13 Novembre: Fluctuat Nec Mergitur

The events in Paris were just news stories to me, incomprehensible really, as I didn't know the places they happened, and news channels whilst no doubt they would have binged on an event like this, they move on so quickly to the next awful thing that there is no emotional impact and never a sense of the lives ruined and altered permanently.

In this three parter, there was no rushed moving on, and no "cat on a skateboard" at the end, before the weather a la TV news. Instead, there were everyday people who saw things that no one should see, and professionals who dealt with cascading crises such that they could never have expected, all described this terrible night with calm, grace and great humility.

The depth of emotion, the lyrical and insightful ways in which some of the survivors describe their experience really struck me, for example Valerie in Ep3 when she reflects on whether or not she would agree to having the memories removed from her consciousness, if this were possible. She said no, her reasons for saying no demonstrate to me why these people, and Paris operate in a different universe to the mindless killers that tried to take it from them.

At this moment I finished this mini Tvserie on Netflix. And while I am typing this I smoke a cigarette because it feels so surreal to have seen this horror. My thoughts go out to the victims on this black day in the history of Paris.

I'm sure I am not alone in that I can recall the night of November 13th, 2015.

I, like many others, was first made aware of the happenings in Paris with the report of explosions at the France v Germany game. Initially, there was confusion as to the source of the explosion, with differing news channels making conflicting reports.

From then onward, however, the evening only became darker as the horror grew and the scale of what was really happening became clear. It seemed unimaginable at the time, having gone from the mysterious explosions at the stadium to the sheer devastation at the Bataclan; it seemed like it would never end.

When it inevitably did, the whole world was traumatised. Nobody could have ever expected something so large-scale and harrowing to have occurred in one of the most liberating locations in the world. But in its aftermath, Paris - and the rest of the world - became stronger as a result.

This deeply moving and chilling documentary gives a new perspective to the night of November 13th and the attacks which took place all across Paris. It reminds us how many countless lives these tragedies affected, and encourages us to remain resilient in the face of terrorism.

This is not a documentary to be missed.

I haven't seen anything in a while that would keep me so engaged that I wouldn't look at my phone once. I sat three hours straight without moving, glued to the couch, absolutely shocked and frozen. This docuseries made me feel like I was there at the night of terror in Paris. Seeing the events through the eyes of the survivors was almost unbearably powerful. Very tough documentary but I recommend to watch it. I will probably have to watch it again to process everything fully, but I'm completely speechless. Thank you for making it and letting us see what it was like to be there, because when you read it in the papers it's just another news that you are shocked by but once you turn the pages you kind of forget about it. This documentary will always help me to remember.

Wonderful documentary about such a tragic period of time. It'll leave you shocked and your jaw dropped! Thanks to all emergency services out there!