Sensitive: The Untold Story

I am an Athletic Male that grew up in a very unsensitive environment. One where I was forced to be "tough" and not show feelings. My entire life I thought something was wrong with me because I was always so much more emotional than everyone else. My happiness was over the top and different and my pain was always so much deeper. I was always told to "calm down and grow up" or "get over it you wimp".

My entire life I had been searching inside of me to find the answer to this "trauma" I must have suffered to make me this way. When I saw the title of this documentry I wrote it off because "I'm not sensitive, I'm a tough guy".

I'm forever grateful I watched this. It changed everything for me and gave me confidence and understanding about my feelings that I never had. I wish someone would have told me this 30 years ago. I had always knew that I possessed something different than others but I had been made to feel ashamed of it. Now I realize what a gift it is and I pledge the rest of my life to learning to embrace it and teach other to do the same.

My mother catered to my above average smarts and sensitivity. She was an angel! Once I went to Kindergarten in 1983 none of the other kids understood why I was having all of us sit down to try to figure out our differences. It was easier for them to gossip and argue. It turned me into a bully so I wouldn't be bullied. In adulthood, when others wouldn't listen to reason, which was so apparent to me, but outlandish to them, I started to feel insecure. I was one of the first white women to have a baby with a black man in my community, I felt like if was my duty to prove to everyone who was hating other human beings wrong and it gave me a leadership role that I thought would regain my self worth. The children, elders, bosses loved me but none of my peers did. It was very isolating, but yet again, allowed me to survive. Alcohol helped me feel normal. I am paying the price for that now. Is there another video that discusses my reality, or should we make one?

I thought the film was very well done and beautifully put together, but I was so surprised to see the following message continue to flash on the screen about 46 minutes in:

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I am not a person that cries that easy, but I sobbed watching this. I finally felt I had an answer for who I am and why I am the way I am. What a gift.

This was an insightful explanation of why those who are highly sensitive may feel and act differently. It was very helpful. I hope to see more documentaries on this subject from these producers.