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A few months ago, Giacomo Guilizzoni looked at me in our one-on-one and said "I have a crazy idea." I was bracing for another reorg or company OS. (Listen, we'd been experimenting!) Then he said: "I think you should be CEO." I spilled my coffee. Literally. And then sat there for the rest of the meeting too stunned to say a word, save for a few initial questions. Not because I didn't want it. I had "be a CEO" filed away on some vague vision board, but for about 10 years from now. After I'd somehow earned the right, whatever that meant. But in this moment I didn't feel like I'd earned it. I was literally listening to someone list ALL the reasons why I had (this rarely happens) and I still doubted myself. Because a few years before, someone I considered a mentor told me I wasn't ready to be a head of marketing. "Why do you think you can do this?" were their exact words when I said I'd gotten the job. It wasn't the first time I'd heard someone doubt me. It was probably one of the most painful. Every time I hit something I didn't know — and there was a LOT I didn't know — it came back. But I'd built my whole career on figuring things out anyway. So I talked it over with some folks, told myself to do it scared, and said yes. Same as always. Though this time would have to be different. My figure-it-outedness has gotten me from social media manager to head of marketing to CEO in under six years. That's a wild thing to be able to say, and even wilder to experience. You can't grow that fast without hitting some tough growing pains. Especially if you've always been the person that says yes. I talked about the whole journey on Growing Forward with Andrew Capland —the self-doubt, the burnout, the unlearning, and what I'd tell the version of me who thought she had to break herself to make it. It's probably the most open I've been on the internet. So even though it's cringey to hear myself talk, I hope this resonates with someone out there. Episode link in the comments ✨