As I Am

I'm sorry, but this redundant script, horrible casting, and unrealistic plot is exactly why this film should have went in the trash. This is common amongst gay, African-American films that seem to be a copy/paste and, movies like this, have and are NOT taken seriously. NO OFFENSE! The dynamics are pointless along with the obscure characteristics of the story line. Mixed with the lack of research, the logos, pathos, and ethos make no sense and that's just the basic psychology of script writing. Not to mention, the lack of cinematography, audio, MEANING. It's cute, but it's a horrible representation.

This was only an hour long and the story seems to missing several important pieces. The characters never get a chance to be fully developed and we keep wondering what is wrong w/them. We are expected to make huge jumps of belief/acceptance, but are never able to fully "connect" w/any character (one character falls madly in love and becomes an emotional wreck on the first date). Then we get a quick ending and conclusion to the story. Also, the acting by the two leads was good, but I found ALL of the adult actors were difficult to watch or to take seriously. It was enjoyable, but after thinking about; not so great.

An ode to love both for self and others. Beautifully done, dreamlike. I look forward to more work from Myers and Dunbar. These two have incredible chemistry in this film, also extremely charismatic. I especially want to see more writer/ director works from Bawn, who I think has a nuanced and poetic eye. Compelling mix of harsh reality and dream state. Delicate balance of tension. Lovely use of photography.

I watched "As I Am" after reading the reviews on this site. I'm not sure why I read the reviews first, and I'm not sure why I watched the movie after reading them, since they seemed to be largely negative. Normally that would have put me off, but the trailer was intriguing enough to me that I decided to give it a go anyway.

I won't lie: much of the negativity on here is definitely justified. The worst aspect of the movie by far is the writing, acting and direction of the principal adult characters. As the respective parents of Emmanuel and Demetrius (the two young men who are the romantic protagonists of the story), they simply do not resemble any real people on this planet - they are over the top caricatures and stereotypes saying and doing ridiculous things, and I was cringing in disbelief watching their scenes (some of which appear to be intended as comic relief but fall way short of the mark). It's hard to pick who is the worst offender acting-wise, but my vote would be Rodney Chester as Kevin, one of Demetrius' adoptive fathers who's way too in touch with his inner "sassy black woman" - a truly obnoxious performance.

The shallow awfulness of these characters cannot be overstated, and its effect on the movie as a whole is almost insurmountably detrimental. Which is too bad, because Emmanuel and Demetrius, whose story this is, are actually interesting and appealing. They could have been better developed (the film is very short for a feature, clocking in at just over an hour, so a little more time spent on the principal relationship would not have been a bad thing), but actors Andre Myers and Jerimiyah Dunbar have a great chemistry together and are very convincing in their roles. Myers has the more difficult part - his socially awkward Emmanuel appears almost on the autism spectrum at times - but he pulls it off very well, and Dunbar has a natural screen presence, making Demetrius very likable, with both worldliness and vulnerability. I did find it believable that the two characters would fall for each other, primarily because of the actors' skills, but the writer would have done well to flesh out their relationship more. The ending is abrupt and very clumsily handled - out of left field Emmanuel confronts a familial abuse situation from his past, but it's just barely touched on, and the next thing you know the two romantic heroes are apparently heading off together for parts unknown.

I wouldn't say this is a good movie, but it does have some worthwhile ideas floating around in it, and two commendable lead performances. Several reviewers have complained about the sound quality, but I didn't notice anything particularly amiss about it, and that's something that *would* bother me if it was present. If you watch "As I Am", my advice would be to fast forward through any scenes that the parents are in - you won't be missing anything.

I love low budget movies, I love gay cinema, I love short films, and I love a movie or story when things turn around and the one you thought was the invulnerable one shows his vulnerable side. IMDb says the budget on this was $10k which is just remarkable, and it kind of shows, in a good way. It reads/shows like a play, on the screen. No fancy effects or anything. If you like theater though, if you like watching a play, allowing the story to be told by actors who are acting, and letting your mind fill in the gaps, then you may like this movie as I did.

I was originally giving it 7 stars because I felt I wanted to see more character and story development, but that probably would have meant a 90 minute movie instead of 62 minutes, which may just not have been possible to complete. I changed it to 8 while writing this because it hit such an emotional nerve in a couple of parts that I still have a tear in my eye, and I may have to watch this whole thing again, right now. Thanks, guys. Well done.