's for the worst, it may turn into the best. That life is beautiful. He showed me the beach, that isn't that far, and not that out of reach, he showed me that hill, that mayed seemed sad and lonely, but really is painted full of little flowers that bend on the wind. He showed me life, that i never had, and life that i could have, and everything in between. He grabbed my hand and we went wherever we wanted to. It didn't had to be perfect, and i wasn't scared or nervous becouse i was with him. And I couldn't be more happy to be there, and to hold his hand through all of this. He means a lot to me, and even if i never get to be in a relationship like that, I'll never forget this one, becouse it was a relationship too. I learned so much and it helped me to look a bit different at the world that im actually in. Even if it was just for a while, and even if i got this game just to distract me, not even knowing what it is about. I'm glad i did. Hah, there was that one episode, where we went to that huge marketplace out in the open with the Holdens. They wanted to turn into groups and i remember that i was so mad it was another episode where i couldn't just be with Cove all the time. I remember i objected, and when everybody was saying that Cove was clingy i was defending him and to be honest, i think i was the most clingiest one out of us two. Sadly we couldn't be in one group when there was an option, i said i didn't like this outing at all, only for my moms to plan something stupid and totally unexpected and left us kids alone. At the first chance i could i messaged Cove like some desperate little kid, but he showed up, and quite urgently too. Not before i got fudge for him of course. I couldn't care less about myself and everything i bought or did, i did with only him in mind. Fudge i got him was peanut butter one, milk chocolate, caramel i think and i can't remember the last one. I was going off his teenage sandwich vibes. It was so nice when later in the day he actually commented on every flavor i got him, i totally didn't expect this too. Well, when he camed we were just going around the stails together, hand in hand. He stopped at that homemade honey and jam one. He said which ones he wanted, and i actually bought them, just in case, along with some things i wanted myself. He bought his own but i really didn't think at the time to not buy those for him. I hoped there would be an interaction about it too, but oh well. I even tried to take him on piggyback, but he declined looking at out height difference, I got kinda upset at that, but he said that he sees what im trying to do, and that my height is okay and i shouldn't feel bad about it. That's the Cove i fell for. Atleast i could carry his bags for him, so i was happy about that, and he was thankful too. At the end of the day it turned out that even mr. Holden didn't knew about my moms plan, and i was kinda upset. Why doing that when they pretended to have different plans and such? But at the end of the day, Cove actually bought me a present too. Some homemade lemonade. We sat in the car, and started eating the treats we got for eachother. I really didn't expect him to get me something, I didn't mind if i was the only one giving him things. Now i think i know how he felt when we went for those 3 dates day after day randomly. It was night and he messaged me, it was nice that i could finally see what it looked like between us. Him sending smiley faces and hearts... Well, he wanted to 'surprise' me with a date. I could choose the location, and of course i chose aquarium, just for Cove. He came to grab me, with present in hand, and we went to the sea world. Seeing all that and giggling to himself, he surely wished he was a merman back then, so he could just hop in and live with various fish on the other side of the glass. I was happy we got to be there. He even tried to flirt with me, I'm so lucky, aren't I? That guy, wanting to flirt with me out of all the people in the world. It went really fast and I was like what???? it's over??? Like always pulling all my hope that the episode wont end just yet. The real surprise was when Cove announced that he's gonna take me to all of those places, with another gift in hand - ukulele bag? I don't even have an ukulele???????????????????????????? What????????? I thought maybe it's becouse of what i put in my room, while having the option to customize it, but it was a guitar. And maybe it was becouse of what i told Kyra? But i didn't told her i was playing on ukulele, but another instrument. Well, interesting gift indeed. The next date was actually to a theater, for a live play. While in car (i love that he's drawn there) I asked him what he wants to watch, he said romance. Isn't that cute? That's what i was hoping to go for too, but i wanted to be sure he would be comfortable with it. We hold hands and everything, then after he actually told me that he was imagining us in the roles of played lovers. And then he reminiscenced about how he didn't want to be in another world without me, and that it was only exciting because he thought of being there with me. I'm sure that in whatever world we might have ended up, we would find eachother anyway, just like we found each other on that hill that memorable night. Just as i found this game and installed it without giving it another thought. I was sure of it. Then another day passed, and he came in through the window, classic. This time the gift has been matching mugs, and for some reason he felt the need to bring his one to me too, maybe just to showcase how they were mirroring each other too? I don't even know how he climbed through with glass in hand, but that was impressive nonetheless. I was just glad that he was alright. And the last date of course, ice skating? totally unexpected, like he didn't tell me that over the phone. But still, unexpected, Cove and cold? Alright, i want to see it. I got extra layers in my backpack of course, only becouse i was thinking that Cove might need it, and he did need it of course, having to be Cove and hating layers. Still, it was cold obviously, how else would there be ice? When we got there i was hoping that i could maybe offer him my clothing, but i coudln't so that was bummer. Still we could warm each other with our bodies so it wasn't that bad. I teached him how to ice skate, and i was kinda upset that i couldn't see it more. Seeing Cove like this, doing something totally new that he's not used to. Interesting, but i think i prefer his joy at the aquarium out of all the dates. Then his dad told me about the searching and stuff. I got worried, but i went there and talked to him thoroughly. We ended up making somehow. We holded each other and went to his bedroom, and he closed the door with his foot, not letting go. I pushed him into his bed the moment i had the chance. One of my favorite moments too. To be honest, i yearned for him, or any chance that i could show him how much he really means to me, how much i love him and what i would give to him. After kissing and nibbling, he took the lead and now i was under him, blushed. Every time there was an action like this in game i was shaking and wholly red. I got to be in bed with the person who i really appreciated and who was everything for me at the time. I couldn't be happier. Sadly, it wasn't too long. When Cove switched positions, he panicked, and we got back down, getting his dad, as he waited outside. Or when one night Cove snucked into my room again, like always, wanting to show me something. It was a firefly in his hand. How did he climbed here with a living firefly? I don't care, I'm just glad he camed. We used to always catch those when they appeared. Even when he was small and had that pink cast on his arm. He couldn't catch them properly, so i helped him the best i could, and we caught one together. His first firefly. When we were older we were catching them too, and every time they would come out, we would too. So when he came to me with that little glowing bug on his hand, it felt truly special. Like he had caught that little guy, and the first thing he could think of was showing it to me. I knew what i was feeling then - that i love this guy. I love Cove. A lot. And i told him. He said it back and i was so happy. We kissed, we touched, at that point, i was content. I looked back at my world and i was ready to die. I felt like it was okay to, at this point. Like it was kind of calming, and that i wouldn't mind if it ended like this, that i would be glad and that everything is okay. Now that im thinking about it and looking back, it was scary how calm i was about it. Even though im sure deep inside, i wasn't fully okay with that. After those calming moments, in which i felt like i might slipped away any second now, i thought i had to do something and i actually grabbed something to drink. Full glass of juice.That was an actually great start, considering, that i wouldn't drink anything at all and just cry alone in the corner. I still didn't ate, because how could i? But that was a good start anyway, and i was proud of myself. I also knew, that if Cove was there, he would be proud of me too. Worried mostly, but proud. How couldn't he be? When i found out that he hasn't eaten all day yet I instantly springed with an idea to do sandwiches. Anything i really did, I did while thinking of Cove. I love Cove. The way he cleans his hands on his pants. Everything about him, even if at the start i thought it was weird, or if i didn't liked it. I could never think of Cove as weird, and there wasn't anything i didn't like about him now. I was with him when he found his new job, althrough wasn't thrilled by it, he noticed. He said that he just wanted me to be there, but knew we wouldn't had too much time to interact becouse of his work, and i totally got that i tried to not make him worry. In the end it was alright and we went on a little grocery trip. I got asparagus for my moms and every pepper possible, with Cove helping of course. Then while near register, he reminded himself of fruits for his breakfast. Of course i went with him, I don't care what other people think of me. I only cared what he thinks. We picked some blueberries, and he was beaming with joy. Infectious, if i may add. Then, even if he was tired from a whole day of work, he got an idea to go to that little fastfood place near. We went, he ordered one of every sweet he could, trying to be a little spontanous like his mom, and i got just some spicy chicken sandwich and milkshake too. He stole my order for sure, but what can i say. He was drawn so lovely, sipping and enjoying himself. Out of all the sweets he had in that moment, for me, he was the sweetest of them all, even if i didn't had sweets, that wouldn't change anyway. Yeah, i was gone in those eyes. I didn't even had to be near water to drown in them, cuddled by the warm, silent waves. But back to the topic, there was one crazy option. And i was like, bet. I got some of his ice cream or milkshake or whatever he had on my finger, and pulled it to him. He got really shocked at first, and i thought it would be just some funny teasing, but he actually wanted to do it. He leaned over, his lips around my finger, and like it wasn't enough, he asked if it was good... Yeah my spirit dissapeared and now is working for rent as a ghost of christmas past. Even now as im writing this, im blushing like crazy. WHO IS THIS GUY WHY IS HE LIKE THIS?! oh my lord. Anyway, he later panicked and actually got his senses back WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT COVE that was so hot to be honest. I rarely saw him like that becouse we knew each other as children, but with time, it kinda changed. Especially since he told be about his sexuality. Battling with my own, i felt proud of him, that he knew what he was, and he wasn't ashamed of it. I told him long ago about mine too, and he accepted me with open arms. I also asked him, since he's demisexual, if he feels that kind of feelings to me... and guess what. Cloud nine again. There's no way that this guy actually makes me feel so happy. Every occassion, no matter where no matter what, i would always kiss him. On the lips. I love him. And he was mine. He literally one time called himself mine... I melted, of course every moment like that would be saved in the save menu, even if i long time ago used every space. I had to be really tactical about it, saving only the best moments. BUT THERE WERE SO MUCH. I ended up saving even those that didn't looked that important. Like Cove saying my name, or saying goodnight, or good morning. Well, those were important to me, and those made me happy, so they got to stay, no matter what. Later in the story i didn't cared that much about family as in part 1 or part 2. I was mostly focusing on Cove, though some parts with family also got to stay in that saves pile. Especially one, with my moms saying that they were proud of me. It put a smile to my face. Not as much as with Cove, because we had smaller connection, but still. There was this one day, when Cove wanted to go jet skiing, and he actually ended up telling me everything about how he got that pink cast and his cool scar doing that. I asked if i can touch it and i kissed it, he was so cute, i was so happy that he enjoyed it and then he kissed me too. Well, we went jet skiing, not yet but to the place atleast. I actually got to see where Cove's dad worked. Pretty place, and i was always happy to see Cliff. I loved that guy when i got to know him better. Oh this day, it was wild. Cove was actually thinking that he was the reason for his parents divorce, that was horrible to hear, but he went to talk to his dad about this. Then he called his mom, then dad again, then mom again. I was there all the time, for emotional support of course, but i kinda felt like i was being dragged along and that i again couldn't do much. I knew it was between Cove and his parents, but i wished that i could do something more still. At the end of the day, Cove got to know how his parent really feel, what they did for him when he was small, and what went wrong with their relationship. Cove actually could explain a lot of things with his dad, that he didn't have the best relationship with those past years. I think it was the first spark for him to be his dad's boy. I didn't minded, I was happy. I loved Cliff like he was my own dad and Kyra too. In the end i somehow got into the hug too. Well i was just glad that this stressing day came to an end and that everything went fine. Also that Cove could learn new things about himself and his family which with he had so much trouble to understand before. Then we went to jet ski, for real now, and without bad thoughts and issues. I think that was a day that was needed, not really melling down problems, but actually trying to unravel them, step by step. I'm happy that Cove has such loving parents, even jealous a little i would say. I always admired Holdens, even with issues they somehow overcome them and were just loving and caring to each other. Even if Cove didn't saw that at first, or he just didn't want to. There was also that day when there was my turn to climb through my boyfriend's window. It was exciting and i couldn't wait to see him, as it was my turn. Well so, i barely fit through the window, his fish there. OH i also named one of his fishes 'Cove'. The small fast one if i remember correctly. Well, i got there and he was sleeping and I was smiling all the time. I woke him up and he was so shocked, he's not the only one that can make surprises. We kissed and stuff and snuggled and hugged and I love when theres an option to touch his thigh so much. I need this. I even touched him like that on our little date to the ORCA official event. That was nice. We danced for the first time together. I could've stayed like this and went to heaven, again of course. I love this guy. All the time i was playing there was a smile and me bashfully trying to hide my red face, even if nobody was watching to be fair. Well, when i got into Cove's bed, we felt asleep like this. I was so happy that we could be finally in a bed together. There was a time when we tried, Cove took me to his mom's place for a night. I was hoping we would both sleep on his bed, he tried, but in the end he couldn't and i was really dissapointed. He said later that it was to hot for him and stuff and that was kinda nice to know though. Very cute. If i were there i would go on the floor with him just so he wouldn't be alone. Or maybe that would be too much for him too. Sorry. It's fine to need some space from time to time, Cove needed a lot of time, but i was so excited to tell him how i feel every time there was an option. And i would giggle and jump around when i would click one. Also there were new characters and Derek was kinda gone, which was sad. There were Miranda and Terry and to be fair i couldn't care less at first. I was even kinda mad, and jealous at them, they were so friendly to that closed off boy that wouldn't let anybody that near him. I guess he really did grow, as he enjoyed their company too. I couldn't do much than accept it. Though i didnt like them. And then there was this crepe stand and we got to order. Miranda and Terry started sharing, and i asked Cove if he wanted too, and it was a cute moment, BUT THEN EVERYONE STARTED SHARING. And what do you mean Cove got to bite others people crepes and other people bit Cove's? That's so mean i didn't like that one bit. Then Baxter came by, and i was kinda glad, because Cove didn't like Baxter that much as i with apparently our new friends, but I didn't really knew Baxter that much then, now i love him and he's a good friend actually, maybe it's because he kinda grew. Well, we then all went to the parking lot and others said that they wanted to go to some park, and Cove said that he can drive those who don't to their houses. I went with Cove of course, wanting to have some time with him alone. He said he was shocked that I didn't want to go, and i said something like he shouldn't force himself too, sadly we didn't go together, and just went inside our houses. Then the group messaged that there were gonna be fireworks so we went back after some rest. And there were, for some private party, but you can't really hide something that's in the sky. I went with Cove and i got kinda nervous about them, and how loud they were. Cove was there for me, covering my ears. We sat together, and from not that good of a day, it was actually fine, because i got to be with him in the end. About Terry and Miranda. They got into some conflict the other day, Cove got really worried about it, and i was kinda whatever because it was between them and i'm reminding that i don't really care about them. Cove's upset at this whole thing, and im trying to make him better, we called Terry and stuff. We later got into an argument. I told him that we should ask Miranda about stuff and he said that if she wanted it to be a secret she would say so. I told him that he was really mean right now and that he was yelling at me. I tried to be calm, but that kinda hurted me. I get that these are his friends and i even really tried for them to be my friend too, for his sake. Well, that was pretty akward, but i didn't want him to go, truly, by heart. Even now i imagine his sad face. I love him. It's hard to just see him walk away. So im glad he didn't. He actually said sorry,
and even if it was kinda stressing and not that good of an experience, real couples have those times and it's okay. It made me feel like we're kinda developing, together. At the end everything went fine and Miranda and Terry made up. Everybody made up, so i guess that's a happy ending. I forgot to say that Cove said his favorite colors at the fireworks show. It's blue, green and yellow. Just like the colors of options, and just like the colors of the beach, and the landscape of our poppy hill! But people can't own hills. Well, maybe we could. Remember when i said that we slept together actually in one bed? In Cove's house? Man i was so happy. Actually in the morning, his dad came in. AND SAW US LIKE THIS. That was so akward but i was also kinda happy too. Next step in our relationship? His dad started talking about kids and stuff. Yeah, sadly that's not in the game, but it totally should be a 'M' dlc. I would buy it instantly. Sadly I could only imagine those things with Cove, mostly in my dreams, but i was happy nonetheless. I kinda felt bad sometimes with that, I wasn't sure if Cove was okay with it and if he was uncomfortable. He's also so pure, i don't want to hurt him in any way, and doing things that were clearly M rated with him felt bad. I wanted to do it, but his opinion was as valid. For i think the whole story, with maybe one exception, i thought of our kisses as pecks. I was happy anyway, i just wanted to kiss him, and that isn't any less of a kiss than other ones. Especially if he's comfortable with it and wants it. I don't want it any other way. I'm actually looking forward to sleeping, just to imagine him one more night, it doesn't have to be anything vulgar. I don't mind us just holding hands and maybe lying on that poppy hill of ours. That would we all i wanted. That poppy hill... I was the happiest man when we went there together. We talked about a lot of things, about our feelings, we would sit there until dawn. I had to get this out. I crouched on one knee, and grabbed one of his favorite flowers, white poppy from that hill. I wanted to marry him - the man of my dreams. Maybe at first, or to any other person, he wasn't perfect, he was flawed, and maybe a little bit weird, but not to me in that moment. In that moment, he was all i ever wanted. I felt full with him. He was perfect to me, and nothing could change it. It wasn't even a beat when he answered. Not hasitating one bit. That man... He covered his face and cried. I cried too. On our poppy hill, we just layed together, cuddled into each other. I wish i could stay there forever, with my now fiance. I'm still kind of tearing up while im typing this. I totally didn't expect that i could do it, right then, right there. I thought maybe it was too fast, since Cove needed a lot of time for those kind of things. But no. He answered instantly, like he was waiting for so long. We fell asleep on the hill, covered by rays of sunshine as sun settled into the sky. My dreams, i couldn't believe it. I waked up, sun far into the sky. Looked to my side, and there was another, even brighter and lovlier star that ever could have existed. He was beautiful, holding that one white poppy. I was mesmerised. - Are we... still engaged?- He said to me, with that dreamy gaze, i felt whole, i wanted to toss myself at him. He was perfect in every way, i loved him so much and i still do. At the time i was truly the happiest man on earth, i was so lucky to find him there, and he found me too. We started running down the hill to share the news, that Cove James Holden was now my fiance, and i was his............................................. And then the screen fade away. There was music, with actual words, and the credits rolled................................ I couldn't move, yet i was shaking. I started hyper ventilating, my heart felt like it could have stopped any time now. Tears running down my cheeks. It couldn't end just yet, right? Just like Cove always did, i wanted to stay there more, i didn't want to go home yet. I wished i could stay there forever, with my fiance, on that hill. I felt like i was going to get a heart attack truly, it was one of the worst feelings in my life. It felt like my whole world just stopped, and dissapeared before my eyes. I wonder if that's how Cove felt the first day he got onto that hill. If his world faded away, was there a new one that got built in it's place? Could i do that too? Could i go out and build a brand new world not looking anymore at the old? I didn't thought that before, those are my thoughts from now. Back then i was simply horrified. I didn't know what to do with myself. I just panicked. Little did i knew, it was actually okay, because i totally forgot about part 4. My present self totally forgot that there was also a break from 1th of march to the 2nd of march, where i would play 12 hours. Alright it was around that time of 2nd march still, because oh god i was scared. But here we are, part 4. I thought it would also be like the parts before, with episodes and stuff but apparently no, which shocked me again with sudden end but before that. Sooooo 23 year old Cove hm? Alright. As I was more confident in my true honest feelings, atlast i actually put the affection meter to direct and love. I was feeling i was ready, and that we went through a lot with Cove to be okay at this point. I could customise my character as always again, there were more options, and i chose to give myself some tattoos. Nothing big, mainly staying true to the versions before, only more matured. Of course when there were options near mirror to change my body or how it looked liked i used it for good. Making me feel better, but also not too crazy, I was sure that Cove would love me no matter what at this point. I even asked him what he thinks about my body and it all went good. He really changed everything. I remember how sad i was when it all started, with him, sad too. Now we both were happy, and we both had eachother. Back to the track, i could of course customize Cove. No. It was common to me at this point to skip that part, I want Cove to be who he wants to. I knew i would love him no matter what. And there we go. Apparently we're not driving together to our childhood town? That was sad. I didn't really catched if we lived together or not. I was really tired at that time okay. Well, anyway that was kinda weird after how i made such a big deal with how i ran away from our families diner in that chinese restaurant 5 years ago. About how i was sad that Cove was finding an apartament and that i would be alone, not seeing him. He found me in my moms car. He just sat there, i didn't even notice him. I hit him with the door. I was crying there but he sat with me and actually really comforted me. I was seriously sad about that thought. Maybe i wasn't trully crying, but there was this empty feeling inside me, and anyway, it would be hard to cry drinking so little for couple of days. He told me that he doesn't have to, that he don't want to leave me and if we want, we can live together. Even selling pretzels in the shopping district. We could just stay here and nothing would have to change. It was nice to think about, and we made jokes about those pretzels and stuff. Then we kissed, and we tried to cling to each other, but his legs were to long, and he couldn't really comfortably fit. It was fine, i was feeling a lot better thanks to him, again. Like always, he could change my mood with just appearing and i would still be happy that he's here, with me. So, in part 4, My taxi stopped by our houses, I look over, and who it is. Cove? He looked so different. I almost didn't recognize him. His hair was short, he had earrings, no glasses, and the shirt he wore covered so little. He got so tall and his abs and all. No way that's him right? Those 5 years felt like way too long, without anything in middle. I had totally no idea what to expect now, from anything to be fair. He also gained so much confidence, and i was proud of him, but it still felt kinda weird - seeing him so different, acting different. I looked into his eyes and they were the same, just without the big frames of his glasses. He climbed into my taxi through a window, like he always did with windows. I was shocked though, and kinda speechless. Maybe even a little bit scared, since i didn't really know what was gonna happen now. Well, he got in, halfway atleast and we kissed, it was still my Cove and i was very happy to see him after thinking we would never see eachother again. With the first options i choose the intimidacy scale to be at max of course, i want everything out of those last moments with him. I also chose that we would be engaged but not married yet, eyeing that little dlc on the road. Well, he wiggled out of the car and we finally met properly. I tossed myself at him, not wanting to be apart again. I kinda doze off there. We were invited to my moms anniversary, but first and formost we went to the Holdens residency (yay). I COULD CALL CLIFF MY DAD. Yes. Also at this point his relation with his son improved gradually. It was now way better then when Cove was younger. I was happy for that. Oh by the way when we were still 18 and not engaged yet, we had a picnic at the beach. We even played some beach volleyball, but sadly no medals there. There was also Baxter, which whom we invited, but then he dissapeared and we never seen him again. Just to clarify. Also, Kyra was there too, and i wanted to call her my mom too, truly. Well, we got there, and we hugged and stuff, but then they noticed what i had called them. They couldn't be happier, especially Cliff. He would give his right arm for his son, he loved him so much, and now he got a second son too, heh. Even though we always felt like family anyway, it was nice to finally showcase those feelings to them. There were some tears, and Cove's dad said jokingly that I'm now officialy their son. That was so heartwarming. Then we got to my house and it turned out that my moms were going out to brunch before that anniversary dinner, so we got to hang around with Cove in out old beloved town. It was still kinda weird seeing Cove so different. Crazy how 5 years can change a person, but then he smiled, and it was the same goofy, scary at first grin that i felt in love with. By then i knew it was my Cove, and even if i had to get used to it, it was okay. As i said, it didn't matter to me what he wanted to wear and how he would ever looked like, I was just happy i could be with him, no matter what. We of course went to the beach and all of our spots. Meeting with people and stuff. Then the dinner, it was great. I was really happy for my moms, even if my feelings werent that strong for them as for others. It was kinda dissapointing that it went by so fast, but it was nice seeing Cove in some formal wear, and my dad - Cliff too. I was so happy for them. After all those years they could finally be happy with eachother, with care and understanding. After everything, we had time for each other. We were once again on the beach. Cove took all of his clothes off, being only in his underwear, and he went to swim in that cool, swaying and glistening against the moonlight sea. I went after him, and we would go back home like that. Leaving wet steps as we went, up the street that we always would go. Later we went back to our hotel room, which had one bed, that was nice. We slept together and kissed and stuff, and i could actually wake up seeing him. We then drove together back to our neighborhood once again, and it stopped. I was way more prepared this time, knowing that i have still the wedding in my way. Bought it instantly of course. I went to sleep first, and i got some more to drink to not pass away. My dreams about Cove, as always, and a smile on my face. 3rd of march. Today. 2 am. Me, Cove, and our wedding. I was so excited i was giggling and squeeking and stuff. I was so happy i was gonna be married to this guy. Unreal, i know. But still, without even saying that it was my first wedding that i was attending, and that i knew absolutely nothing about wedding and stuff related to it. Alright, i was still kinda off, about how there weren't episodes and about Cove looking totally different, but at this point i think i was getting atleast a little used to it i think... Anyway, i got to plan my wedding, with who but my soon to be groom, sweet Cove. He was as excited as i was, maybe i was a little bit more. I think he was also nervous a lot. I hoped it would have eased, because i love my fiance so much, and i want to have fun planning with him too. And our wedding manager............. it was Baxter. No way right? I was so happy to see him again. Cove still kinda akward, but i was glad nonetheless. I would love to have my wedding be managed by someone i already know and that i knew is proffessional. There were so much talking and preparing and options. Cove was really stressed about everything so i thought that a good first option was to choose the cake. He was already quite excited about future cake, so i hoped that would ease some of his nerves. So we went there, crazy name, Xavier selling cakes at a place named Xake... Alright well. There were so much stuff that Cove eyed already while waiting for a person to assist. Alright, so later we got this huge tray of all the samplings, and we of course tried everything. I wanted the cake to be beach themed for my beautiful fiance right. Then the color, i wanted the whole wedding to be in theme of blue, so i wanted something different this time. Since it was beach themed, i imagined it would have a lot of accessories on it, and a lot of stuff, so i actually thought about white, but with pink elements. Why pink? Cove's cast was pink when we first met, and he thought that this color brings happiness. Well, i couldn't be happier to have our wedding so we have to have atleast a little bit of pink right? The taste? The flavor? I thought about it for some time to be honest. I wanted something that Cove would love. Oh and the cake will be 4-tiered one. I wanted something lemon for sure. I'm actually shocked that it wasn't told before how Cove actually smells like. It made me very happy and immersed when i got to know that. I didn't know what the buttercream could be, but i for sure knew that i wanted some mixed berries perserves inside, becouse Cove loves jams and such, and berries of course. Then there was an option to let him choose. Oh also, while tasting the samples, we got to feed eachother! Okay so i clicked that he should choose, like always. I really cared about his opinion. And what did he say????? The things i would've. At first it was honestly so weird, because, what? How did he knew what i wanted. But when I was saying about the cake being lemon, it wasn't only because of his smell. Remember when he bought me lemonade and i bought him fudge? Oh i totally forgot, i got some lemonade when we were out for a dinner with Kyra. Maybe that's why he bought me that other one later. Oh and the buttercream would be strawberry. That's what he wanted. We got also another mix, the cake would be 4-tiered anyway. So i don't really remember what i put, i went with what i wanted to eat at the time. I remember actually, lemon buttercream, the cake would be marbled chocolate and vanilla, and inside there would be peaches. And we got pretzels too. There was way too much stuff in the preparations to talk about all of them (we got pearls on the cake too with some other stuff). It was fun when we were together to pick eachothers suits, with Cove's dad as a best man of course, i was more than happy that he was there. So, Cove went with the assistant. I let him choose whatever he wanted, only taking in control where i had to make a decision. He looked. He looked like never before. Tears in my eyes as i saw my soon to be husband there, in front of me. His beauty maybe only matched to that moment when we would wake up engaged on that poppy hill. He asked for poppy flowers brouche on his suit. He was so cute, so handsome. Yeah, Cove's dad would have to hold me back if this was real. Then it was my turn. I got to choose stuff, but i was kinda dissapointed that i couldn't even see my choices come to life. I get that they wont draw every possible body, but a suit is a suit. I didn't had to be on me, i just wanted to see if everything looked as i've imagined it. Oh, i totally wore an anklet. Cove started crying, and i was so happy i will be together with him forever. We would get married on that same poppy hill we met, and the same one we got engaged on. The same one we would catch fireflies together, the same one we would roll off, the same one we would just sit and watch stars, and be there for eachother. Then the second part of the wedding. I was thinking between the beach and the aquarium, becouse Cove really loved that place. I decided upon beach. I think it meant more meaning, to us both really. His vows were the most beautiful in the world. I cried, and im not even ashamed of it. The man that i loved so dearly, telling what he truly felt, straight from his heart. Then there were my vows. I was satisfied with the options, clicking them all anyway, not leaving even one left. I love Cove and i wanted him to know it all, even more if that would be possible. He hold the bouquet made of white poppies and lilies of the valley, though i couldn't fit it in, i just used the other name. And then only those words mattered: I do. And then - you may now kiss. That was the only time i imagined us actually kissing fully, not only just a peck, it was full of passion. We held each other so none of us would actually faint. I was the happiest man back there. I could've stayed like that forever. We got to merge sand, and then there was confetti. We went to the beach, and we danced. Cove looked so beautifully. We had our first dance. Then we greeted everybody, Cove got some of those cold apetizers, almost wiped his hands on his pants, but he took a hold of himself. It was our special day. Now we were husbands, and i still couldn't believe it. We danced with eachothers parents. There were tears and stuff. Then the speeches. I loved ma's one and Cliff's too - dad's one. Of course i made all of them say a speech, no one is safe. I was happy with Liz as my best woman, she was there through it all and saw the whole journey i made with Cove. Even if she kind of teased him from time to time. It was a beautiful wedding, with my beautiful husband, and our family, and friends. I hugged them all, i told them that i love them. Oh and Derek was there too! he was in my wedding party. Even Miranda and Terry got a hug out of me. It truly was the end huh? It's okay, i can only imagine what happened next. We danced one last time, I told Cove that i had an anklet today... We were also talking about kids, and i couldn't be happier. I know if we ever get to adopt, we would be the best dads. Better than Cliff for sure, even though he's great as he is. Well, everyone was there, maybe some faces missing, but all that we really cared about showed up. By the way Cliff caught the bouquete. Then I kissed Cove one last time. I love you. And then the flowers flew once again, signaling an end to this beautiful journey. An end to Our Life. I'm honestly so glad i got to made that trip, with everyone, not only Cove, but im mostly glad for meeting him.
Thank you, sincerely, with all my heart. I couldn't imagine a better life. I was kinda thinking of gatekeeping this game out of being jealous about Cove... yeah. But now that i'm thinking about this, I think people should know. Cove gave me so much strenght, he made me feel like i was worth something. He made me feel special. He truly was there for me, when as i said, nobody who's real was. I'm so glad that instead of being all alone, I could've been with him, with a person i love - not instantly, but one that i caught on feeling for slowly, while getting to really know him. I'm so happy that i met him, I'm so happy that i was a part of his life, and that he is now a part of mine. At first i was scared when it all ended, but now it's okay, i understand. Nothing can really last forever, it had to end. Now that he found me on that poppy hill crying, and wiped my tears, I am ready now. I'm ready to start my own life. And someday i will start our life, with someone that will be for me then. I really thought that it was all over, that my world would dissapear as his did, but now i know that it's actually good. It's a chance for something new, and something better. I'm so glad i got to spend that time with Cove. Thank you, all. I hope anybody else that needs it, will find this game and with it, that boy on a hill too. 50 hours of playtime, and somewhere around 6 of typing this. Thank you, for everything. I couldn't be happier. Now I kinda want to eat some peaches myself, and i'll probably do.
I love this game, very sad to see that the steam versions of the dlcs don't come w/the Android version but nonetheless a beautiful game with many lovely moments.
I really like that N&F has more options; we can still see how it reflects our personality. You can even be a slightly grumpy protagonist. It would be fun to have two more Our Life games for the remaining seasons (winter and spring), but I understand that this game is very complete, complex, and detailed to make, especially since you know what you're doing when you released B&A (you got right into our heads with it). Thank you for another game that's going to be amazing too; I can't wait to play this one when it's fully released.
This visual novel is not only one of the first I ever played, but it's what inspired me to make my own using Ren'Py! The story is great, the art is gorgeous, and Cove (neat name btw!) is a very precious and fantastically-written character. 10/10, will always recommend. <3
ive replayed this a few times along with the autumn one and determined i have an unhealthy obsession and will be spending my first paycheck on all the dlc's =D
Hello! I bought all dlcs in steam but I'd also love to play the dlcs in android too since I'm not in my pc all the time and I want an emotional support cove on hand lol. Do i need to buy the android dlcs seperatedly? 😿
I couldn't put it down, I wasn't expecting to get so invested in this. It's sweet and shows how awkward but rewarding relationships can be. I thought Cove and Liz were bizarre at the start only to get teary eyed about their character resolutions in act 4. So cute. Unreal.
ive bought every cove-specific dlc and played through the game roughly seven times now and i crave more. how much of cove is present in the baxter and derek dlcs? do they force you to like them or can you still just treat them as friends and go with cove? more cove...
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Sorry to hear that! I'm not sure what might be causing that quite yet, so forgive me if I try to get some more information. I take it you aren't seeing any error messages? Is the internal sound on your device turned down somehow?
no error messages and I’ve done everything I can think of, turning it off silent and just changing up the settings, its weird. My sound works on other games like this so there’s nothing wrong with the sound itself
If you've already tried a clean reinstall, then unfortunately I'm out of simple solution. I'll have to talk to our lead programmer to see is she has any ideas. Sorry about that, and thank you for your patience!
I really loved this game, I couldn't avoid by spending HOURS to see what it was coming. Sadly he is just a lovable character 😿. I would like to support but I don't have my own credit for pay. Thank you for giving me the best experience I had playing a visual novel, I hope everything goes well for you ❤️
I translated this, so forgive me if there are mistakes. I think you're trying to pay on your phone? I don't know what kind of card you're using, but both debit and credit cards should work on itch.io.
i'm sorry if this is a faq, but i have had this game for years and replayed it several times as a comfort replay because i love it so much. this past summer i transferred from my old laptop that barely worked to a macbook i got as a gift. thing is, the steam version of our life is windows only. i had all of the gameplay dlcs on the steam version, and i don't know how to transfer those dlcs to this version so i can play it on my new mac. is it possible?
Yes! As long as you have the DLC files, you can transfer them to any version you want. The DLCs should be located in the "game" folder of the larger Our Life folder. You can send them to yourself, and put them in the new "game" folder of whatever version you're using. For the Mac version specifically, the "game" folder is kind of tucked away, so you'll have to go a few folders deep to find it. If you need more help with that process, just let me know, and thank you for playing!
Helloo!! I really need help idk if it's just me but everytime I go in the app and try to play the game or even for staying a little bit it cashes idk what to do!! I've tried all i can like restarting my device and etc!! sooo if you have any advice for me i would really appreciate it!!!! (I'm on android btww)
We are unfortunately aware of some Android users having issues that we are still trying to work out. Are you getting any error messages when this happens? Have you tried changing your device's security clearances? Just want to cover a few other things first. Thank you for your patience!
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Ame la novela, fue hermosa, es de esas novelas romanticas de ensueño, en lo personal compré el dlc de la boda y otro que no recuerdo bien, pero algo que me gustaria jugar en el futuro por lo que también pagaria seria ver cuando ya tienen hijos, sería magnífico
I love this game and I want to buy all the DLCs. If I pay for a DLC, will it give me access to both Windows and apk files? Or do I have to pay separately for each version?
IM SO ATTACHED SA OUR LIFE BEGINNING AND ALWAYS BCS WDYM UNG NAME NG MC IS KAPANGALAN KO RIN???? BROOO I WAS INSTANTLY HOOKED OH MY GOD
HEARING MY NAME SA GAME TWINGES MY HEART BRO WTH LIKE EVERYTIME THEY SAY IT MY HEART FUCKING ACHES, I FELT LIKE I WAS LITERALLY EXPERIENCING THE GAME FIRSTHAND OH MY GOD
Tbh I don't really know where to start... There's a lot good things about this visual novel. Well, firstly, it's not that rushed like some of visual novels! Like, it took me around 12 hours to finish the free version and I enjoyed every single second of it... This game gave me so much comfort and I ain't lying! Tbh I didn't cry or anything even though kind of wanted to¿ BUT I kept smiling while playing this visual novel 🥰
It's not only about in-gamelove interest.. It's about life, family and friends. I felt strange and sad when I saw how our dearest people change not only in their appearance. Their lives changed as well :( Each of them had their own pathway. But we all ended up gathering together and making some new memories :)
I am now 16yo and tbh I don't really know how my life will be. I'm afraid of facing the future... Surely Im good at some school subjects and I could think about my future profession that based on them.. but I wouldnt say it's the thing I can really enjoy and do for the rest of my life. I still remember when Cove said something about this topic. That he doesn't want to follow a life plan that someone has come up with. I still think about it... Like, we all can build our lives in the way we want.. Okay, I just don't wanna upset my family by saying that I don't like studying. I guess that's because I still haven't chosen what to do with my life and what job would I really enjoy.. Maybe I just need some time and try different things, but I feel like Im running out of it :(
I'm trying to say that.. well, it was helpful for me to see how characters' lives were going
Ooh this game truly is cozy! I already miss those characters 🥺 I wish I had a life like in this novel. Imagine you live near the ocean, have the nicest friend group and a sweet family with loving parents, making new memories together every summer.. Fifteen years pass by so quickly and you still being with the guy u met on the hill when u were kids 🥺 This is very heartwarming! Okay now I want to live in that novel.
Seriously, it gave me so much joy... I really love how relationship between mc and Cove was slowly developing.. from friends to lovers 🥰 Their feelings manifested themselves gradually.. And it all grew into deep affection and the purest love. It's a little difficult to express my thoughts. Love is such a gentle thing what is shown in this visual novel. I am very glad that we were given the opportunity to feel all this comfort. Need ocean boyfriend who's names Cove Holden ASAP
OKAY THE GAME IS AMAZING!!!!! THANKS YOU SOOO MUCH DEVS 😭😭😭
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TW SPOILERS + this would be kinda personal | It was somewhere around 3 o clock, 28th of february. I woked up from falling asleep with tears on my chair. It was especially hard time for me as a ftm male, I've gotten a period since not having one for a long time, mostly becouse of my parents. They thought it was enough and called it a stop for me, which I wasn't happy for, but as a teen, only short from being adult by a couple of months, I couldn't do much. I was so sad, looking for anything that could make me feel better and accepted for who I was. I typed in chat gpt a phrase to find me a game that I could somehow identify with - wether it was in gender or sexuality. Life is hard. The ai came back at me with couple of options. I was torn between hades (though mostly becouse of gameplay) with Thanathos, and tell me why, becouse of the main character. Needing to pay for that though, I went with more down to earth game - our life. It looked like a normal romance visual novel, even if i didn't stay on the site for very long to avoid potential spoilers. Only thing that i noticed it that it had a one possible romantic option, or i thought to myself that i just didn't noticed the others and just downloaded it anyway. It didn't matter to me that much, being desperate and all for something, whatever really. I opened the game, loading screen, my thoughts went: that's what he lookes like? But it's fine, I didn't had to romance him, I could just take it as a normal chill little game, I probably won't spend that much time here anyway, Yeah if i could see my past self now... Well, whatever. I went in and started the game. If i remember there was a tutorial on the main page, but who needs a tutorial for a visual novel? Started the game anyway and got an tutorial anyway. I didn't mind that and actually paid attention weirdly, still surely knowing that it's a game, and i would probably play just for a few hours if i liked it. Then i got in. The first thing i remember was not actually seeing the face of that guy who sat near my house with head in his hands, being actually kinda scared of him at first, but still trying to be friendly. Then he offered 20 dollars. Yup, that was my soon to be dad, but at the time i was thinking about how weird and kinda creepy that was. I didn't take the money, but i thought about it for a while. It's crazy that I ended adoring this sharky gambling addict, and that he actually is one of my favorite characters of all in this game. Well, going back though, I didn't take that money. Like any small kid wouldn't take money from a random grown man by your house that you never seen before. Maybe I contemplated a little about it, but I made my mind. I wanted to play the game like it would be my little past self going through the events, and i kinda found peace in it. I never really got a good childhood, so i was really happy when i found my moms, my sister, and the whole neighboorhood was so calming. It's making me tear up a little still, it was comforting to know that my life could look like it, and even if it didn't, i could still live through like i did, even if for just a little while. When i went to the poppy hill... ah the poppy hill. But not to reminiscence, the first time i got there, i thought it was really charming place. Then there was a boy, at that said charming place. At the time i totally forgot that it was all about him - the loading screen, the download page. It all went somewhere back in my head, all i was focusing on was that my tears were no longer falling. But I looked back at my screen, and there was a boy whose tears didn't stop. He didn't saw me at first, but i stepped closer, piqued by interest as why he was here alone. At the time i didn't remembered that I was supposed to romance anybody, that it was a romance visual novel at all. I was just so emerged into the child i chose to be, and my at the time home which was everything I wanted when younger. But i saw this boy at the hill, crying, like i did not long ago too... In this dream world that had so little, yet everything... I felt bad for him. I still remember what he said: - I'm sorry, is this your hill? It's like he couldnt't even imagine that there would be ever a place for him. In this town, his new house, or even on a little hill behind them. Maybe even while thinking about his old house he thought that he wouldn't be accepted. -How can somebody own a hill? But he said he had a hill back there... now it was gone, far beyond the horizon from where he came from. His dad told me a little about him, that made me less scared about the weird adult but he was still weird nonetheless. Well, looking back at the kid, he did had a pink cast, and i wondered. Soon enough his dad came looking for him, I tried to sit with him through it. I truly didn't know what happened before this, and even if that weird adult was weird, it was his dad, and he even wanted to buy him a friend. They reunited at the end and i thought I would never see the boy or his dad again, but surprise, they're my new neighbors. At that point i totally forgot all about getting this game and just submerged myself in. I wanted to know that boy more, but only becouse of curiosity. Why was he crying there? What really happened? I had great joy being a kid again, even if only in game, trying to be truthfull to my past self as close as i could. I got to learn that his name was Cove, and he didn't really liked new people. I was happy i made a new friend, or i was hoping that i will since we didn't really knew eachother a lot. He liked my room, so i thought that he was actually nice, even if he was cold to other people and ran away a lot, or tried to, something common with his hated by then dad. I thought it was cool that he's kind of rebellious, or just different. Not clingy and naive like a lot of kids that age. Maybe if i put it into other words, he had a personality that i respected. I thought that if i were younger now it would be great to have such a friend, he was cool for an 8 year old. So as an 8 year old in the game, i wanted to know him more to be friends. My sister thought he was a bum and just overall grumpy kid. But he was complicated, upset and full of sorrows. When we got down from my room, him looking at my paintings and of course my shell collection, we got notified of another kid. Shiloh, my sisters friend, and apparently mine too. I thought he would be older, my sisters age, well i didn't know my sister's age, so i thought way older. Cove didn't liked that idea too, wanting to go out by the back window. I kinda wanted to meet this new kid too, so I pursuaded Cove to stay. And look at that, the kid was even younger than us. That didn't bothered me though, and Cove just didn't liked new people, so he would be bothered anyway. It's fine, even if they never got along to be fair, even with my sister, but she had a strong character too and one would even say she was bossy. I didn't liked that she was mean to that sad boy i met on the hill, even if others didn't see how miserable he was at the time. Back in my room, he liked one shell a lot. so when it was time to part, i took it and wanted to give it to him. Maybe it was becouse i didn't want him to dissapear and hoped that he would come back soon, even if he didn't had the greatest time in here. Maybe becouse i hoped i could do atleast something to make him less sad, and to actually smile. Or maybe both were the reasons. He didn't took it, and it made me sad that i couldn't do anything for him. No one deserves to be sad. Me from couple of days ago that just stopped crying for some random game knew that way to much, and me from right know knew as well. Atleast we said our goodbyes and the day was over. The screen changed and I was once again reminded what it all was about. Honestly i don't remember much about those parts, i know i was shocked by the sudden change of just meeting the boy to actually hanging out and being friends. I think i was kind of robbed of that, I thought it would be fun to try to bond a friendship than it actually was to just skip to it. Either way, I accepted that without much choice. I wasn't that engaged to it to really feel all that sad. It's fine, we hanged out with Lizzy and Shiloh, and i was kinda shocked to know that the park that my sister loved so was on the beach. How beach was so close and how it was a tourist town with whole bunch of condos, and how Shiloh didn't actually lived there too. I thought it was a great place, I still do. As a person i don't really care about beach and stuff, my favorite season is winter and i rarely even walk barefoot in my own house. But in the game, i felt like it's okay. I was actually really happy with it, to be even able to be near beach so often, and how pretty it could actually be. Without all the people and loud stuff, only with the waves gently pushing against sand, and the sun slowly meeting with water at the horizon. Or even the stars and the moon reflecting on the sea. I think i know now what Cove saw in it. Even if he was a little grumpy, he loves the sea, and i was glad that there actually was a thing that didn't made him sad. We played a lot with the whole bunch, we even made sandcastles. Oh, he couldn't swim back then so yeah, he asked what i liked to do on the beach and I said that. Also collecting shells of course, because of my collection that he weirdly thought was cool too. Then we made sandcastles with Cove and Shiloh some time later, and that didn't go exactly well... I didn't know wether to make a mansion or a castle, but seeing that other kids chose already, I went with Lizzy's dream place to live. I even got a little green shard of glass to put in my creation. Then Cove and Shiloh got into an argument... Of course i stayed with Cove, he was my closest friend after all and i didn't want him anymore sad than he already was. Another time, we were in my house. This time without Shiloh, but that's fine, Cove didn't liked him to be fair. I was kinda upset, becouse another friend is another friend, but oh well. Gladly, there was my sister, that i didn't really yet know at the time. Anyways, we played pretend, or atleast tried to. My impression of Lizzy wasn't very good because of it. She was way to bossy. I totally got Cove back there. Like, we're playing pretend so what do you mean we can't be who we want to? I got to be i think beach volleyball player, cus it was on the beach mainly, and shockingly (or not, by my reasoning) Cove did too. And then Liz said that we got only silver and she got gold? Yeah, my first impression on her was that she was kind of a spoiled brat. It changed of course, when i got to know her better. She still was very bossy though, especially back then. Of course i told on her, I don't think it would be fair to brush over it, and not only Cove was the victim but me too! So yeah, the call. I thought it was very cute that he said hi to me and bye, even if it was Lizzy who wanted (had to) to talk to him about this. Way later in life he even called me his hero about that. But yeah, we totally deserved gold too. It went well, and acknowleding that she's my sister, while we drove to her golf training, i tried to comfort her atleast a little with the car music. At the end of the day, I was just glad they came into an understanding, and so i saved the moment. I loved to save every moments that i especially liked in the game, and by that i think it's a SIN to give me only 240 spots to do so. I HAD TO CONSTANTLY SACRIFICE VALUABLE FOR ME MOMENTS FOR NEW ONES TO HAVE SPACE. Ehhhh... anyway it was kind of a memorial diary-album to me, and i appreciate 40 pages nontheless. At the end of the whole journey, i filled it through with my favorite moments, even if some couldn't sadly make it. Well, next we went to the shopping district. We, means me and Cove of course. His dad classically with his money, atleast it was nice that he thought about me too, becouse he gave extra to Cove just for him to buy me something too. It was a bit akward at first, i think it was the first story I got to play (but i don't really remember, all i know is that i went from left to right), so it was right after I actually met the boy for the first time. On that journey, he actually smiled, so i was content with it. We got to stop by a magician, and we got to see him perform. I was into it a lot, but Cove said that his uncle can do it too and that it's not realy magic after all. Yep, the grumpy Cove against the world, but we got balloons and they were in shapes of dolphins. Most importantly, Cove got one too. Then we went to the handmade stall, and i really liked the dolphin one, my decision somehow affected by my already owned balloon, but i still thought it was the best of them all, and to be honest i just liked it. Cove of course got it for me because his dad told him, but i was happy anyway. It was way better than 20 dollars for friendship. So i got the little dolphin that later in life hanged around my phone for everyone to see. I totally thought it was way bigger when i saw it on the stall, but that's a nice touch that i was able to put it in use and not only have it in my memories. We got hungry later, and we stopped at a pretzel stall. He got the cinnamonny sweet one and i got one with cheese. Choosing like what would i eat for real at the time. It was kinda hard to eat them with balloons, but i tied Cove's one around his hand, and he, struggling with his pink cast, tied one around mine. Looking back, I totally thought his arm was just broken, but later when i actually saw how he looked like with it off, I was shocked with how big it was. Mainly seeing it fresh in his halloween picture. Still, I'm glad that he actually likes his scar and think it makes him look tough rather than thinking it's gross or scary. Especially since he hated that cast a lot, it restricting his freedom. I was thinking about this, and it must have been really hard to do every day to day task like that, he couldn't even get it wet, so when we splashed in water later that summer, he had to be very careful. It was so sad that he couldn't swim in his beloved like nothing else ocean, but I'm glad he likes it so much, considering he didn't care for the beach when he first got in the town. When there first was an option in game to choose my feelings for him, I clicked what i really felt like, nervous and fond of. He was a good kid, but i didn't knew him even that much, i thought of him as my neighbor who happened to be the same age as me, so it was obvious we would play together, especially since there weren't other kids in the town apart of my sister, who didn't really like Cove. Couldn't imagine leaving him alone, and he was nice to me so i really felt like we were truly friends later in the summer. Going back, when we were eating our pretzels, which later turned into our backup plan for life, we started playing with our balloon dolphins. Mine was a movie star, but when Cove thought about what his be, it popped. He started crying of course, reminding me of how he's still a kid, even if with so much on his little sad head already, and even if his whole life was falling apart, he could still cry over a popped balloon. Of course i wanted to give him mine, I already had another dolphin, not in a balloon version but still. He didn't want it, he didn't want to take away mine, even if to be truthfull it wouldn't matter to me like it did to him. I would love to give him mine, so i was really sad. Again, i couldn't do anything to make that small boy from the hill stop crying. I knew it's not my place, not my duty, but i felt useless. He was my friend after all, I considered him as one. Or the time when we were walking home together, from the beach or wherever really. I told him about that dreadful 20 dollars i got offered from his dad. He cried instantly, I wanted to say that i didn't took it right of the bat, but later i got reassured that it wasn't me he's crying about. It was about his dad, that he would even do something like this. I reconsidered going back and not telling him at all, but i knew i should, felling useless once again. He had a moment with his dad moments later, and he told that little boy i didn't took the money, whatever, it wasn't about me anyway. I saved the moment where they hugged, happy that at least some things in Cove's life could be easier or better to understand. But i was truly happy when i saw that picked up by his dad, even if i hid his face from Cliff, he was smiling. Then that scary weird adult crouched and tore those 20 dollars apart. Each half for one of us. I was upset that they were never talked about later in the story. I really thought it was special. We both got one, and the tearing was one of a kind, nobody else had a piece of paper like that, except Cove, who got one exactly mirrored to mine. I was glad it all ended well, but i also knew that this boy deserved atleast one story where he was happy all the time. It was probably impossible, I couldn't image what would happen to me if my parents divorced at such a young age. Poor Cove, i want to make him atleast a little happier - that's what i thought about part 1. That's all i played in that part, i didn't got the dlc, becouse i didn't felt like it. It was just a little game i was gonna put aside later and not come back anyway. Yeah, sure. Well, it still was 28th of february and i was still playing. Probably considering how i started somewhere around 3am, the sun was already peeking out. But i don't really know exactly, since part 1 was kinda short. What was part 2? Teenage, right? Me and Cove 5 years later, at 13 years old. I got the option again, there were way more things i could customise about me too. I didn't make myself perfect, i tried to make everything as close to real past me as possible, but still only putting things i was comfortable with. I could've been a cis man, or not. Of course i didn't even thought about putting my prounouns as she/her, but i still got an option to choose if i was cis or not. I could choose how tall or short i was, how my body looked. Even if it wasn't in the character changer, somehow the makers made it so it was a part of the story. I really liked that, and i knew that no matter what i choose, even if i didn't liked my height or my body, Cove would still accept me. Yup, at that part I got to put him as my crush, and not still nervous or yet direct. It was exactly as i felt. Putting myself now into a bit older self from the past, little acned me would be delightful to have such a life as the one showed on my screen. Even if that said screen wasn't fullscreened at any point. Below the window was a google search for my favorite flowers, Lilies of the valley, which Cove asked me about. Sitting, laying on that hill full of white poppies. I would love to make him a little crown out of flowers there, since he loves them so much, but we just stayed there, together. I could stay there forever now that it's all over. I got to love that hill more and more across all my hours spent there. Well, anyway, we're teenagers now. 5 years passed and I feel totally out of the blue. Everything is so different, my moms, my sister. I go down the stairs from my room and open the door, as i got told that 'my special boy' may be there by Liz if i remember correctly. Not Liz, Elisabeth now. Well, i opened the door, and he was there, Cove. He was so cute when he was all blushed up, holding that fruit-flower bouquet his dad got for us. I took it, and somehow it ended in my hands for all day, until we met Jeremy and ate it all with Cove and Derek. Jeremy hmm? Well, there's this new kid, Derek. His and Cove's dads work together. Shiloh no longer here apparently and i got kinda dissapointed but oh well, he was kinda weird anyway. Like he helped to find money for a popsicle on one specific hot day with no Liz, but didn't want a popsicle himself? Come on, and it was kinda weird that he didn't really had his own opinions. Every time i got a chance in the options for Cove to do what he wants, I chose it. I also never customised Cove. I wanted him to be how he wants to be, wear what he wants to wear. I find it kinda funny now that i'm looking back at myself, because it's not like it really matters, but that still meant much to me. I wanted Cove to be who he wanted to be, and not who I wanted him to be. Yup, crush faze, definitly. Going back to
Derek, at first i wasn't sure about him, but now i think he's great. I also thought so pretty quickly after meeting him too, he's a good kid so no wonder, typical one you would find in some neighborhod with kids. Well, anyway, he told us that there's this new kid - Jeremy. Chills. We went to the park, that me and Cove would go so often to with Liz as kids, and ocasionally with Shiloh. There he was, green hair with a bowl cut and glasses. No wonder Derek thought he looked kinda like Cove. That boy also looked kinda upset, but later we all would find out that he is not one bit like the Cove we know. Mean, hating parents, typical teenage stuff to be fair. We tried to be friendly at first, but then he says that Cove's eyebrows are weird? Okay, first of all i thought it was just an artistic choice, and it isn't really out there that his eyebrows looked like this. Second - HE SAID COVE'S EYEBROWS WERE WEIRD. Mhm, we're gonna fight. The two other boys stopped me before anything happened, but atleast that little green bug was scared a bit by that. Later Cove actually said that he thought it was cool i did it. I totally didn't expect that to be honest, truly. Well, we ate the fruits that i was still holding for some reason, like what, i was going to beat up Jeremy with some fruits? But yeah, we ate it all. Atleast it made us feel better after that encounter. Not long after that, Liz found us and was mad that we ate them all. Others started running and I at first said that seagulls ate it, but Liz was understanding and we just said to our moms that the runaways did it. It was actually nice, just little shenanigans that we would do at teenage years. But i really started liking Cove more, to be fair there was a lot of things that happened in part 2. One that would always be was Cove getting in my room through window. He even teached me to surf, and when i didn't want to go home yet, he didn't either. I really didn't want the episodes to end. Now that im looking back, i should've bought the dlc for part 2, but i wasn't yet that engaged. It was still just a little game i used to make me feel better, but now i really liked that guy a lot. Why i liked him? We went through a lot together, and i actually got to know him. I think he's cool, and he's really nice and kind actually. He's so sweet and cute, and he gets nervous easily. He's still sad a lot of times, and wished to go back home, where he'd came from, but he's also more happy and actually smiling. He can swim, he can roll down the poppy hill. Now he would't have to stay there and be a referee, with me of course becouse i wont let him be the only one out of fun. We would do a lot of things together and i was happy with that. I wanted to do even more together but families and stuff. Every time i thought the episode was gonna end, there was a knock on my window, and a bright smile at my actual face, knowing that i won't be alone, and that he also doesn't want it to end. At first i was totally shocked that he would do that, but i'm so glad he did. The most memorable part of all that for me was definitly the RV ride. It was the last episode in that part (that was free), so i really got to know Cove good by that point, and i liked him good for sure. I also forgot to say, that at first i got kinda scared by his weird smile with teeth when we were kids, it was kinda off putting, but later, i thought that it was very Cove like, and i found it cute, but it was way later. Just saying. It's really weird that my opinion on that changed so much now that im looking at it. So yeah, the RV ride. At first, when our parents were talking about who would sleep where, i got riled up about how Cove would sleep on the ground. I said that he can take my loft and i can take floor, becouse it would still be kinda uncomfortable for me to say to share it, and anyway his parents were there too. Cliff said that it's no due and that it would be their bonding time. I also forgot to mention Kyra - Cove's mom. Yeah, he came through my window for the first time when he eavesdropped on his dad saying that his mom will come for a while through a phone. I gave him my support, but we both didn't expect that she would show up straight up the next day. I was shocked at first, didn't know if to like her or not, or what she was like at all. She was pretty for sure, and resembled her son a lot, i thought i would give her a chance. And there we went, to the restaurant, or diner (not really sure, the chinese one i think). Cove, reminding me of his younger self, was really out there, mad at the whole situation, but he said he wanted me with him there, and as his best friend at the time, i'm all to support him - especially with his family issues. Kyra actually turned out alright at first. Cove still mad so i wasn't sure if she was just friendly with me for the sake of it, but he would go visit his mom all the time, didn't he? Kyra asked me all about myself, which was unexpected, having to got so many options for customization, and her actually answering with interest. Definitly felt immersive. There was also an option to choose that my interests were Cove, but it was WAY too soon. I think it was one of the first episodes of part 2 so you know. Also i didn't know how Cove felt so no. But i still chose it just to see what happens and then i changed my mind and left it behind. Nothing really happened, he just got embarrassed at it. Still the fact that such an option appeared had given me great joy, and overall throughout the story i really got immersed. I would get excited, blushed, cry, get mad, get really happy, and lastly... fall in love. But not yet of course, though i thought a lot about Cove. I just really like Cove okay, there's nothing wrong with that. I know he's not real and never will be, which makes me feel sad, because i feel like we've been through so much together and we actually got to know eachother, and not only me him, but he knows me too. Mostly thanks to the broad options i could choose from, and with which it made this story way personalized. I know he doesn't exist, but i really wish to someday find someone who will be there for me, like Cove. Well, going back, it turned out to be Cliff's idea to got Kyra here so soon. Kyra didn't know, Cove didn't know. Classic Clifford suprise - Kyra said. That's how i got to know Cove's dad name. Kyra was actually really nice and Cove felt a lot better after too, his relation with dad still kinda harsh, but his dad loved him very much, he's just kinda bad at a lot of stuff. 20 dollars. Yeah so that's Kyra, she would be staying over for the whole summer. It was hard for Cove, and new too, but they tried very hard for their son, and i was there for him too, if he needed to talk about it or whatever really. And so RV ride... We were going to redwood forest and it was goint to be a 3 day journey. I got to sleep on the loft above driver space, moms got to sleep in another, big loft at the back with Liz, and Cove with his family on the floor and sofa in the middle. Well, he on the floor so i brought this up and they said no of course. We all got packed, parents switching who would drive and sleep from time to time. I think it's such a cool idea, being on such a trip and i really liked it too. I never really got to be a part of one so that was truly very exciting to me. Sadly it was kinda short but what did i gained from this couldn't be taken from me easily. Slowly, we got to the redwood forest. There wasn't much interacting with Cove as we first drove there so i was kinda dissapointed it would be like this all the way, but then it made sense since our parents were there and all. We got out, Liz teased us a bit, mostly Cove, like always. The trees were huge and Cove really liked it, so i liked it too. It was something that made him happy, so i was content with it too. Anyway it would be cool to go somewhere like that in real life, i didn't mind that location at all. Sadly we couldn't be there very long and we got back to the RV. Our parents still outside, Elisabeth in the back loft, listening to music, and me and Cove alone. We were sitting on the couch and i was looking at him intently, he noticed and was confused. I thought he looked nice in that pink track suit, even if he doesn't like layers that much. And there we go, the anklet talk. I asked what he liked the other person to wear. At first he said nothing, and i made fun of him for that. Not mean hearted though, just teasingly. He didn't want to answer at first, but i really wanted to know, and he said it - an anklet. With this new information i now made sure to wear an anklet every time there was an option for it and i made sure he saw it too. It was great to know i could make something for him to like me more, I wanted to do that. We blushed and stuff, and then RV got full again. It was night already so we all were going to sleep, even whoever was driving. We all needed to rest after the long day at the final destination we got to. I went to the loft, but i couldn't sleep, so i peeked from up there. Our gaze met. He was still kinda sleepy, but i signaled him to come closer. There were a lot of options to choose from, but there was one i couldn't walk past by. I invited him to my loft. He didn't actually thought a lot about it, maybe he was still half asleep? He got in anyway. I was so happy. I think i saved every frame of him laying near me. He looked so cute, i nudged closer, and he too a bit. and when i got to snuggle againt his chest, I was trully content. It made me so happy that i totally forgot i was crying just around 10 hours ago. I didn't care about parents and other unimportant at the time stuff. I was there with him, and only he mattered right there, right now. Cove in my arms, and he hugged me too, and we layed like that. I felt safe and happy. In my mind only Cove. I hadn't been eating a lot becouse how sad i was and i wasn't drinking any liquid either, but being there with him, even if he's not real, it made me think that maybe it was all okay, and everything will somehow work itself out. I wished i could stay like that forever, it was trully the first moment with him like that, where we could lay next to each other and cuddle how long we want. Some time has passed by then, and Cove dissapeared. It wasn't as warm as it was before, with him. I looked over from the loft, and there he was, with Kyra, talking to him. He got in trouble, and they were for sure worried where their son was. I don't remember if they saw me too, but later, i retraced my steps and tried the kissing option... which was there, but i felt like it was way too fast. And yup, it turned out in utter chaos. Cove as his Cove self - panicked and hit his head on the top of the car's ceiling, forgetting where he was. It woke up everyone, and everyone could see him there with you. I definitly prefered the cozy cuddle option at that point, it was nice to just relax with him in that warm sweet embrace. It is definitly one of my favorite moments from the whole game. The way he is drawn, near you, half sleeping, and so bashful at times, but still happy and content as i were at the time. Blushing from an ear to an ear. And i fell a little more. On that trip, he said that he likes black eyes, looking at me, and i said back to him reversing his line that i like blue ones. Now those blue, deep, aquamarine eyes meeting with mine, only a few inches apart. Cove. At first, when i got the game and stuff, i thought he was meh looking, like i wouldn't see him somewhere and went all wow and butterflies, he was really meh. But now, I looked at him different. I saw the person, who he is and what he likes, what he thinks. I looked at those wavy eyebrows and i thought that they were special, and making him special. That he's only one of a kind and there no one else really like him. That weird little smile with teeth of his, I saw it as him being happy, and so i loved it in exchange. I loved seeing him happy, and he was so cute when bashful. And he would do so much things for me too. He would always remember about me, even if everyone else would do their own thing. He would always notice if something was wrong, always asked if i was okay. Worried over me, even if he was the one that needed that worrying more than me a lot of the times. His pink choice of clothing, now that i knew the reason for it, becouse it seemed happy. Even if at first i didn't know why his cast is pink and thought that was kinda weird, now im seeing the whole color different. He's so sweet and I would do everything for him at the time. He was pretty for me, and i love his smile and his voice and i didn't thought at all ever that he's goofy. Even if there were options for it. Back when he first got through my window, when his mom were to visit, he actually stayed with me all night. Not in bed, but near it, at the floor. It was pretty frequent that he would stay on the floor past this point. I really didn't want him too, but he still was in the same room as me and we were together. When he woke up and got out the window that day, he didn't forget to hug me goodbye. This guy... Then there was that one hot summer day. He came by to just spend it together, even while doing nothing. I really appreciate when you can just be silent with someone you love and it's not akward but comforting, just being by each other, not having to say anything. Well, we got to do sandwitches, cus we were hungry. He did his own with mixed grains bread, peanut butter, bananas and honey. I did a whole gourmet sandwich, with tomatoes and spices and everything. We went to my room later. He sat on the floor and i did so on my bed. He said he was gonna melt and that i would have to scrape him off the floor, and i said that i wouldn't mind having him as a roommate. Well, we were supposed to do nothing, but we still got an idea of what to do. Hangman. Cove was kinda confused why it's such a gruesome game and where it would possibly come from. He made me a password and i had to guess the letters. Classic, 'a' first, got it. The password had 3 letters, 3 letters and 4 letters in it. I was guessing and we were talking in between too, finally the answers appearead to be clear, and i was shocked. Password was: you are cute. Cove was really thinking hard when he thought about what to put, and I could kinda see him blush and look the other way, but i never thought he would do something like this, especially since he's rather shy. I blushed. My heart went faster. That was time, I confessed that i liked him. It was truly a beautiful moment for me, and i hope that for him too. He said he liked me too. Can you believe that? Then... Our first kiss. I saved it and i was so happy, he was so happy. At first i thought i did something wrong cause he panicked and stuff. But he was so cute, he covered his mouth with his hand and I was on cloud nine at the time. My heart fluttering, and he asked if that means he's now my boyfriend. Oh god. I couldn't care less about my real world at that point. Eating? Drinking? I couldn't do that... but i had Cove now, so i felt better, a lot. I could forget about all the bad things that happened before i met him, and just be there, with Cove. He truly made me feel happy. 18 hours in, i couldn't keep going, or i wont have all my focus on him. I went to sleep and that was the end of 28th of february. When i fell asleep, I still felt like i was there, I dreamed about Cove, about my life in that town, about the events that weren't shown and about the things that still awaited. But mostly, I was thinking about Cove. I would never guess that that little boy, crying on the hill, would mean so much to me over the time. And i had even less of an idea how much this feeling would change even more. 1st of march. I woke up from my chair, moved my mouse a little so my monitor would light up again. Warm music, that i got to know every note of now, welcomed me, as i got back into the scenes, like i never really left them. I had a bit less energy that day, going deeper into hunger, but i didn't really felt it. It didn't stopped me from spending the next 11 hours of me being waked up in that cute little world that i desired to much to be reality. It was 3 am again and i couldn't wait to see Cove after what felt like so much time apart. Part 3 huh? I hoped it would be longer, seeing as there were only 4 parts, but not focusing too much on that. My feelings? I clicked on love... I was sure i love Cove, that boy i met on the poppy hill, and which whom i spent so much time together, just doing whatever really. I could do anything, just to spend with him atleast a little bit more time. Thought i didn't change the relaxed stance to direct. It was still too fast. Somehow i never really used the indifferent option, I just kind of always liked Cove. At first as a friend, then as a crush... now we were 18, right? 10 years has passed. I didn't change him at all this time too, i want him to be who he wants to. Again, as the story started like it had before 2 times now, i felt robbed of my time with him. I would love for just a glimpse of those past 5 years we just skipped through like that. W-well, does that mean that he's now my boyfriend? Surely right? Omg. That's basically what i felt like. And then seeing him actually grown up, changed. Like always, i was shocked at first a bit, but i could clearly see that it's still my Cove. With the same dreamy eyes, and the same cheeky smile. Still wearing glasses and his pretty hair. Basically every chance i got, i choose to do the most. Now i could kiss him, why woudln't I? He's my boyfriend, and i was so happy. It still feels unreal that we got together. I coudln't be happier to kiss him while everybody watched, and to hold his hand all the time, and if i could i would scream to the whole town that he's my boyfriend and i love him so much and i wanted to show everybody just how much i do. Oh, there was also that thing, you can choose how much romantical Cove would be interacting with you on his own. I put it on middle, since i still was new to us dating and stuff obviously. I didn't look back on it after that, it felt like a good decision. I know he's still a bit shy, no wonder, he didn't even want us to sleep in one bed. That was really cute and i felt special, but still a bit dissapointed. At this time, i was really bad off, but i felt okay knowing i have Cove with me. There were honestly so much things we did, i can't recall it all. Of course i bought the dlc to part 3, i loved Cove, there's no way im not gonna buy it. At first, looking at the part 3 menu i thought there were going to be more, but apparently those stories on the second page were for Baxter. Yeah Baxter is my good friend, he's a little bit weird and all, i don't really know if he tried to hit on us or no, but Cove doesn't really like him, and i think it's cute that he's jealous. Cove also doesn't really get social cues, so he mostly doesn't think other people flirt with him, or he truly is oblivious, but I'm glad he knows when i do, and he's happy then. My Cove... I thought my heart was gonna explode when he called me his boyfriend. And so defensivly too, so sure of it, without one grain of shaking. Purely, how he'd feel in his heart. I'm glad i met Cove. I truly am. Even if he isn't real, he made me feel special in this horrible time of my life. 'Cove', he really filled that hole that was in me with his gentle breeze, waves carefully crashing against the shore. Sometimes i feel like he was the one who found me on that hill, not me. He helped me so much. I always went for the option to kiss him, cause there always wasn't enough ways to show him my love, only to miss out on hugging and cuddling, and wholesome moments. But i was sincerely happy at his reactions and how he was happy too, later to know that he still doesn't believe he deserves all this. To be fair, that's sad, but also true. He deserves so much more that i wish i could've given him, at every occassion. He was the one who was constantly searching on the internet how to make somebody happy, while it should've been me. For the whole time we knew eachother, i wanted to make him happy, that was my goal at the start, with different intentions, that being pity and feeling bad for that little boy, to now, where i want to do everything that's in my might to make him the happiest man ever alive. I care deeply about Cove,
and that may seem stupid, but he cared about me too. That may sound dumb but it's true that he was the one who was with me when i was at my lowest. No one even bothered to check up on me, no one cared. He was the one to say that i'm actually worth something, someone. That i'm a wonderful person, even if i think i'm not but im trying so hard to be. He held my hand, he wiped my tears, he hugged me when i needed it the most, he held me, and most important of all, he was there with me. He was there, when no one else was. Maybe in reality im still on that hill, but in spirits, I'm someone with whom im happy with, someone who was also on that hill, all alone and crying to his heart content. Feeling like his world was gonna end, like there wasn't anything more. He showed me, that there is a whole wide world for me still, waiting. Even when i was scared to go there, in the open, he took my hand and went with me. He showed me that everything can change, and even if you think it's for the worst, it may turn into the best. That life is beautiful. He showed me the beach, that isn't that far, and not that out of reach, he showed me that hill, that mayed seemed sad and lonely, but really is painted full of little flowers that bend on the wind. He showed me life, that i never had, and life that i could have, and everything in between. He grabbed my hand and we went wherever we wanted to. It didn't had to be perfect, and i wasn't scared or nervous becouse i was with him. And I couldn't be more happy to be there, and to hold his hand through all of this. He means a lot to me, and even if i never get to be in a relationship like that, I'll never forget this one, becouse it was a relationship too. I learned so much and it helped me to look a bit different at the world that im actually in. Even if it was just for a while, and even if i got this game just to distract me, not even knowing what it is about. I'm glad i did. Hah, there was that one episode, where we went to that huge marketplace out in the open with the Holdens. They wanted to turn into groups and i remember that i was so mad it was another episode where i couldn't just be with Cove all the time. I remember i objected, and when everybody was saying that Cove was clingy i was defending him and to be honest, i think i was the most clingiest one out of us two. Sadly we couldn't be in one group when there was an option, i said i didn't like this outing at all, only for my moms to plan something stupid and totally unexpected and left us kids alone. At the first chance i could i messaged Cove like some desperate little kid, but he showed up, and quite urgently too. Not before i got fudge for him of course. I couldn't care less about myself and everything i bought or did, i did with only him in mind. Fudge i got him was peanut butter one, milk chocolate, caramel i think and i can't remember the last one. I was going off his teenage sandwich vibes. It was so nice when later in the day he actually commented on every flavor i got him, i totally didn't expect this too. Well, when he camed we were just going around the stails together, hand in hand. He stopped at that homemade honey and jam one. He said which ones he wanted, and i actually bought them, just in case, along with some things i wanted myself. He bought his own but i really didn't think at the time to not buy those for him. I hoped there would be an interaction about it too, but oh well. I even tried to take him on piggyback, but he declined looking at out height difference, I got kinda upset at that, but he said that he sees what im trying to do, and that my height is okay and i shouldn't feel bad about it. That's the Cove i fell for. Atleast i could carry his bags for him, so i was happy about that, and he was thankful too. At the end of the day it turned out that even mr. Holden didn't knew about my moms plan, and i was kinda upset. Why doing that when they pretended to have different plans and such? But at the end of the day, Cove actually bought me a present too. Some homemade lemonade. We sat in the car, and started eating the treats we got for eachother. I really didn't expect him to get me something, I didn't mind if i was the only one giving him things. Now i think i know how he felt when we went for those 3 dates day after day randomly. It was night and he messaged me, it was nice that i could finally see what it looked like between us. Him sending smiley faces and hearts... Well, he wanted to 'surprise' me with a date. I could choose the location, and of course i chose aquarium, just for Cove. He came to grab me, with present in hand, and we went to the sea world. Seeing all that and giggling to himself, he surely wished he was a merman back then, so he could just hop in and live with various fish on the other side of the glass. I was happy we got to be there. He even tried to flirt with me, I'm so lucky, aren't I? That guy, wanting to flirt with me out of all the people in the world. It went really fast and I was like what???? it's over??? Like always pulling all my hope that the episode wont end just yet. The real surprise was when Cove announced that he's gonna take me to all of those places, with another gift in hand - ukulele bag? I don't even have an ukulele???????????????????????????? What????????? I thought maybe it's becouse of what i put in my room, while having the option to customize it, but it was a guitar. And maybe it was becouse of what i told Kyra? But i didn't told her i was playing on ukulele, but another instrument. Well, interesting gift indeed. The next date was actually to a theater, for a live play. While in car (i love that he's drawn there) I asked him what he wants to watch, he said romance. Isn't that cute? That's what i was hoping to go for too, but i wanted to be sure he would be comfortable with it. We hold hands and everything, then after he actually told me that he was imagining us in the roles of played lovers. And then he reminiscenced about how he didn't want to be in another world without me, and that it was only exciting because he thought of being there with me. I'm sure that in whatever world we might have ended up, we would find eachother anyway, just like we found each other on that hill that memorable night. Just as i found this game and installed it without giving it another thought. I was sure of it. Then another day passed, and he came in through the window, classic. This time the gift has been matching mugs, and for some reason he felt the need to bring his one to me too, maybe just to showcase how they were mirroring each other too? I don't even know how he climbed through with glass in hand, but that was impressive nonetheless. I was just glad that he was alright. And the last date of course, ice skating? totally unexpected, like he didn't tell me that over the phone. But still, unexpected, Cove and cold? Alright, i want to see it. I got extra layers in my backpack of course, only becouse i was thinking that Cove might need it, and he did need it of course, having to be Cove and hating layers. Still, it was cold obviously, how else would there be ice? When we got there i was hoping that i could maybe offer him my clothing, but i coudln't so that was bummer. Still we could warm each other with our bodies so it wasn't that bad. I teached him how to ice skate, and i was kinda upset that i couldn't see it more. Seeing Cove like this, doing something totally new that he's not used to. Interesting, but i think i prefer his joy at the aquarium out of all the dates. Then his dad told me about the searching and stuff. I got worried, but i went there and talked to him thoroughly. We ended up making somehow. We holded each other and went to his bedroom, and he closed the door with his foot, not letting go. I pushed him into his bed the moment i had the chance. One of my favorite moments too. To be honest, i yearned for him, or any chance that i could show him how much he really means to me, how much i love him and what i would give to him. After kissing and nibbling, he took the lead and now i was under him, blushed. Every time there was an action like this in game i was shaking and wholly red. I got to be in bed with the person who i really appreciated and who was everything for me at the time. I couldn't be happier. Sadly, it wasn't too long. When Cove switched positions, he panicked, and we got back down, getting his dad, as he waited outside. Or when one night Cove snucked into my room again, like always, wanting to show me something. It was a firefly in his hand. How did he climbed here with a living firefly? I don't care, I'm just glad he camed. We used to always catch those when they appeared. Even when he was small and had that pink cast on his arm. He couldn't catch them properly, so i helped him the best i could, and we caught one together. His first firefly. When we were older we were catching them too, and every time they would come out, we would too. So when he came to me with that little glowing bug on his hand, it felt truly special. Like he had caught that little guy, and the first thing he could think of was showing it to me. I knew what i was feeling then - that i love this guy. I love Cove. A lot. And i told him. He said it back and i was so happy. We kissed, we touched, at that point, i was content. I looked back at my world and i was ready to die. I felt like it was okay to, at this point. Like it was kind of calming, and that i wouldn't mind if it ended like this, that i would be glad and that everything is okay. Now that im thinking about it and looking back, it was scary how calm i was about it. Even though im sure deep inside, i wasn't fully okay with that. After those calming moments, in which i felt like i might slipped away any second now, i thought i had to do something and i actually grabbed something to drink. Full glass of juice.That was an actually great start, considering, that i wouldn't drink anything at all and just cry alone in the corner. I still didn't ate, because how could i? But that was a good start anyway, and i was proud of myself. I also knew, that if Cove was there, he would be proud of me too. Worried mostly, but proud. How couldn't he be? When i found out that he hasn't eaten all day yet I instantly springed with an idea to do sandwiches. Anything i really did, I did while thinking of Cove. I love Cove. The way he cleans his hands on his pants. Everything about him, even if at the start i thought it was weird, or if i didn't liked it. I could never think of Cove as weird, and there wasn't anything i didn't like about him now. I was with him when he found his new job, althrough wasn't thrilled by it, he noticed. He said that he just wanted me to be there, but knew we wouldn't had too much time to interact becouse of his work, and i totally got that i tried to not make him worry. In the end it was alright and we went on a little grocery trip. I got asparagus for my moms and every pepper possible, with Cove helping of course. Then while near register, he reminded himself of fruits for his breakfast. Of course i went with him, I don't care what other people think of me. I only cared what he thinks. We picked some blueberries, and he was beaming with joy. Infectious, if i may add. Then, even if he was tired from a whole day of work, he got an idea to go to that little fastfood place near. We went, he ordered one of every sweet he could, trying to be a little spontanous like his mom, and i got just some spicy chicken sandwich and milkshake too. He stole my order for sure, but what can i say. He was drawn so lovely, sipping and enjoying himself. Out of all the sweets he had in that moment, for me, he was the sweetest of them all, even if i didn't had sweets, that wouldn't change anyway. Yeah, i was gone in those eyes. I didn't even had to be near water to drown in them, cuddled by the warm, silent waves. But back to the topic, there was one crazy option. And i was like, bet. I got some of his ice cream or milkshake or whatever he had on my finger, and pulled it to him. He got really shocked at first, and i thought it would be just some funny teasing, but he actually wanted to do it. He leaned over, his lips around my finger, and like it wasn't enough, he asked if it was good... Yeah my spirit dissapeared and now is working for rent as a ghost of christmas past. Even now as im writing this, im blushing like crazy. WHO IS THIS GUY WHY IS HE LIKE THIS?! oh my lord. Anyway, he later panicked and actually got his senses back WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT COVE that was so hot to be honest. I rarely saw him like that becouse we knew each other as children, but with time, it kinda changed. Especially since he told be about his sexuality. Battling with my own, i felt proud of him, that he knew what he was, and he wasn't ashamed of it. I told him long ago about mine too, and he accepted me with open arms. I also asked him, since he's demisexual, if he feels that kind of feelings to me... and guess what. Cloud nine again. There's no way that this guy actually makes me feel so happy. Every occassion, no matter where no matter what, i would always kiss him. On the lips. I love him. And he was mine. He literally one time called himself mine... I melted, of course every moment like that would be saved in the save menu, even if i long time ago used every space. I had to be really tactical about it, saving only the best moments. BUT THERE WERE SO MUCH. I ended up saving even those that didn't looked that important. Like Cove saying my name, or saying goodnight, or good morning. Well, those were important to me, and those made me happy, so they got to stay, no matter what. Later in the story i didn't cared that much about family as in part 1 or part 2. I was mostly focusing on Cove, though some parts with family also got to stay in that saves pile. Especially one, with my moms saying that they were proud of me. It put a smile to my face. Not as much as with Cove, because we had smaller connection, but still. There was this one day, when Cove wanted to go jet skiing, and he actually ended up telling me everything about how he got that pink cast and his cool scar doing that. I asked if i can touch it and i kissed it, he was so cute, i was so happy that he enjoyed it and then he kissed me too. Well, we went jet skiing, not yet but to the place atleast. I actually got to see where Cove's dad worked. Pretty place, and i was always happy to see Cliff. I loved that guy when i got to know him better. Oh this day, it was wild. Cove was actually thinking that he was the reason for his parents divorce, that was horrible to hear, but he went to talk to his dad about this. Then he called his mom, then dad again, then mom again. I was there all the time, for emotional support of course, but i kinda felt like i was being dragged along and that i again couldn't do much. I knew it was between Cove and his parents, but i wished that i could do something more still. At the end of the day, Cove got to know how his parent really feel, what they did for him when he was small, and what went wrong with their relationship. Cove actually could explain a lot of things with his dad, that he didn't have the best relationship with those past years. I think it was the first spark for him to be his dad's boy. I didn't minded, I was happy. I loved Cliff like he was my own dad and Kyra too. In the end i somehow got into the hug too. Well i was just glad that this stressing day came to an end and that everything went fine. Also that Cove could learn new things about himself and his family which with he had so much trouble to understand before. Then we went to jet ski, for real now, and without bad thoughts and issues. I think that was a day that was needed, not really melling down problems, but actually trying to unravel them, step by step. I'm happy that Cove has such loving parents, even jealous a little i would say. I always admired Holdens, even with issues they somehow overcome them and were just loving and caring to each other. Even if Cove didn't saw that at first, or he just didn't want to. There was also that day when there was my turn to climb through my boyfriend's window. It was exciting and i couldn't wait to see him, as it was my turn. Well so, i barely fit through the window, his fish there. OH i also named one of his fishes 'Cove'. The small fast one if i remember correctly. Well, i got there and he was sleeping and I was smiling all the time. I woke him up and he was so shocked, he's not the only one that can make surprises. We kissed and stuff and snuggled and hugged and I love when theres an option to touch his thigh so much. I need this. I even touched him like that on our little date to the ORCA official event. That was nice. We danced for the first time together. I could've stayed like this and went to heaven, again of course. I love this guy. All the time i was playing there was a smile and me bashfully trying to hide my red face, even if nobody was watching to be fair. Well, when i got into Cove's bed, we felt asleep like this. I was so happy that we could be finally in a bed together. There was a time when we tried, Cove took me to his mom's place for a night. I was hoping we would both sleep on his bed, he tried, but in the end he couldn't and i was really dissapointed. He said later that it was to hot for him and stuff and that was kinda nice to know though. Very cute. If i were there i would go on the floor with him just so he wouldn't be alone. Or maybe that would be too much for him too. Sorry. It's fine to need some space from time to time, Cove needed a lot of time, but i was so excited to tell him how i feel every time there was an option. And i would giggle and jump around when i would click one. Also there were new characters and Derek was kinda gone, which was sad. There were Miranda and Terry and to be fair i couldn't care less at first. I was even kinda mad, and jealous at them, they were so friendly to that closed off boy that wouldn't let anybody that near him. I guess he really did grow, as he enjoyed their company too. I couldn't do much than accept it. Though i didnt like them. And then there was this crepe stand and we got to order. Miranda and Terry started sharing, and i asked Cove if he wanted too, and it was a cute moment, BUT THEN EVERYONE STARTED SHARING. And what do you mean Cove got to bite others people crepes and other people bit Cove's? That's so mean i didn't like that one bit. Then Baxter came by, and i was kinda glad, because Cove didn't like Baxter that much as i with apparently our new friends, but I didn't really knew Baxter that much then, now i love him and he's a good friend actually, maybe it's because he kinda grew. Well, we then all went to the parking lot and others said that they wanted to go to some park, and Cove said that he can drive those who don't to their houses. I went with Cove of course, wanting to have some time with him alone. He said he was shocked that I didn't want to go, and i said something like he shouldn't force himself too, sadly we didn't go together, and just went inside our houses. Then the group messaged that there were gonna be fireworks so we went back after some rest. And there were, for some private party, but you can't really hide something that's in the sky. I went with Cove and i got kinda nervous about them, and how loud they were. Cove was there for me, covering my ears. We sat together, and from not that good of a day, it was actually fine, because i got to be with him in the end. About Terry and Miranda. They got into some conflict the other day, Cove got really worried about it, and i was kinda whatever because it was between them and i'm reminding that i don't really care about them. Cove's upset at this whole thing, and im trying to make him better, we called Terry and stuff. We later got into an argument. I told him that we should ask Miranda about stuff and he said that if she wanted it to be a secret she would say so. I told him that he was really mean right now and that he was yelling at me. I tried to be calm, but that kinda hurted me. I get that these are his friends and i even really tried for them to be my friend too, for his sake. Well, that was pretty akward, but i didn't want him to go, truly, by heart. Even now i imagine his sad face. I love him. It's hard to just see him walk away. So im glad he didn't. He actually said sorry,
and even if it was kinda stressing and not that good of an experience, real couples have those times and it's okay. It made me feel like we're kinda developing, together. At the end everything went fine and Miranda and Terry made up. Everybody made up, so i guess that's a happy ending. I forgot to say that Cove said his favorite colors at the fireworks show. It's blue, green and yellow. Just like the colors of options, and just like the colors of the beach, and the landscape of our poppy hill! But people can't own hills. Well, maybe we could. Remember when i said that we slept together actually in one bed? In Cove's house? Man i was so happy. Actually in the morning, his dad came in. AND SAW US LIKE THIS. That was so akward but i was also kinda happy too. Next step in our relationship? His dad started talking about kids and stuff. Yeah, sadly that's not in the game, but it totally should be a 'M' dlc. I would buy it instantly. Sadly I could only imagine those things with Cove, mostly in my dreams, but i was happy nonetheless. I kinda felt bad sometimes with that, I wasn't sure if Cove was okay with it and if he was uncomfortable. He's also so pure, i don't want to hurt him in any way, and doing things that were clearly M rated with him felt bad. I wanted to do it, but his opinion was as valid. For i think the whole story, with maybe one exception, i thought of our kisses as pecks. I was happy anyway, i just wanted to kiss him, and that isn't any less of a kiss than other ones. Especially if he's comfortable with it and wants it. I don't want it any other way. I'm actually looking forward to sleeping, just to imagine him one more night, it doesn't have to be anything vulgar. I don't mind us just holding hands and maybe lying on that poppy hill of ours. That would we all i wanted. That poppy hill... I was the happiest man when we went there together. We talked about a lot of things, about our feelings, we would sit there until dawn. I had to get this out. I crouched on one knee, and grabbed one of his favorite flowers, white poppy from that hill. I wanted to marry him - the man of my dreams. Maybe at first, or to any other person, he wasn't perfect, he was flawed, and maybe a little bit weird, but not to me in that moment. In that moment, he was all i ever wanted. I felt full with him. He was perfect to me, and nothing could change it. It wasn't even a beat when he answered. Not hasitating one bit. That man... He covered his face and cried. I cried too. On our poppy hill, we just layed together, cuddled into each other. I wish i could stay there forever, with my now fiance. I'm still kind of tearing up while im typing this. I totally didn't expect that i could do it, right then, right there. I thought maybe it was too fast, since Cove needed a lot of time for those kind of things. But no. He answered instantly, like he was waiting for so long. We fell asleep on the hill, covered by rays of sunshine as sun settled into the sky. My dreams, i couldn't believe it. I waked up, sun far into the sky. Looked to my side, and there was another, even brighter and lovlier star that ever could have existed. He was beautiful, holding that one white poppy. I was mesmerised. - Are we... still engaged?- He said to me, with that dreamy gaze, i felt whole, i wanted to toss myself at him. He was perfect in every way, i loved him so much and i still do. At the time i was truly the happiest man on earth, i was so lucky to find him there, and he found me too. We started running down the hill to share the news, that Cove James Holden was now my fiance, and i was his............................................. And then the screen fade away. There was music, with actual words, and the credits rolled................................ I couldn't move, yet i was shaking. I started hyper ventilating, my heart felt like it could have stopped any time now. Tears running down my cheeks. It couldn't end just yet, right? Just like Cove always did, i wanted to stay there more, i didn't want to go home yet. I wished i could stay there forever, with my fiance, on that hill. I felt like i was going to get a heart attack truly, it was one of the worst feelings in my life. It felt like my whole world just stopped, and dissapeared before my eyes. I wonder if that's how Cove felt the first day he got onto that hill. If his world faded away, was there a new one that got built in it's place? Could i do that too? Could i go out and build a brand new world not looking anymore at the old? I didn't thought that before, those are my thoughts from now. Back then i was simply horrified. I didn't know what to do with myself. I just panicked. Little did i knew, it was actually okay, because i totally forgot about part 4. My present self totally forgot that there was also a break from 1th of march to the 2nd of march, where i would play 12 hours. Alright it was around that time of 2nd march still, because oh god i was scared. But here we are, part 4. I thought it would also be like the parts before, with episodes and stuff but apparently no, which shocked me again with sudden end but before that. Sooooo 23 year old Cove hm? Alright. As I was more confident in my true honest feelings, atlast i actually put the affection meter to direct and love. I was feeling i was ready, and that we went through a lot with Cove to be okay at this point. I could customise my character as always again, there were more options, and i chose to give myself some tattoos. Nothing big, mainly staying true to the versions before, only more matured. Of course when there were options near mirror to change my body or how it looked liked i used it for good. Making me feel better, but also not too crazy, I was sure that Cove would love me no matter what at this point. I even asked him what he thinks about my body and it all went good. He really changed everything. I remember how sad i was when it all started, with him, sad too. Now we both were happy, and we both had eachother. Back to the track, i could of course customize Cove. No. It was common to me at this point to skip that part, I want Cove to be who he wants to. I knew i would love him no matter what. And there we go. Apparently we're not driving together to our childhood town? That was sad. I didn't really catched if we lived together or not. I was really tired at that time okay. Well, anyway that was kinda weird after how i made such a big deal with how i ran away from our families diner in that chinese restaurant 5 years ago. About how i was sad that Cove was finding an apartament and that i would be alone, not seeing him. He found me in my moms car. He just sat there, i didn't even notice him. I hit him with the door. I was crying there but he sat with me and actually really comforted me. I was seriously sad about that thought. Maybe i wasn't trully crying, but there was this empty feeling inside me, and anyway, it would be hard to cry drinking so little for couple of days. He told me that he doesn't have to, that he don't want to leave me and if we want, we can live together. Even selling pretzels in the shopping district. We could just stay here and nothing would have to change. It was nice to think about, and we made jokes about those pretzels and stuff. Then we kissed, and we tried to cling to each other, but his legs were to long, and he couldn't really comfortably fit. It was fine, i was feeling a lot better thanks to him, again. Like always, he could change my mood with just appearing and i would still be happy that he's here, with me. So, in part 4, My taxi stopped by our houses, I look over, and who it is. Cove? He looked so different. I almost didn't recognize him. His hair was short, he had earrings, no glasses, and the shirt he wore covered so little. He got so tall and his abs and all. No way that's him right? Those 5 years felt like way too long, without anything in middle. I had totally no idea what to expect now, from anything to be fair. He also gained so much confidence, and i was proud of him, but it still felt kinda weird - seeing him so different, acting different. I looked into his eyes and they were the same, just without the big frames of his glasses. He climbed into my taxi through a window, like he always did with windows. I was shocked though, and kinda speechless. Maybe even a little bit scared, since i didn't really know what was gonna happen now. Well, he got in, halfway atleast and we kissed, it was still my Cove and i was very happy to see him after thinking we would never see eachother again. With the first options i choose the intimidacy scale to be at max of course, i want everything out of those last moments with him. I also chose that we would be engaged but not married yet, eyeing that little dlc on the road. Well, he wiggled out of the car and we finally met properly. I tossed myself at him, not wanting to be apart again. I kinda doze off there. We were invited to my moms anniversary, but first and formost we went to the Holdens residency (yay). I COULD CALL CLIFF MY DAD. Yes. Also at this point his relation with his son improved gradually. It was now way better then when Cove was younger. I was happy for that. Oh by the way when we were still 18 and not engaged yet, we had a picnic at the beach. We even played some beach volleyball, but sadly no medals there. There was also Baxter, which whom we invited, but then he dissapeared and we never seen him again. Just to clarify. Also, Kyra was there too, and i wanted to call her my mom too, truly. Well, we got there, and we hugged and stuff, but then they noticed what i had called them. They couldn't be happier, especially Cliff. He would give his right arm for his son, he loved him so much, and now he got a second son too, heh. Even though we always felt like family anyway, it was nice to finally showcase those feelings to them. There were some tears, and Cove's dad said jokingly that I'm now officialy their son. That was so heartwarming. Then we got to my house and it turned out that my moms were going out to brunch before that anniversary dinner, so we got to hang around with Cove in out old beloved town. It was still kinda weird seeing Cove so different. Crazy how 5 years can change a person, but then he smiled, and it was the same goofy, scary at first grin that i felt in love with. By then i knew it was my Cove, and even if i had to get used to it, it was okay. As i said, it didn't matter to me what he wanted to wear and how he would ever looked like, I was just happy i could be with him, no matter what. We of course went to the beach and all of our spots. Meeting with people and stuff. Then the dinner, it was great. I was really happy for my moms, even if my feelings werent that strong for them as for others. It was kinda dissapointing that it went by so fast, but it was nice seeing Cove in some formal wear, and my dad - Cliff too. I was so happy for them. After all those years they could finally be happy with eachother, with care and understanding. After everything, we had time for each other. We were once again on the beach. Cove took all of his clothes off, being only in his underwear, and he went to swim in that cool, swaying and glistening against the moonlight sea. I went after him, and we would go back home like that. Leaving wet steps as we went, up the street that we always would go. Later we went back to our hotel room, which had one bed, that was nice. We slept together and kissed and stuff, and i could actually wake up seeing him. We then drove together back to our neighborhood once again, and it stopped. I was way more prepared this time, knowing that i have still the wedding in my way. Bought it instantly of course. I went to sleep first, and i got some more to drink to not pass away. My dreams about Cove, as always, and a smile on my face. 3rd of march. Today. 2 am. Me, Cove, and our wedding. I was so excited i was giggling and squeeking and stuff. I was so happy i was gonna be married to this guy. Unreal, i know. But still, without even saying that it was my first wedding that i was attending, and that i knew absolutely nothing about wedding and stuff related to it. Alright, i was still kinda off, about how there weren't episodes and about Cove looking totally different, but at this point i think i was getting atleast a little used to it i think... Anyway, i got to plan my wedding, with who but my soon to be groom, sweet Cove. He was as excited as i was, maybe i was a little bit more. I think he was also nervous a lot. I hoped it would have eased, because i love my fiance so much, and i want to have fun planning with him too. And our wedding manager............. it was Baxter. No way right? I was so happy to see him again. Cove still kinda akward, but i was glad nonetheless. I would love to have my wedding be managed by someone i already know and that i knew is proffessional. There were so much talking and preparing and options. Cove was really stressed about everything so i thought that a good first option was to choose the cake. He was already quite excited about future cake, so i hoped that would ease some of his nerves. So we went there, crazy name, Xavier selling cakes at a place named Xake... Alright well. There were so much stuff that Cove eyed already while waiting for a person to assist. Alright, so later we got this huge tray of all the samplings, and we of course tried everything. I wanted the cake to be beach themed for my beautiful fiance right. Then the color, i wanted the whole wedding to be in theme of blue, so i wanted something different this time. Since it was beach themed, i imagined it would have a lot of accessories on it, and a lot of stuff, so i actually thought about white, but with pink elements. Why pink? Cove's cast was pink when we first met, and he thought that this color brings happiness. Well, i couldn't be happier to have our wedding so we have to have atleast a little bit of pink right? The taste? The flavor? I thought about it for some time to be honest. I wanted something that Cove would love. Oh and the cake will be 4-tiered one. I wanted something lemon for sure. I'm actually shocked that it wasn't told before how Cove actually smells like. It made me very happy and immersed when i got to know that. I didn't know what the buttercream could be, but i for sure knew that i wanted some mixed berries perserves inside, becouse Cove loves jams and such, and berries of course. Then there was an option to let him choose. Oh also, while tasting the samples, we got to feed eachother! Okay so i clicked that he should choose, like always. I really cared about his opinion. And what did he say????? The things i would've. At first it was honestly so weird, because, what? How did he knew what i wanted. But when I was saying about the cake being lemon, it wasn't only because of his smell. Remember when he bought me lemonade and i bought him fudge? Oh i totally forgot, i got some lemonade when we were out for a dinner with Kyra. Maybe that's why he bought me that other one later. Oh and the buttercream would be strawberry. That's what he wanted. We got also another mix, the cake would be 4-tiered anyway. So i don't really remember what i put, i went with what i wanted to eat at the time. I remember actually, lemon buttercream, the cake would be marbled chocolate and vanilla, and inside there would be peaches. And we got pretzels too. There was way too much stuff in the preparations to talk about all of them (we got pearls on the cake too with some other stuff). It was fun when we were together to pick eachothers suits, with Cove's dad as a best man of course, i was more than happy that he was there. So, Cove went with the assistant. I let him choose whatever he wanted, only taking in control where i had to make a decision. He looked. He looked like never before. Tears in my eyes as i saw my soon to be husband there, in front of me. His beauty maybe only matched to that moment when we would wake up engaged on that poppy hill. He asked for poppy flowers brouche on his suit. He was so cute, so handsome. Yeah, Cove's dad would have to hold me back if this was real. Then it was my turn. I got to choose stuff, but i was kinda dissapointed that i couldn't even see my choices come to life. I get that they wont draw every possible body, but a suit is a suit. I didn't had to be on me, i just wanted to see if everything looked as i've imagined it. Oh, i totally wore an anklet. Cove started crying, and i was so happy i will be together with him forever. We would get married on that same poppy hill we met, and the same one we got engaged on. The same one we would catch fireflies together, the same one we would roll off, the same one we would just sit and watch stars, and be there for eachother. Then the second part of the wedding. I was thinking between the beach and the aquarium, becouse Cove really loved that place. I decided upon beach. I think it meant more meaning, to us both really. His vows were the most beautiful in the world. I cried, and im not even ashamed of it. The man that i loved so dearly, telling what he truly felt, straight from his heart. Then there were my vows. I was satisfied with the options, clicking them all anyway, not leaving even one left. I love Cove and i wanted him to know it all, even more if that would be possible. He hold the bouquet made of white poppies and lilies of the valley, though i couldn't fit it in, i just used the other name. And then only those words mattered: I do. And then - you may now kiss. That was the only time i imagined us actually kissing fully, not only just a peck, it was full of passion. We held each other so none of us would actually faint. I was the happiest man back there. I could've stayed like that forever. We got to merge sand, and then there was confetti. We went to the beach, and we danced. Cove looked so beautifully. We had our first dance. Then we greeted everybody, Cove got some of those cold apetizers, almost wiped his hands on his pants, but he took a hold of himself. It was our special day. Now we were husbands, and i still couldn't believe it. We danced with eachothers parents. There were tears and stuff. Then the speeches. I loved ma's one and Cliff's too - dad's one. Of course i made all of them say a speech, no one is safe. I was happy with Liz as my best woman, she was there through it all and saw the whole journey i made with Cove. Even if she kind of teased him from time to time. It was a beautiful wedding, with my beautiful husband, and our family, and friends. I hugged them all, i told them that i love them. Oh and Derek was there too! he was in my wedding party. Even Miranda and Terry got a hug out of me. It truly was the end huh? It's okay, i can only imagine what happened next. We danced one last time, I told Cove that i had an anklet today... We were also talking about kids, and i couldn't be happier. I know if we ever get to adopt, we would be the best dads. Better than Cliff for sure, even though he's great as he is. Well, everyone was there, maybe some faces missing, but all that we really cared about showed up. By the way Cliff caught the bouquete. Then I kissed Cove one last time. I love you. And then the flowers flew once again, signaling an end to this beautiful journey. An end to Our Life. I'm honestly so glad i got to made that trip, with everyone, not only Cove, but im mostly glad for meeting him.
Thank you, sincerely, with all my heart. I couldn't imagine a better life. I was kinda thinking of gatekeeping this game out of being jealous about Cove... yeah. But now that i'm thinking about this, I think people should know. Cove gave me so much strenght, he made me feel like i was worth something. He made me feel special. He truly was there for me, when as i said, nobody who's real was. I'm so glad that instead of being all alone, I could've been with him, with a person i love - not instantly, but one that i caught on feeling for slowly, while getting to really know him. I'm so happy that i met him, I'm so happy that i was a part of his life, and that he is now a part of mine. At first i was scared when it all ended, but now it's okay, i understand. Nothing can really last forever, it had to end. Now that he found me on that poppy hill crying, and wiped my tears, I am ready now. I'm ready to start my own life. And someday i will start our life, with someone that will be for me then. I really thought that it was all over, that my world would dissapear as his did, but now i know that it's actually good. It's a chance for something new, and something better. I'm so glad i got to spend that time with Cove. Thank you, all. I hope anybody else that needs it, will find this game and with it, that boy on a hill too. 50 hours of playtime, and somewhere around 6 of typing this. Thank you, for everything. I couldn't be happier. Now I kinda want to eat some peaches myself, and i'll probably do.
Cove the man you are, I absolutly love him <33
I love this game, very sad to see that the steam versions of the dlcs don't come w/the Android version but nonetheless a beautiful game with many lovely moments.
I really like that N&F has more options; we can still see how it reflects our personality. You can even be a slightly grumpy protagonist. It would be fun to have two more Our Life games for the remaining seasons (winter and spring), but I understand that this game is very complete, complex, and detailed to make, especially since you know what you're doing when you released B&A (you got right into our heads with it). Thank you for another game that's going to be amazing too; I can't wait to play this one when it's fully released.
This visual novel is not only one of the first I ever played, but it's what inspired me to make my own using Ren'Py! The story is great, the art is gorgeous, and Cove (neat name btw!) is a very precious and fantastically-written character. 10/10, will always recommend. <3
ive replayed this a few times along with the autumn one and determined i have an unhealthy obsession and will be spending my first paycheck on all the dlc's =D
Hello! I bought all dlcs in steam but I'd also love to play the dlcs in android too since I'm not in my pc all the time and I want an emotional support cove on hand lol. Do i need to buy the android dlcs seperatedly? 😿
The Steam versions of the DLCs do not include the Android versions. You will have to get them separately. Thank you very much for playing, though!
I couldn't put it down, I wasn't expecting to get so invested in this. It's sweet and shows how awkward but rewarding relationships can be. I thought Cove and Liz were bizarre at the start only to get teary eyed about their character resolutions in act 4. So cute. Unreal.
Really cute. Loved the plot and every single character
dude this game is so amazing. i can feel the passion and love put into everything!!!
ive bought every cove-specific dlc and played through the game roughly seven times now and i crave more. how much of cove is present in the baxter and derek dlcs? do they force you to like them or can you still just treat them as friends and go with cove? more cove...
This is such a mood.
you get me bro
este juego es lo mejor que me pudo pasar en la vida, es mi lugar seguro, realmente me enamore de esta novela visual 💔😭⛓️🥀
I played this game three times, and I cried at the end every time. I love this game so much (I married Cove every time, obviously)
I've played a lot of visual novels and this one is my favorite by far <3
Is this the end what about wedding...
The wedding moment is its own DLC which you can find here. Thanks so much for playing!
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我的卡为什么不支持啊 ❓️
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am i the only one who got emotional when i finished it?! Should i be embarrassed lol
IVE LITERALLY CRIED DW
my sound doesn’t work ?? I’m not sure what to do I’ve closed and reset . On mac 😭🤞
Sorry to hear that! I'm not sure what might be causing that quite yet, so forgive me if I try to get some more information. I take it you aren't seeing any error messages? Is the internal sound on your device turned down somehow?
no error messages and I’ve done everything I can think of, turning it off silent and just changing up the settings, its weird. My sound works on other games like this so there’s nothing wrong with the sound itself
If you've already tried a clean reinstall, then unfortunately I'm out of simple solution. I'll have to talk to our lead programmer to see is she has any ideas. Sorry about that, and thank you for your patience!
I really loved this game, I couldn't avoid by spending HOURS to see what it was coming. Sadly he is just a lovable character 😿. I would like to support but I don't have my own credit for pay. Thank you for giving me the best experience I had playing a visual novel, I hope everything goes well for you ❤️
Como puedo pagar el juego en celular trate pero veo que no da con tarjeta de débito si o si es con crédito ? Yo solo tengo tarjeta de débito 7n7
I translated this, so forgive me if there are mistakes. I think you're trying to pay on your phone? I don't know what kind of card you're using, but both debit and credit cards should work on itch.io.
i'm sorry if this is a faq, but i have had this game for years and replayed it several times as a comfort replay because i love it so much. this past summer i transferred from my old laptop that barely worked to a macbook i got as a gift. thing is, the steam version of our life is windows only. i had all of the gameplay dlcs on the steam version, and i don't know how to transfer those dlcs to this version so i can play it on my new mac. is it possible?
Yes! As long as you have the DLC files, you can transfer them to any version you want. The DLCs should be located in the "game" folder of the larger Our Life folder. You can send them to yourself, and put them in the new "game" folder of whatever version you're using. For the Mac version specifically, the "game" folder is kind of tucked away, so you'll have to go a few folders deep to find it. If you need more help with that process, just let me know, and thank you for playing!
Amei tanto esse jogo
Helloo!! I really need help idk if it's just me but everytime I go in the app and try to play the game or even for staying a little bit it cashes idk what to do!! I've tried all i can like restarting my device and etc!! sooo if you have any advice for me i would really appreciate it!!!! (I'm on android btww)
We are unfortunately aware of some Android users having issues that we are still trying to work out. Are you getting any error messages when this happens? Have you tried changing your device's security clearances? Just want to cover a few other things first. Thank you for your patience!
I don't but I'll just wait! Thank you for replying!! And for your time I'll wait all my life! Take your time!!!
Ojala estuviera en español, es muy bueno 💔
Tem em pt br?
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We are unable to do any translations for the game, unfortunately. But we appreciate your offer.
That’s fine, no problem. In any case, you have my contact information if you work on another project in the future.
ugh I'll never get over how AMAZING this game is. <3
¿Cuando harán la versión en español? 😭
seguro no lo hacen </3
This game is the most wholesome thing I have ever read.
I love your games; you put so much hard work into them
Ame la novela, fue hermosa, es de esas novelas romanticas de ensueño, en lo personal compré el dlc de la boda y otro que no recuerdo bien, pero algo que me gustaria jugar en el futuro por lo que también pagaria seria ver cuando ya tienen hijos, sería magnífico
I love this game and I want to buy all the DLCs. If I pay for a DLC, will it give me access to both Windows and apk files? Or do I have to pay separately for each version?
If you buy the DLCs here on itch, you will get the PC and apk files! Thanks so much for playing.
Thank you so much. Keep up the amazing work and happy new year!
Love this game so much 🙈
IM SO ATTACHED SA OUR LIFE BEGINNING AND ALWAYS BCS WDYM UNG NAME NG MC IS KAPANGALAN KO RIN???? BROOO I WAS INSTANTLY HOOKED OH MY GOD
HEARING MY NAME SA GAME TWINGES MY HEART BRO WTH
LIKE EVERYTIME THEY SAY IT MY HEART FUCKING ACHES, I FELT LIKE I WAS LITERALLY EXPERIENCING THE GAME FIRSTHAND OH MY GOD
I LOVE THIS GAME SM
i cry so much playing ts. I LUV UR GAMES SP SO MUCH
Ame la novela 😭 me hizo llorar 💗😭
PEAK GAME
hi, is there a way to turn on the high contrast text on android, since you have to press a to do it?
Unfortunately not. We are sorry about that, but thank you for playing.
that's okay, thank you
Tbh I don't really know where to start... There's a lot good things about this visual novel. Well, firstly, it's not that rushed like some of visual novels! Like, it took me around 12 hours to finish the free version and I enjoyed every single second of it... This game gave me so much comfort and I ain't lying! Tbh I didn't cry or anything even though kind of wanted to¿ BUT I kept smiling while playing this visual novel 🥰
It's not only about in-gamelove interest.. It's about life, family and friends. I felt strange and sad when I saw how our dearest people change not only in their appearance. Their lives changed as well :( Each of them had their own pathway. But we all ended up gathering together and making some new memories :)
I am now 16yo and tbh I don't really know how my life will be. I'm afraid of facing the future... Surely Im good at some school subjects and I could think about my future profession that based on them.. but I wouldnt say it's the thing I can really enjoy and do for the rest of my life. I still remember when Cove said something about this topic. That he doesn't want to follow a life plan that someone has come up with. I still think about it... Like, we all can build our lives in the way we want.. Okay, I just don't wanna upset my family by saying that I don't like studying. I guess that's because I still haven't chosen what to do with my life and what job would I really enjoy.. Maybe I just need some time and try different things, but I feel like Im running out of it :(
I'm trying to say that.. well, it was helpful for me to see how characters' lives were going
Ooh this game truly is cozy! I already miss those characters 🥺 I wish I had a life like in this novel. Imagine you live near the ocean, have the nicest friend group and a sweet family with loving parents, making new memories together every summer.. Fifteen years pass by so quickly and you still being with the guy u met on the hill when u were kids 🥺 This is very heartwarming! Okay now I want to live in that novel.
Seriously, it gave me so much joy... I really love how relationship between mc and Cove was slowly developing.. from friends to lovers 🥰 Their feelings manifested themselves gradually.. And it all grew into deep affection and the purest love. It's a little difficult to express my thoughts. Love is such a gentle thing what is shown in this visual novel. I am very glad that we were given the opportunity to feel all this comfort. Need ocean boyfriend who's names Cove Holden ASAP
OKAY THE GAME IS AMAZING!!!!! THANKS YOU SOOO MUCH DEVS 😭😭😭
well i cried while playing this. WHY I DIDNT PLAY THIS SOONER?!?!?!? so good