bobbycormier

bobby cormier believes himself to be a renaissance man/ literary lion simply because he types, records & paints too much & always has. between fits of typing, he spends time in jail due to an unwavering commitment to civil (human) rights activism (& esp. gay rights activism) thru civil disobedience. also between typing & recording & painting, he listens to alot of brian wilson's music & the music of early electronic composition pioneers. he records for his own conceptual band HeatLamp. HeatLamp ranges in style & genre from bizarre pop music to the experimental variety & even sound effects & noise. he grew up in a supportive & talented family & tries to live up to this with mixed results. he is extraordinarily vain & functions on almost pure ego. he is trying to change some of these things in a VALIANT & HEROIC & not very sincere effort. mainly tho, this comes across as "self-deprecating" which he knows is not always attractive & so, tries to avoid it. bobby spent his formative years reading a lot of extreme left-wing literature (it was what was available on the bookshelves of his boyhood home) & the writings of the "beat generation" starting in grade 6 & from then on he caused much trouble in school. upon barely graduating high school, he moved to new york city & attended the school of visual arts which he found very interesting because at any given moment, he was not sure whether he was in a performance piece or not. he attended many interesting classes, but probably more parties. he tracked down his literary heroes (the ones that were left alive) within months of his auspicious arrival in the big city. he approached them without fear or shyness on a "what can you do for me; what can i do for you" basis & not-so-humbly offered his services to them (in whatever capacity) so as not to come across as a total sycophant. being a teenager, he thought that he had this all worked out so that it could not fail. he became part of the coteries of many of the giants of the legendary "beat" writers. thru an inflated sense of entitlement, he boldly barged into the lives of many of the luminaries of the literary, celebrity, theater & film worlds. he met and became a friend of many of the superstars of the counter-culture & could be seen being whisked past long waiting lines of the hippest NYC night clubs & being escorted into the VIP rooms of those establishments. offers of great opportunity came fast & furious. he laughed most of these off, but managed to work & accomplish the completion of several notable projects for a few years before the inevitable crash came from overindulgence in various substances, the usual feelings of invincibility that accompany this & unbridled hubris. the comeuppance was devastating to him & resulted in years of depression, agoraphobia & anything else you'd care to name from the psychiatric diagnostic manual. he currently has bipolar disorder & tries not to enjoy the manic highs and occasional hallucinations that sometimes accompany this. he has spent several years in recovery. his most recent stage performance was at the c-note club in new york city's east village & the one before that was 14 years earlier at boston's middle east club. he still types, records & paints too much.