| Ashes And Diamonds: Bruce Smith, Daniel Ash, and Paul Spencer Denman (Photos by Chelsea Miller, Regan Catam, and Stuart Matthewman) |
Tankboy
It was me.
Thursday, January 22, 2026
Ashes And Diamonds is the missing link I'd been looking for.
Wednesday, January 21, 2026
Holy moly Blackwater Holylight!
| Photo by Magdalena Wosinska. |
Tuesday, January 20, 2026
There is no correct answer, only honest responses.
In the whole Beatles v. Stones v. The Who debate, I realized I love and respect all 3, but evaluate the question based on both studio and live configurations.The Beatles were superior in the studio, but their fame obstructed them ever becoming a great live band; the Stones were dependable in studio and onstage, but seemed overly predictable to me; while The Who developed into a group that exploded both inside and outside of the studio with impressive consistency.So for me, it’s The Who. 🤘🙂
Friday, January 16, 2026
Memento mori, memento amoris.
Wednesday, January 14, 2026
Coming soon to a TV screen near me!
Thursday, January 08, 2026
Ten years later, David Bowie's final album is still challenging and thrilling...
| Screenshot via the internet Archive |
A final perspective. There are five new David Bowie songs, songs that we know nothing about, not even their names. We may never hear them, but we know that they exist. Let them be unheard. Let this be our gift to the future. There will never be a last David Bowie song if there are always five more to come. The end of the David Bowie story is that it doesn’t end. There will always be another chapter to write. An old-time ambassador, may he forever keep pushing ahead.
Wednesday, January 07, 2026
On never losing your edge because you've never found a home.
| LCD Soundsystem at Hollywood Bowl, photo by me. |
I was thinking about LCD Soundsystem's "Losing My Edge" the other day—as is the wont of most middle-aged men, I suppose—and realized my read of the song, and here my sometimes embarrassingly intense identification with its seemingly tall tales, is based in loneliness and not the realm of the ultra cool.
For years I felt bad for identifying with the song to much, since so many others view the song as a tongue-in-cheek takedown of the hippest cat in the land. But I realized that to me, the song is evidence of an extremely lonely existence, narrated by a man never at the center of the scene, but constantly drifting through scenes. This isn't the tale of someone so cool he is at the center of every monumental happening and historical trend, it's the perspective of someone with no constant community, who finds himself drifting into these situations through his constant but never fruitful search for belonging.
You generally can't experience a ton of disparate experiences when you have a solid social circle or are rooted in a found family, because those roots help keep you somewhat grounded and on a firm path. Then there are those of us eternally cursed to surf the edges of endless different scenes with the bittersweet payoff being we actually do get to experience fractured planets of history firsthand, but it's only because we are constantly in a wobbling and ever expanding orbit, doomed to never have a true home to call our own.
Monday, January 05, 2026
Some meandering thoughts about legacies that aren't mine to open up the year.
Tuesday, December 16, 2025
Musings on 'Machina.'
Friday, December 05, 2025
It's the last band camp Friday of 2025!
Wednesday, November 19, 2025
Lotsa love for 'Little Darlings.'
Wednesday, November 12, 2025
I'm grateful to be here to witness all the beauty of this world.
Yesterday was quite a day. One of those jam-packed days at the 9-to-5 where you feel like you’ve done a week’s worth of work in a single day. But it was also the kind of workday that ended with me feeling incredibly happy and accomplished. As I was standing on my front porch in the evening, the rolly-polly-ist of raccoons came to my front step to say hi before adorably wobbling off.
Then my Aurora app alerted me there was a super-low chance the Northern Lights might be visible in my area, but living in the middle of a brightly lit city like Chicago, I initially discounted it. Until I saw the slew of posts from friends who were seeing them within the city limits, which spurred me to walk over to the nearest park in hopes of catching a glimpse.
Unfortunately, for some reason, a Chicago police SUV was parked there with its brights on, so I was about to give up until I realized that the church parking lot near my place might have enough open space with minimal light pollution for my needs. After getting there and initially seeing nothing, suddenly a brilliant and shimmering red stripe of aurora borealis popped up overhead, and I spent the next 10 minutes alternately gazing up in awe and snapping lots of photos.
I couldn’t believe how bright the Northern Lights were, visible to the naked eye without the aid of an extended camera exposure, and the experience filled me with wonder and joy, and I got that super intense pleasurable tingle from an experience you’ve truly never had before. I’ve been trying to hold onto that sensation for as long as possible, before it just fades into an experiential memory.
It took me an hour or so to come back down from that natural high, but once I did I settled in to watch Dracula A.D. 1972, a film recommended by my partner that I hadn’t yet finished, and it was the grooviest end to a truly remarkable day.
Our times are currently incredibly turbulent and uncertain, but days like yesterday remind me why we keep moving forward. It’s a beautiful world out there, and we only have so long to experience it. And me? I’m glad I’m alive to do so.
Tuesday, November 04, 2025
No joke—it's time to brighten up your day with Sadlands!
| Photo by Brittany Rose Queen |
Tuesday, October 28, 2025
The return of Rocktober (in spirit)!
Wednesday, October 15, 2025
Shredding riffs and Super Creeps.
| Dave Suh & the Dirty Wings, photo by me. |
| Super Screeps, photo by me |
Thursday, October 09, 2025
A more personal, positive check-in.
I thought I was operating at a higher level over the last couple of years since I quit drinking**, but I haven’t felt this preternaturally sharp since I was a teenager! (And now with (hopefully) more wisdom!)
It’s kind of scary…but really exciting. And here I thought I was destined to remain a distant hermit, hanging as a shadow over my previous accomplishments. But now I feel a whole new chapter of possibilities opening before me.
(If I can ever quit smoking—the one addiction I've yet to be able to shake—I can only imagine what that would do for me. But for a guy who didn’t think he was going to live to hit 50, the way I feel now I makes me think I could make it to 90 (depending on which side of my family’s genes end up deciding the whole longevity thing…)!)